A Shadow Christmas

Beneath the wall of decors, the blinking lights of Christmas Tree, the cheerful smile that can brighten up the spirit of Christmas. It’s another holiday, to be joyous and be filled with hope, love and peace. While, other families, welcome the birth of Christ with only simplicity and love. While, others share it with abundance food set on a long table. I am happy. I celebrated the season with my mom, brother and sister and also with a dad who only think of himself. But, life continues, you can’t be sad, if one can’t be complete or be committed to the family, rather than to accept things without faking the joy that where doing fine. However, Christmas will be over. Another year comes to start new beginnings, to share a love that is true! Filled with commitment and no shadow will befall and be scared to see things had been change for better or for worst.

Jolly Day for a Jollibee Day

It was a happy day for me. A once in a lifetime experience, I could help and see a child smile in a Children's Hospital as I gave them or accompany the Jollibee Mascot touring around the vicinity ward. I really won't missed that day, even I'm tired from a 24 Hour duty at terminal 3. I won't let that day slipped into my hands. That December 14, 2008, the most memorable event of my life. I have seen a smile on a child's eye, that certain look and laughter that I'll remember for the rest of my life. I have not contributed anything financially on that Children's Party but the time and effort that I gave maybe sufficient, for me to say I have done a good part and that I love helping them as a NGO Volunteer because no words could explain the happiness I felt.
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Yes,Indeed. My one wish had come true. Mrs. Gonzales had interviewed me already.
I have started to mingle with those poor and sick child. I guess, they have touch my life in different way that I should always remember that I need to be thankful for I am well, with healthy life and with the love and support of my Family.

I've been looking for ways to be happy, but, on that wonderful day. Even, I'm tired and so sleepy. I felt the energy rushing on my system because I love what I'm doing. I can't explain how joyful my heart is, all I know, I'm so thankful that I have time to spend it with them...

To see the smile and the warmth embrace they gave to the JOLLIBEE MASCOT, I can sense how happy they are, even they felt enormous pain on their body as a young child. I believe on that great day, their hearts are filled with Joy.

Thank you Lord for giving me that moment...

Why do girls attracts Men who doesn’t knew how to love?

Why do girls attracts Men who doesn’t knew how to love?
By: Seraphimblue

It truly does, a magnet attracts two opposite poles. But, what if you attract the same charge you had. It’s amazing but it simply does apply to the real world. The Law of Attraction really does fit for your own set of record.
Yes, there were times. Some, lady wished to have a good and serious conversation. Share some insight, learn new things and try some new sports or hobby to be familiar of how mankind does his own move.

But, as we face the rules of cyber world, even it’s indefinite, unreal and imaginative. One might caught in addiction, chatting, sharing vivid ideas or creating a new world of their own. A conference Room where only two or more people hooked up having and sharing the same set of ideas, naughty thoughts, dreams and inspirations. They end up liking or just be as completely stranger.

Be aware of people who disguise themselves as Friendly and good in nature but it turns out that they are not the people you knew they are. Don’t simply base a person through a conversation, not only in writing or opinions. Watch out their words, don’t be deceived. Watch out their style of lies.

Though it bothers my senses, so I tried to do some researched and test some men. If there are real Man who really doesn’t knew how to Love.

There is one guy, his young, gorgeous, fabulous at work and in family, intelligent, speak so wisely, secretive individual, a loner, manipulative, a programmer of their own thinking, selfish in denial, Self-centered, Ego tripping, wealth gupping, a well achiever, ambitious in nature. A Wise individual who experience to fight their own life. A man who survived death, who doesn’t shared his grief and happiness. A good and caring friend but no ideal loving partner. His been a special friend for almost 2 years now , an ex-military young men.

The second one is, a man who plays around with girls, a bachelor at age of 30 and up, who loves to chat and meet woman online, one who seeks freedom, no commitment, no definition of love, loving is indefinite word for him, intelligent in nature but narrow-minded in thinking, cannot be influence, a man who resides alone, happiness seem by having new gadgets and games. A mind of test and maze, he do things on his own will, doesn’t care of anyone, afraid to the real world of relationship and commitment, stubborn and unreal to his self, Self-preserve, cannot be treasured as a friend even us intimate partner. A casual friend, a stranger on the site.

So, be cautious with those kind of men. Some women can’t help to fall in love with their charm and intelligence could easily won a girl’s heart. Yes, indeed it’s positive. It could happen. The sad part is they fell on the trap and ending up being hurt. There is 60 percent probability, that a women attracts the same set of attitudes and characteristics they have. Why do girls magnetize those kind of men, because they let them be part of their life, they knew the signs but they ignore. Some ladies fall in love because some hope for a fairy tale ending. But, they end up choosing the wrong man and they attract it themselves due to fears and unreal commitment they make.

But, I believe there is still goodness in one’s heart. Love could be learn if one can be able to sacrifice for their own happiness. People should learn give real love, sincere and honest love even the other half would not return it all.

Delayed PT Volunteer

I never knew, if its coincidence or fate, how come my interview at the NGO personnel delayed each day. My friend keeps texting me to come and get dressed for the interview, either the person had a meeting at DOH, absent or sick and my Interview will be postponed and be dated another week. Does my Angel whispered me that I need to postponed my volunteer work at Children's Hospital or should I wait for the right hour.
Life is filled with mysteries.

Now, my insomnia attacks again. I end up sleeping at 2am. I'm filled with worries that my mind keeps thinking even if my body wants to rest and sleep. I can't explain, but my anxiety blows again. Should I discard my feelings and focused on what I want. But, how can I concentrate? If I'm filled with fears. I guess, I need to pray harder and to have faith. Life is filled with struggles. I've been very busy being responsible to all the problem that arises. Sometimes, I forget myself. I end up being unhappy but I can't do anything to stop being lonely inside. It seems, I'm searching things that I couldn't find. All my life, there are hundreds of delays. I can't even count.

My charity works delays my existence. I'm afraid of new changes, but, need to accept the new challenges that I need to partake. I really need to be patient and let me look for some inspiration. I hope, I'll find it sooner. Delays makes me evaluate myself more. Until, I arrive at a point, where everything aligns all path and I'll be happy in the end. Wishing my PT volunteer works will be granted for my new learning and spiritual growth.

Hold my hand, Never let it Go—Said God

Oftentimes,I asked various questions that battling my mind. But , none of those have been answered. Whenever I grief for a failed wish of a good career or a success of an exam. A past failures , a broken heart, bad relationship which makes me hanging in a catatonic episode of my life. Even it’s in my heart desire to fulfill such goals. It never happens. But, I continue to move on.

Even it seems so inevitable or explicable, it may seem so imaginary that my mind made up, that makes my life so miserable, that others can’t figure out my actions. Yes, Indeed, I’m filled with worries and fear from the past events. But, still, I continue to be anxious. Then, I remember a story of a daughter and his father.
Then, the story goes:

Father and daughter were crossing a narrow bridge.
Father asked the child to hold his hand, as they crossed.
So, the child would never fall and lost any grip.
Daughter said, “No, dad. You hold my hand.”
Father asked, “What’s the difference if you hold my hand
rather than I hold yours?”
Daughter said, “If I hold your hand.
I might let go. But, if you hold my hand,
you’ll never let me go!”

Sometimes, we intend to lose the grip. Certainly, We lost hope to continue life and struggle to some challenges of Life. But, Our Savior, Father in Heaven continues to love us unconditonally.

No matter, how many times, we fell on the ground, his rod stick are there to help us to stand. We might let go, but, he will be ready to reach us and embrace us tight because we are his children and he love us dearly.

As I seek my confidence and discovered myself. I have search and look for ways to enlighten my soul, to lift my hearts and mind to unite and think well compassionately. I learn to remember the story.

A delighted hope, that whenever we lose faith , there is someone up above , smiling and ready to accept our weaknesses and failures. We just need to ask and never let go of his hand.

A Seminar & a Fake Infatuation

Last November 18 at 2:30 pm , I was in St.Luke's Hospital at Cathedral Heights Auditorium 1 for a Seminar about COPD and Quit cessation of Smoking. I was invited by a Chief PT of the other Hospital. The day was so wonderful, it's the time where I could meet again my old pal Girlie and Marizza in My UP Manila Refresher Course, time to catch things up. Even, it's quite painful to reminince the old PT Board Exam. But, I have given hope to pursue my dreams. I guess, there is a reason why PT is still keeping me back into alignment, where my heart belongs. While, the day was filled with new knowledge ahead, aside the place was so prestigious because of the Hospital Name. Some facts,I have learned and some exercises that can be useful with patients having a Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease patients, that I'll be encountering soon in my practice and it can be beneficial.

As well as, I could teach it to my parents as well. As I have taken some notes for me to remember and browse. With a good meal and a lot of Pharmaceutical Give aways like sanitizer, medicines and tissue, what else could be? Fabulous souvenirs....it ends at 6pm, quite dark and I have a long way to go. still, need to travel for about 3 hours in Cavite.

Then, I decided to visit Nazareno , the famous and loving Quaipo Church, its been a while, since I went there to pray and I missed being on that place, it gives me serenity, joy and it comforts me, just sitting at the bench chairs of the church and looking at his face. I felt his Love for me.

At the same time , I need to meet some special guy, the Broadcaster Commentator whom I met on Tagged website. Well, As I met him, wearing a white polo and Maong pants,I never expected that he could be fast, as fast and loud as his personality. His cute,has long shape nose, cute two dimples, a sweet sleepy eyes and a hunky body type with strong biceps muscles.. that i love to hug. Actually, his fine with me, but, the sad part, He is too proud of himself and too insensitive. Maybe, love collides and he is not the right man for me. but, still, I prefer to go on dating until the right Man came in my life...

Men are scared of commitments!

Nowadays, its difficult to find someone who can truly accept who you are! Who accept your weaknesses, who understand the real you and the things that you love doing almost every day. It's sad to say, that most men are looking for someone to play around. They mingle to women who are not so serious at all. Men are usually afraid of having a commitment. I believe that they are simply afraid of the responsibility their going to undergo. Women looks for someone who can truly love them, who listens to all their stories, to accompany them whenever they go out, to share some interesting new fad, who can treat them right decently and faithfully. Whom they can be comfortably staying all night listening to a favorite tune. But, men are opposite, they watched and observed our body language. They knew our signs. They knew if we like them, then, their fangs are marked within our skins.They can easily attached their venom so the poison runs into our circulation. Until, they are hooked up and we are too. However,we need to remember that we need to be careful. Sometimes, we need to value and learn to be more appreciative and be more observant of their actions. Sometimes, women should listen to their voices and watched for every move they make. Maybe, someday, if they met the right one for them. They can easily give their hearts. They're full attention and they are willing to sacrifice just to win a woman's love for eternally. It could happen, if you believe, it will happen. True love could exist in a Man's Heart and fears will be blown away. A Conversation goes like this: "you should just walk it on your mind to get to know how you make all these things happen before you can even understand-he says:
Then, I replied:
its your decision to make it happen
it starts in the mind,,then in the heart.....
Commitment comes naturally in one's heart, like sacrifices comes unknowingly. It delivers you to a completely different world filled with joy and everlasting true love. Men could learn to love, if the stone of hearts fall on their head so hard.

A Tagged for Ante

You keep on browsing for a beautiful lady on net. But, you end up searching for your heart. Your daily routine, grasp different opinions and comment, does your heart really felt the strong emotions. With your love voice, an echo broadcast, plays a tiring and fulfilled day. Happiness remain constant in one's heart because you do best in your craft. A call interprets one soul, intentions are unclear but friendship can grow. Maybe, there is a sweet connections and only God determines, if spirits attracts two poles. Serendipity may occur. Time would set the course. A tag was made, a love can behold or uphold. Only two choices are made. It's within our hearts, to let love flood in. It's our decision to hold or let go. So, just simply tagged in, my dear new friend, Ante.

A Pound for Goodness

If a person was forced or pulled into a post, would you remain constant, controlled or follow the power it holds you. Will you try to exchange your trysting place into a busy day. If your determine to say yes,will you able to sacrifice for others to be in good shape, where they need your help? Would you comply and bent the rules? Or just simply sent a request to your supervisor because your just doing the right thing, ahead of their knowledge with your sincere respect. Yesterday,It's a great blessing. I have decided to be posted in another terminal due to lack of people on that said day. Its a good decision, aside, my stomach was so full of numerous drinks, kuwaiti food and pancit for dinner. I'm blessed because all of those things are free. Our Doctors and Assistant are so generous, kind and thoughtful. Surely, they knew how to handle their subordinates. I'm very thankful for them. Happiness filled my hearts, I have ample time to catch up things with my fellow colleague and a good friend of mine. We share ideas and opinions towards certain incidents that occur. One factor, that shows her real attitude is towards money. She had a bigger view in terms of earning her hard cash. She wants all to be accounted.I believe she value her earned salary for working dedicatedly.However, I'm proud of her. She only wants the money that we all shared must be used accordingly.
The day was great, there are laughters and giggles. Loud voices and simple cute quarrels are heard. I'm so blessed, I have help someone. I don't know, but, helping other people comes to me so naturally. It feels so light upon rendering service. You can't explain the happiness and fulfillment. I guess, a little pound wouldn't hurt as an exchange of goodness. It's a heart whelming episode upon receiving simple gift from up above and he knows how sincere my intentions are. But, I'm not asking for any reward. A simple thank you and a smile of a child brighten up my day. Everything ends with light joy. I wanted to have a wonderful duty and indeed comes true. To serve others, to extend good things to them without expecting any reward in return. But, angelically, gifts poured from heaven.

Everything happens for a reason

When a pot of flowers fell on your head in a high rise building? When you lost your wallet on your way to work? When your trapped in a pit hole where construction site is going? When your interview dress is filled with vomit of a crying baby? When your stock in a heavy traffic going to your first interview? When a fire broke at your office at 7 in the morning? When a typhoon came as u log out in your company? When everything you do, doesn't work for a day. How can you cope? Maybe, you can end up saying. Everything happens for a reason. Is there any real purpose, why certain situation happens? What if that scenario,delays you to do things for your own goodness. It delays you to continue your work. You need to listen in your intuition. It might get worst, if you won't listen to a whisper of your own angels.You can never tell.Your life could be at stake. Thou, sometimes, you hold your own opinions. you already figure out, the results. But, your too blind to see it. Too stubborn to prevent the mishap. To lazy to follow such another path. To pride that strucks like lightning in the end. But, to sum it up. I believe, everything has its own reasons. Everything has their own purpose. Some might regret the consequence, some might look for other alternatives. I wondered, it's your own will to follow or not. You hold your own key in your hand. So, face the inevitable. Be Brave and have that confidence in you......

Work or Visit My Grandma, What will it Be?

A Decision,a commitment to hold. But,where should I stand? I have already think a thousand times. I arrived at a good conclusion last Sunday morning. Yes, I went to go for work. I need to attend my duty.I have already prayed and asked my deceased Lola that I can't visit her at Heritage Park. I need to work. With all the loans and cut salaries. I really need to be there at Terminal 2. I guess, sometimes, we need to decide whether we need to go or just paused, think, what is best for everyone. Family is my main priority but, we can't be together all the time. I need to do some sacrifices for the benefit of our Family. I believe that my Loving Grandma understands. She knew that I need t go for work and I knew that she loves me and still,she is watching over us. I Love my Lola so much and no matter what happens. She will alway be in my heart and her memories will always be lingered. Though sometimes , I really miss her. But, I knew she is Ok, she is with our dear Father in Heaven with my Grandpa, Auntie and other Lola's, she is happy with them. So, I prayed for their spirits that is all I can give, a peace and with comfort and loving hearts.

“You’re my Love, My Destiny”

I light a candle, I prayed for you
I dreamt a guy
I wished for someone to came by
Is it you, I’ve been waiting
Does my sign really works for you
If you’re the one
Will you stay longer
Will your love be pure
Will you be sincere in your thoughts
I’ve been waiting for so long
For a real guy to pass by
Did my wish granted?
Is he my prince charming?
Whom I loved
For the rest of my Life
To whom I will share
My loneliness and grief
And even the hardships
And difficulties in Life
Are you willing to give yourself
To your one and only love
Whom you will share your life with
Are you the one for me
Whose sent from Heavens above
If I love you faithfully
Will you love me faithfully
Will you love me back
If I will care for you
Would you even care for me
A little
But, I’ll still give you
My Unconditional Love
If you were my Destiny
Can I hold you Forever,
My Love……..
by: Seraphimblue

Everyone believes that there someone meant for them to share their love for eternity, someone who will be there for them until their hair turns grey. A love that is everlasting, one who loves dearly, faithfully with trust and respect. Everyone wished that her destiny is near, As you wish for a falling star. Someday, our wishes will meet and will fall our near and whisper those words. "I do, love you so forever"

Shortage of money boost up Anger & Irritability

I believe that 90 percent of people have their own swing mood disorders. There are a lot of various factors that adds up to their unpredictable minds. Some can be naive, timid, can laugh for joy, or cuddle the whole evening with a pillow or end up in pail of tears, while, other's can raise their temp. in 38 degree's and end up getting a full blown of stroke. While, some can read a good book and let the moment pass by listening to Mozart or Beethoven classical songs. So in a way, even the lack of money of hundreds of people can also shook up their head and they start arguing with their fellow friend, siblings or even their own parents. One can be so unpleasant if one handles all the budgets and especially if she doesn't have any enough salary. The worst scenario, she is not contented on what she had because she wants more but she can't because she doesn't have any money to even support her likes and wants, materially or even just to make her day happy by a simple food , she wants to eat. I have learned that emotions are originated in our brain primarily at the hypothalamus. It integrates our different attitudes towards certain things. The way we respond, our fight and flight mechanism , our arousal and alertness level are situated in our brain. That is why if something goes wrong , our body reacts to a safety mechanism, it can balance our system and reverse back. But, it depends how much extensive the injury is. Who Among us, doesn't experience of having ten peso coin left in our pocket. We feel angry, pity and we blame ourself. Do we spend so much of things that are not valuable or rather , this is all we left from all the expenses we had for a month. While, others, We passed by in the roads, bridges, corridors and light post. All they have is a 10 peso coin on their tin can. I have written this, for me to feel thankful on things I have. I might not bought a gift or things I really wanted to have but I should be thankful for the Life I had. Yes, I'm only human. I feel emotions that really knocks my head off. I feel arrogant, rude , cruel and greedy. But, as I sit and realized. I shouldn't treat others or myself like that. I knew, that all of us encountered shortage of money that makes our mind go crazy. But, to sum it up. All we need is a little comfort and cheer to our loved one, telling us everything will be fine that we need is to pray and have faith. I read an article, that each generations have their own crisis, Yes, indeed, each generations encountered chaos, battles and poverty. In conclusion, its temporary, humankind move on. We might have a financial global crisis at the present but as we move along the road. We can see ourselves, Life is like a traffic sign, it might signaled red for STOP but it turns Green to GO.

A New Baby: To rock my World

Is there any way to be happy but rather to have a baby on your own. But, I guess, it will be 3 years before I decided to go for marriage. But, at this moment, I'll be contented to wait for my first niece to come. Yes, indeed, my sister is expecting to have a Baby. It's a long story. I may say, regrets are always in the end. People must learn in a hard way for her/him to know his/her mistakes. That, next time, a person must use his/her mind before he/she do something. A man or woman must think first, not only for her own happiness, but, the welfare of persons surrounding her. To change the subject. My emotions are mixed during this past weeks. I felt betrayed. I felt that I'm the one should be blamed, but, to sum it up. Its not my decision. I have done everything to prevent such catastrophe. But, it's her own life. I had advised her from the moment of that relationship. I'm surprised and yet I'm happy because this time. I'll be taking good care of my real baby, one that is our own blood. One that I can kiss whole day long, one that I can teach to write, sing, dance, blog, chat and even listen to Youtube. A Baby that could rock my silent World. An Intelligent Baby who can sermoned her mommy to do good and to straighten up her thinking. My world will be shaken by a new creature, but, I will love him/her like the way I did to my sister and brother. To sum it up, I should learn to be patient with a cheerful smile....

10 Years of Love Crashed Away

If Love was supposed to last for a Lifetime. Why does anyone fall out of love? And the misery starts when pain grows each day. As you remember the old times, the laughter and the embrace that you bought gave. Come what may, Love prevails. Even there are persons whose against with the relationship. One truly in love fights for true and endless love. Some say, if your meant to love each other, even how many times you break up or lose your way. There will come a time, that your cross road will meet. That if destiny is in your hand. No mater how many decades, you didn't seen each other. Love will still be the same. Love will still gives another chance. Love will blossom even how many decades passes by. If one truly decides to be together, no one can ever dictates, no one can never stop the love you have for each other. But, it always have to be a decision of two souls, two soul mates must meet in one path, one genuine love must stay on each hearts. A lifetime decision to be together, filled with hope, faith , respect and most of all, a love that is everlasting. I may fall out of Love due to a lot of reasons. Still, I learn to open my Heart. As I noticed, that even 10 years of relationship could not mean forever. Years can't be an evidence for Love to stay. Yes, the pain are so enormous, that you want to die instantly. However, a man or a woman should discard that mindset. Even how hurtful it can be. You will still live, you can still hope and most of all you could learn to love again. Maybe, there is someone meant for you. maybe, she/he is there for you to learn to love yourself more, maybe, you need to replace the old you, maybe, no one can love you , the way she/he did. But, to sum it all. You learn to love, you learn to offer yourself , you learn to sacrifice and let her/him go. It is not because you don't love him/her but, you need to tell yourself. it is enough. I need to move on, without you. To see things, without you. To feel things, without you. To grow, without you, To be thankful, without you.I remember my past heartaches. But, I learn to forgive and hope that there will be someone who will truly love me. As I watched, a sibling crushed his heart to a sad song. I only wished for him, to hold on and to trust in God's plan. Pain is a temporary emotions, you can't dwell on it forever. A 10 Years of a relationship can be gone for just blink of an eye. But, I tell you. It is worth the journey because you learn to love. That is the most precious thing that even our dear creator gave us.

I'm not hired but I gain Friends

What are they looking for? Are they looking for a star quality appearance. A voice of Drew Barrymore, an accent of Hugh Grant. A face of Mandy Moore. Yesterday, I was so dissapointed but happy as well. I only have 2 minutes and the exam will start at 10am. Luckily, I had taken the exam. I was successful, I passed the first one, then into 15 persons we are left with 6. I'm included with that group. A second exam came. The funny thing is, its 20 minutes with 80 questions. I can't figure out, how fast are their clock, it feels like its not 20 min. I have not answered the second page. Then, the girl gets out and get all our papers. Then, there is a radio for our 3rd exam. Then, we listen to a conversation and a multiple choice exam are taken. After, a few minutes,they called one guy. Then, all person whose left in their chair are the one's who does not qualified. The HR told us that we can apply for 3 months again. I can't believe that I failed. I hate to say but with that fast clock they have I should have passed. Well, better next time and next company, I may say. That's what I did, with a new friend beside me. Dra. Mes, we went in another company. But, sadly. The HR girl, has the ability and charm to make believe that you can be really hired on their company. She has the ability for you to hope, the way her actions does, her twinkling eyes, her smile and the way she communicate. The way she pronounces each words coming out from her mouth tells us that we can be qualified. But, in the end, our hopes failed.She want us to be honest and personal. But, to sum it up. She is choosy , she is finding something, she is looking for someone quite the same with her. Someone whom she believe who has the star quality factor for being a Call Center Agent. Can't u believe, we are 4 Medical Allied and one Engr. She doesn't hired us all. We had spoken courteously and intelligently. But, we failed. Then, we went to another company. We wished that the interviewer will be nice, but sadly she is starving and with bad luck the one who interviewed me on the phone. Is the girl who interviewed us. That's the moment I feel that I'm not belong. Maybe, there's a right job for me , waiting. Something that I could be useful. A job worth with my commitment and passion. I failed all the Interviews but I gain new friends, perhaps, a new girlfriend for my brother. I thank God for the experience. To be good at my craft, to be blessed on what I have, to learn to wait for the right job created on my skills. I still created a positive attitude towards a new understanding of what things I can't have or things that I can achieved.

First Call from so called Mr. Sweetie

So many clicks. But,only one guy noticed my Angel. A tagged profile was beautifully made. Angel concepts parades my web. Perhaps, a stranger from another country. But, one race connects us together. Yes, he can speak the same language. Then, one call was heard. It started a new beginning, friendship of sweetness, familiarity and compatibility are still running. Soon, it will be tested at the right time and at the right place. Even one laugh, one joke, one song and one expression voices out that certain bond begins. He called me "Sweetie" and I called him "Mr.Sweetie".Maybe, both Mouse clicks because we belong to a place where plane parks in a hangar. Where only engines of care are heard? Where sweet talks and romantic caress are missed-out? At this moment, Both Worlds are faraway. At this hour, timezones are unique. While, you look ways to reach a certain horizon for us to be together, only in words or calls. As you browse a page,you noticed a sweet , cute sensible soul? You reach my hand and until you whisper to my ear, the words I longed to hear. Are you sincere or your fooling me around. Nobody knows what your heart's desire. Until then, I wanna hear you sing me a song again, "Angels brought me here?"...as I comply you might be the one who answered my prayers.

A Normal High

Big drops of rain pours outside my window. Awaken at Nine O'clock by a loud sound of Alarm. I prayed and thank God for the day ahead. Even it's cold and I want to cradle myself in my bed.I need to fix myself up because I still need to meet my friends after lunch. But, before that I need to ate my breakfast and go upstairs to check the CSC website to confirmed, if I'm truly passed the sub-pro exam.What a surprised, it's really true, Michelle's word of mouth came true. She called last night for that good news. Thank God for a precious gift and I thank mitch for believing in me.. One Self-esteem point boost up my engine again to fight my daily struggles with love and guidance of our dear Lord. What a wonderful day to start with. Yes, frankly it's not a normal day, usually I have to be at the airport today but I really valued my friends and I missed them a lot so I decided to be absent to be with them especially one of my closest pal is leaving for US tomorrow, it's cindy, a friend I'm with for 3 yrs at San Juan De Dios. I'll miss her but we have different lives to take care with and I wish her luck for the journey ahead. May all her dreams be fulfilled with guidance of our dear Lord. I, Lhorna and Lai just arrived in time in MOA, a long walk, to watch the ocean spread behind the brick walls, as a fountain danced with glee, a moment to smell the fresh breath of sea, we enjoyed talking as we walk on by. Until we arrived at a post, as a white van came across the sidewalk of San Miguel by the Bay. We knew, Maricel with her parents are already here, a 3 hours trip from Bataan just to see us and dine with us coming from Singapore.She will treat us, she was so blessed, a nice loving, cheerful lady. I wished her happiness and all the love. I'm excited to see her again. Yes, indeed. What A high,fantastic rainy and fabulous day to meet with my loving and true friends. Even a level of cholesterol with a normal high value can't beat up the love, care and comfort we gave for our friendship. A genuine, authentic union of spiritual warrior soul of friends equip with a true bond of friendship and a strong faith in God.

The Perfect Shoe

At Nine o'clock am, I can't open my eyes, I'm so tired at work and I haven't have enough sleep yet. But, I have promised to my best friend that I'll be accompanying her to apply at Makati but We end up in Baclaran to buy a shoes for Sunday's Wedding. i'm sweating over my head and back, the humid air and rays of sunlight makes me drink a glass of water. I burst out with laughter, as the shoes of ann continue to breaks slowly on the side and even she can't walk into. I need to buy her one, so she can used it when she will be applying for work in makati. As I look, for the perfect shoe, either I end up over sized or out of stock. Until, I tried very hard to find one, Sometimes, we are too busy looking on our side that all this time that thing that you valued more are so near at you. That you seldom noticed. Until you look closely and listen to your heart. You pretend not to like, for many reasons your looking for much better, much benificial , much attractive and pleasant but all along all you wanted is thing you hope for, the thing you desire most. With the same style, the same wedge, the same color of authenticity that approves your senses. But,summing it up. You'll buy the shoes with your fave color, your own style, the one that fits you and the one that makes you comfortably walks around. No mater how much time you put up finding the right perfect shoe. In conclusion you are the one who makes decisions to have those pair of shoes.

My First BookFair: A Healing Episode

Countless Books, I encountered during the Book Fair last Sept.15. Alone, I mingle and I've been so fascinated how many publishing Bookstore participated that event. All kinds of ages enjoyed , summing around like bees in tons of books parading and exhibiting their featured contents. For Four Hours touring all the booths, some giving away bookmarks and article notebooks. I managed to stand with long hours of standing without taking my lunch just to swam around with books. Amazingly, I keep coming back on the same booth, I visited first. Its OMF Literature Publishing. Finally, I have waited, there is a live broadcast Interview of the writer who published the Book called "The Heart of Healing". I listened for about 5-15min., I was touched by his message and how dedicated he is in her loving wife who has a dreadful disease of Lupus, a gene disorder, a rare pathologic disease that dominated in females, I pitied the writer, I know how difficult it is to support and care a lupus patient because I experienced having that kind of patient during my internship years.
I can sense how dedicated and passionate he is, it determines that it is based on his true indwelling experiences how he fight and struggled together with his wife.
How he managed to care, support , help and provide for his family and for her loving and dying wife. A Husband whose willing to sacrifice even his own life but all he can give is his faith to go and live for his kids. The wife died and the book is the living legacy .A sign of his undying love for her wife so others can be inspired to learn to love unconditionally. The book serves as a healing tool for him and the kids, as well as, an instrument for others to be brave for the dreadful conditions that they are experiencing at this moment.The book will enhanced their faith in God, to continue to believe and be healed through the Good News that our Savior is always on our side, because he loves us unconditionally. While, I admired his effort and great love for her wife. If I could only wished that I'll find my Great Love, soon. But, furthermore, I've been walking alone in the aisle with books surrounding me and I felt good. Even, my feet swell with miles of walking. I sighed , what a wonderful day filled with thousands of books to see and I thank God for it.

Little Voices (Part3)

The most dreadful thing, I noticed. After, they used it, all the sacrifices, the hard work, and the undying sleepless night. You won’t be able to ask why, that as quickly as it disappears in front of you, as one dictator commanded it.
Some are too narrow in thinking, the only things that wanted to be heard is the exact answer with the same questions coming from out their mouth, chances ate they only want to hear , what they want to listen. They want people to talked, but, they want to hear their own voice echoing. They act as they say, they held appointments. Meetings and committee’s, but, reactions are not coming from them. Each direction are reprimanded and followed by fear not by will. Some has bigger ideas for future security, but the welfare
Of people involved are not well-defined. They set certain boundaries and schematic diagrams to enrich potentials in giving profit, but, both ends still questionable and unknown, that make a great escape, a great kind of event that makes the little ones lost, confused and cheated. Whenever a person asked me, why do people climb on a top of a mountain? I just answered them two statements. It’s an opportunity to climb and share the wondrous creations I have seen in m eyes, that a man could ever imagined or a chance to be one’s thorn, to throw rocks on people below to self-gain, self-security, self-fame, self-idolatry for other’s to follow and be slave for rudeness, selfishness, pride and ego. I was once in a group of team, where the shells sparkles like a diamond, but, I was wrong, it’s black as a coal. Some don’t have insights, their blinded with camaraderie made b extravagant gatherings and overwhelming praises. Some forget to hear their ears are entangled by fear, pride, self-centered and self security of the status, they intend to have. The pressure of choosing one’s integrity is overlooked by silent actions.
Some are traitors, judge mentalist, publicist, storytellers who had their own set of stories to unfold, one lines of music and lyrics to play without discovering the old strings, the real lines of the song. They do want they want, they change and replace the words and scattered them to the guitar strings. They set some new rules, but, unity and respect are not gained. Leadership is meant but safeguarding oneself and transferring responsibility are not ideal for a society. Good people, the dedicated one who has sincere, concerns are burned. Are kept and sealed in an open basket, Target arrows are tracking their paths; each detailed sequences are marked down and traced b an enemy unknown. Preparing to have a good kill and strike the good one’s upon each tunnel it passed.
Each survivor learn the strategy , a technique of reality that anyone could be instantly be naïve, or a consistent high rank vulture with a keen sense of eyeing for a prey, hunting each possible bait.

Making of Website: A Remedy for Lonelines

As I browse, makes new lay-outs, customized and meet new friends online. My life keep busy for a while. But, to sum it up. Does it really cure my frustration in life, the failures and struggles I have been through. I can't hide it anymore. I feel so sad, depressed and I pity for myself for being so stupid to believe in such dreams that easily fades away. Making a website entails lots of fun. By filling up wonderful, bright colors, designs and different widgets that makes your website so unique and different. But, the ending still you need to update all the websites. You need to enlighten each mentors you have. All has pure hearts and I'm thankful. I have some who stay on the line, who can gaps all bridges even were far from other places. Happines can appear, it's your choice to leave with it or just be with the flow of so called "life"

Little Voices (Part 2)

The most dreadful thing, I noticed. After, they used it, all the sacrifices, the hard work, and the undying sleepless night. You won’t be able to ask why, that as quickly as it disappears in front of you, as one dictator commanded it.
Some are too narrow in thinking, the only things that wanted to be heard is the exact answer with the same questions coming from out their mouth, chances ate they only want to hear , what they want to listen. They want people to talked, but, they want to hear their own voice echoing. They act as they say, they held appointments. Meetings and committee’s, but, reactions are not coming from them. Each direction are reprimanded and followed by fear not by will. Some has bigger ideas for future security, but the welfare
Of people involved are not well-defined. They set certain boundaries and schematic diagrams to enrich potentials in giving profit, but, both ends still questionable and unknown, that make a great escape, a great kind of event that makes the little ones lost, confused and cheated. Whenever a person asked me, why do people climb on a top of a mountain? I just answered them two statements. It’s an opportunity to climb and share the wondrous creations I have seen in m eyes, that a man could ever imagined or a chance to be one’s thorn, to throw rocks on people below to self-gain, self-security, self-fame, self-idolatry for other’s to follow and be slave for rudeness, selfishness, pride and ego.

A Pretty wise Interview

Time to wake up. A day for a Corporate Interview. I've been very exhausted this following days without enough sleep and rest. Amazingly, I managed to ride in a jeep and wait for the Leviriza Bus on my way to Makati. I survived the most exciting and nervous day of my life. It's almost a Two-Hour journey , a new road for me to fit in and to take new challenges, new responsible to feel in, but. it's worthwhile. I have another role to portray. Hopefully, I could find some new carreer advancement, wherein my potential in different clerical or healthcare aspect will be enhanced and develop more. Now, I could face my fears because I'm scared to know what I'm capable of doing. For primary reason, I always encounter a lot of failures. Still, I need to stand, be brave, still hope for good things to come and to have faith in our Divine Savior , our dear Lord to direct and guide me to all his plans. My interview was so terrific and I'm quite so nervous at the beginning. But, it turns out intelligently, amazingly fabulous. My interviewer is so wonderful and so fabulous. The way he ask questions, it's so wisely pick, with great outfit and the elegant manner she shows marks in m mind and heart. That I really want to be like her. Her pretty wise gestures shows the she's in control , she knows how to deal and handle the conversation attentively, with great confidence and knowledge in the corporate field she was in. I'm so thankful that everything goes well. I have gained a lot of wisdom in terms of having composure in interviews. A fun,exciting, scary, knowledgeable, challenging day I have been. Thank you , Lord for guiding me. Thank u my dear Angels......

I Believe I could touch the Heaven's Above if I:


****Was more grateful for what I already have in my life.
---------so I can appreciate things and people around me
****Talked to our Divine Source, our creator, our providence,"God" like a friend,
a mentor
---------so I can voice out all my sentiments and fears
****Pray more often
--------so I can be at peace in my heart, mind and soul
****Can listen to my intuition, what my heart says.
--------so I can learn to balance my ego, pride and emotions
****Keep my heart and mind positive, loving, open and filled with
Affection and Compassion
-------so fear would disappear and joy will appear
****Was more caring, true and transparent with those who put
God in my life
----------because I met them not to break my heart but to learn more wisdom
******Was willing to give opportunity for other's to grow
-----------so I may enriched my soul
******Stay committed in Knowing our Divine Lord more each day
------------so my purpose in this world will be known
******Encouraged and Esteemed other more rather than myself
------------so I can enriched my friendship and develop more confidence
******Develop more trust and confidence in our Dear God
------------so I can put all my anxiety away from me and let him guide my way

written by: seraphimblue

Little Voices1

Whenever I see a team in a field that works togetehr. I can't help but to recall my memories of a group that I had joined. When I came out in the real world. I never imagined , how harsh and cruel people are. But, I never thought that on the same group I belong, I felt that I'll be grind. That each person that I met has a camelion colors at the back, that for anything else happens they will push you out on the boat or throw you outside the plane that no matter how much you tried to blend on the note, a soprano will rise in a high pitch and an alto will be left behind in a corner of the room. Some people whispered me to hold on the rope, so you won't be lost on a tug of war, but, the intensity continues to speed up, loud and crackling are screaming. I fought abck and pretend that I'm deaf. I tried to face up and walk forward without turning back even when fire starts burning so hot. I lift my heavy load and carry it, as much as I can. But, each stride I take, it makes me feel so worthless, a fragile glass that any moment will breakdown into tiny bits. Yes, indeed, there are joyous times, when I cherished beautiful, sincere and loyal friendship that I may seem genuine, with authentic seal that lasted for a millineum. Those years are previous that can't be replaced by any gold coin that a Rich man has. But, there are dark hours that I managed to surpass and learned from it.
The wisdom I gained was inconquerable by anyone, that within in a society we live in, there are certain agenda, memo and rules that must be implemented courteously and authoritatively by influential people who loves to manipulate the system with little few people that ironically acts as a simple, non-intellectual machinery to them. Some see humans beings as cowards, a remote control, imbecile and in-despensible life form that one clap from the high chair above will be thrown out in garbage truck.
Date Written: February 11,2006

"The Little Angel came Home"

Yesterday was a joyful sunday. All our loved-one's, loving relatives & my mom's closest friend joined the celebration of my Mom's 56th Birthday. With a surprised gift that our Little Angel had arrived with her Mom Ann to greet and be with us on that happy day. I can see in my mother's eye that she really missed the child. Upon embracing and kissing her, tears suddenly fell into her cheeks and we gladly noticed it. I have mixed emotions upon having bath on that morning. I felt an extraordinary happiness and a little sprinkle of sadness.I can't explain that emotions but I believe it's natural to feel this way. I don't know, but, I can sense into my nerves that this will be the last celebration I will be seeing and will be attending to my closest and loving family. Then, another happy moments will be filled in another chapter of my life in another world or even another country. Our laughters and giggle will always be remembered. The memorable pictures that seem so everlasting. The cool moods and loving embrace of friends, cousins, grand mother, Uncle and Antie's will just a loving and sweet memory I'll treasure. I can't believe that I have never open any cent into my pocket but thankfully that day surpass with abundant blessing. I was so thankful in our Father in Heaven for guiding and blessing that wonderful day. Thank you Oh Lord. How can I throw any cent if I don't have any and I'm thankful to my Uncle that his there to make my mother's day alive and glorious. Wishing them all good health, love and happiness in the World. Maybe, soon, I can give back all the love and happiness my mom gives us. I love my mother and I'm thankful for having her around. I thanked for the arrival of our little Angel, she gives a big smile in our heart's..

My Untitled Attitude Problem

Such a bump, that shakes my head, a big trouble, a worry that lifts me up unknowingly. I might be unconscious but too uncaring to take such particular move to discard immediate behavior.
Am I too careful or too safe guarding to myself. Am I too judgemental, bossy that demands acting to be appropriate or I'm too careful to make mistakes that makes my actions to displaced blame to other person. Am I too realist and perfectionist that I want balance that I'm disturbing their will to choose. That I'm controlling their words and actions that makes me a villain, not a friend.Did I really want to hear them speak, Did I really want them to be independent. Did I grab their integrity, their opinions, their decisions in life. Did I expected too much in return? I believe all the answers is "Yes", and it threatens my personality because I know in fact that denial, pity , grief, insecurity and inferiority are qualities that kills me slowly. That I'm turning againts myself and to other's that makes me so weak, while, hiding to a edifice mode that I'm brave that I can handle all.
But, in reality. I'm too weak, full of fear and it worries me a lot. It worsens daily that I don't even recognized. I guess, it really knocks me. i don't know how to move. Now, I'm back to my old shell, powerless, so inferior and lost.
That I don't know where to run, how to walked again, to stand and stroll and to face people in my world. Cycles repeats it's phase until now I have not learned. I shouldn't have, but, It breaks again. But, how can I move. I guess, my heart will dictates the true inner me, as the holy spirit and Jesus Unconditional Love and goodness regains my ownself. Be Back in his arms and there will be peace in my heart, in my mind and my whole personality. As I gain confidence and hope in him, that he will mold me the way it should be. I need to trust him and put all my faith in his arms, so everything on his hands and all his plans will be made accordingly at the right time at the right place.
Date Written:February 28,2007

"Thank you for the gift of Friendship"

I remember those days, when I almost cried to death, that all my failures seems so inevitable that I lose any hope and will to live, when my heart is crushed with all the betrayal of a lost love, when my body seems so pale and weak to continue the hardship and responsibility of life and family, when all my hopes in a good and ideal career is winding in a zigzag road that cannot be straighten, when all my dreams are gone into the wind, "YOU ARE ALL THERE & YOU ARE ALL I HAVE" ,my true and sincere friends. What defines a genuine Friend? I believe a Friend is like a bulb who lightens up and gives strength to a flickering road. A friend who unites one's broken heart and inspired to continue loving and waiting for the right and perfect man to arrive. A Friend who never gives up to encourage and gives hope when things fall apart. A friend who listens with his heart , mind and soul ready to speak his/her own language. A friend who can rely on with no limitations and boundaries. A friend is timeless filed with love and compassion. That's all defines a kind of Friendship I have and I'm so blessed to have them. They knew who they are and I want them to know, how much I value them and how much they are important to me. Remember, I will always be your trusted and wonderful friend, wherever I may go, whatever road I'll take. I'll be forever honored and thankful that I met you all. As I reminisce the years, when we drink tequila after class and sung on videoke on our out of town gimmicks and as we went to Storyland, Nasugbo, Tagaytay or even Volets to unwind and nurture our true friendship, all those laughters and the trials of college Life , the pail of tears and sacrifices in life, work, family and love-ones, we've been through a lot and we been able to surpass it, as we hold each other's arms, with prayers that stand the most of our friendship. Thank you for the time you spent with me for all the up's and down of my life, thank you for the genuine love and true gift of friendship you share... your all my Angels on Earth .thank you........
Always bear this quotation, as my name recalls your memory: "TRUE FRIEND IS A SURE REFUGE-Aristotle" and "A TRUE FRIEND IS ONE WHO HEARS AND UNDERSTANDS WHEN YOU SHARE YOUR DEEPEST FEELING. HE SUPPORTS YOU WHEN YOU ARE STRUGGLING,HE CORRECTS YOU, GENTLY AND WITH LOVE, WHEN YOU ERR, AND HE FORGIVES YOU WHEN YOU FAIL. A TRUE FRIEND PRODS YOU TO PERSONAL GROWTH, STRETCHES YOU TO YOUR FULL POTENTIAL, AND MOST AMAZING OF ALL, HE CELEBRATES YOUR SUCCESSES AS IF THEY WERE HIS OWN.-Richard Exley" ----seraphim blue

My Worry Rides in a Tri-cycle

My life has a slow and fast cycles, like a rough path, there are pieces of stones that strucked me and prevent me to continue my journey. Those are my big worries, a bunck of anxieties ,financial bankruptcy, pail of depressions, past burdens, academic failures and heartaches that let my stomach ulcers boost up, even if my migraine shoot up and let my blood gos down and my insomia increasing disabling my health that let my temper in the morning, get mad and wild that begins my harsh words and high pitched loud of demands and commands to my family members.
Then,I learned to read books that improve and shift my senses to negative and positive to read true to life experiences that was printed to guide as a proof that prayers works to get rid of worries. But, one remedy that keeps me holding my faith intact, when my anxiety attacks, when I felt that my world is crumbling down, when I feel I'm alone. That I'm not happy. I just sit inside the the "Baclaran Church", Silence is within me, Peace and Love of the Lord is what I feel. Like hope , it flows in me. As I stare, feel my heartbeat. My worry and problem disseminates in the air. As I ride, the Tri-cycle of my life, as it goes, day by day, it gives me hope that time will do it's part, as our savior strengthens me and banishes all my fear in the future. I may sinked down, delayed all my flights, turned to other routes. But, I managed to look at the big window on the airport, as I see the blue skies where planes passed by. I just sighed, thank you God for a new,wonderful day and all the blessings that comes my way....
Date written: February 26,2007

A Child Like Joy

Everybody has a Child Like actions within. Oftentimes, we ignore the signs but as we grew older. Our hearts became hard as a stone, as genius like the kings or even as selfish like the crocs living in deep forest in Africa. But, how does our heart's grew as self centered and unkind to less fortunate people. Primarily, people oftentimes forgets their past, they forget their roots. They are too proud on what position they have.Seldom, denial strikes that he is fulfilled and happy with material things, fame, power around him.But, Does he really felt happiness within? Can he/she really laughs sincerely? or is he keeping all the tears in the middle of the night. No one can recognized your sadness especially if you demand rules, if you are in command who gives orders, if you are stress-out implementing regulations in a big organization, if you supervised members in a committee and you take all the responsibility to overcharge and dictate to all your subordinates. You have in your hand to do whatever it takes to manipulate and let people follow your command. But, have you listen to your heart lately. Do you feel that there is something incomplete in your life? That you are longing to have and do something creative and relaxing. Can you recognized that you need to stop working and really start living? Does your memories in childhood years lingers within your soul? If you answered, yes. Probably, you can start filling each day with a smile.Learn to be a child again. Appreciate simple things that comes your way. Be thankful on each abundant blessings, a mentor shares. Have a Child Like-Joy that overwhelms your soul, that gives warmth in your mind, that relaxes your body and soul. Do things without thinking intellectually that makes you happy and complete. Make each day as it was your last. Value the things that gives you pleasure. Be compassionate and be loving to people whom you care a lot. Remember to express how much she/he is important in your life. You can start it now. Be a Child within, it's the only way to open the gate in heaven, be Innocent and feel the love of people around you. Be humble and enjoy the wonderful creations, God made for us. Listen to your heart beats, feel the wave of the sea, look at the blue sky above, smell the flowers everyday, smile whenever you feel like doing it. Fill your heart with joy, even you grew older, you will be wiser because you have a heart of a child. You will always feel beautiful and young all the time and all your life. That's the way it should be and God wants it to be.

Sadness felt Without the Little Angel

Whenever I went home from a 24Hour Duty, I have freebies, I'll bring a long just to give it to our little angel tintin, she is like my daughter, she's the daughter of my bestfriend. I miss the days, when she embrace me so tight, kiss me and called me "ninang ", the way we watched dora, kungfu panda, urdujah and spongebob in YOUTUBE, how persistent she is to listen to the headset and how wonderful she can danced to "giling giling in wowwee at channel 2. All I can hear is her voices, how I love if I make her cry if I won't give the toy or things she wants..Definitely, I can't tolerate her all the time. Even, my mom is quite stubborn tolerating all our angel wants, of course her grandma always agrees. But, still the decisions, comes to her real mom ,marian. While ago, my mother told me that our little angel called, and I caught her almost crying. I see in my mother's eye. How she missed the child? her children is all Bachelors that's why we can't really give her grand son or grand daughter. That's why, all her attention is really focused on that child and she's the one who take care of that child since she was born and until now she's two year's old, my mom raises her up. Primarily, the child wants everyday to go in our House. But, sadly, arguments comes out with her mother and her Brother that the reason, the little child is living far away from us.I'm missing the little angel, but, life goes on, she will always on our hearts and she will always be my little angel. Her Birth gives my mother strength to be happy again and continue to all her struggles in Life. She's been a source of our joy during our darkness hours when our financial status sunk down into wilderness. She is sent by our dear Lord to cheer us, inspired us and help us to overcome our difficulties and she did erased the fights and she sew the hatred into love, she lighten our days....our little angel is around the corner, she will be here and my mom will laughed again and I'll smile with a warmth embrace. Love you my little angel tintin.

Can I managed a New Role?

Each man carries a role in one's life. One can play any role he/she wants. No matter how difficult it can be. You are the master of a real drama in your Life. You are the Engineer of your own building. Oftentimes, you are confused , if you can handle or ignore the position you are meant to have. But, as you handle and encounter another experience , you became depressed or either excited to achieved something that is not for you. You easily go blinded , to step on another field but learning to reflect and watch for your actions are the key to strengthen the goal you really want to have. It doesn't matter if you can performed or not, but, what matter's most is you finished it with pure heart, integrity and dignity. Managing a Role entails a lot of responsibility and sacrifices, if you are willing to take all the risk and accept the willingness of heart, you can handle those challenges. With Hope and Faith in God, You can stand , be brave to face all the trials. Even how many failures and pain's you undergo, as long as you have the faith in God and will to move on. Believe in yourself that you are wonderful and you can create your life fabulously. Everything will fall on the right place as God intended to be.

On my Behalf I carry a Heart

Learning to feel one's emotions, takes a lot of wisdom in determining one's heart and one's goodness. One carry a soul that comforts and heals the pain, some carry a heart that encourage to love again and some carry it with hope that someday you will meet the right man/woman for you.... On my behalf I carry a Heart, a sincere and truthful heart promising to care, love wholeheartedly and be faithful 'till eternity. You longed for compassion and the will to survive , to continue to hope that your love will grow, that each moment will be filled with happiness ad each steps will be a memory be remembered as a joyful and wonderful experience. I've known you, even for a while. I know, you have a good soul and I believe that you won't hurt me the way other's did. On your behalf , I thank you for finding me and I'll always cherished you for making our both world's near and reconnected. With all the pain, stressful works and tears, I only wished I can be the one who can swept all the sad memories you've been....as we take another step , a new chapter of our life, may our friendship , care and love dwells and grow each day as we let each other know our uniqueness of race and culture.. I offered a Heart for you and for your child , may each day be fruitful and filled with love and faith in God..May our journey together be directed with goodness of our almighty Father in Heaven.

For a Genuine Friendship

Whoever finds a faithful and true Friend is a miracle manifested in life. A wonderful encounter of a genuine person who dwells with truth,goodness, love, compassion and care. From beginning to end, I met people in different walks of life. Oftentimes, I encounter them on the roads, I help them and befriend them. While other's , I met them online that marks and leave traces in my heart, that touches and gives me lessons to linger in my mind to continue to give hope, laughter and courage to every person I met even within the vicinity of the port, the mall, the street or in the web. I turn my consolation , to people I value who gives me a wonderful meaning in my life. Friends who left marks in my heart that forever be valued and remembered. I discovered a love that is treasured beyond the sparkles of gold and even as delicate as a wine taste, I open up a treasure chest of brilliant and wonderful people who understands my emotions, who accepts me for what I am, who listen to my tantrums and to my different attitudes, who comforts and give me joy when my heart is broken into pieces. I glorified the gift of genuine friendship with joy in my heart. I thrilled each moment, I'm with them and I'll forever cherished each step we make as we journey our sisterly and brotherly friendship. I sheltered a Friend , I sheltered there love,care and loyalty. I'll treasured it in my heart. I Thank thee for them...

Moving another Chapter of my Faith

Can I predict what will happen for the future? Can I state a particular moment which I feel glorified or be the saddest moment in my life? the answer is NO, I can't.Because I could only read the signs and dreams I have. But, do I really need to watched and listen to the voices that whispering into my ears, or my doubts and fear will prevail or my faith in our dear Lord will stand most in high. I believe in God, and I know everything will be good as directed to his will, on his time, on his abundance blessings , thy will be done according to his goodness. Moving another chapter in my life,is quite exciting, nervous, scary, mixed emotions of sadness and joy but whatever emotions I felt. My faith still stand strong and in believing that I'll be living and working in another country and that his goodness will prevail and all his plans for me will be good according to his will and love. A new blaze of trail., I'll be heading, another journey to unknown place wherein I hope this time, I will be happy , fulfilled with hope , contentment and love. May the Good and loving Father in Heaven bless and direct my way....May he strengthen my faith and walked towards his path.. Thank you our Father for everything , Thank you for all the love and guidance my God, Almighty.

Oppurtunity knocks Once, they oftenly says!

Chances in this World, is quite filled with consequences and a lot of Trial & Errors, you win some and you lose some, you gambled and taken the risk,you make your decisions and be tough with it. You hold your own key on your hand, you lift your own wings and you continue your flight where your destiny holds you. You chooses to be strong and having the faith in your own wheel of Life. You tried to be independent and stand on your integrity and soon, you'll win the battle. You are cautious and careful not to ruined yourself , that you allow to insist and persist what your mind and heart tells you. You have the power to lighten up your goals and values. You wished to achieved everthing, your heart desires. You carry a soul filled with confidence and Faith in God, as I let the good Lord plan for my life, Oppurtunity knocks only once, as people says. Either you GO or STOP on the intersection,as you can deal with your own cards, either you take another card or stop the game you play. You can give another shot to play around and be the captain of the deck., or pull down your cards and go back Home. I'm puzzled with the chances of working in another country, Can I hold it back or ignore, or can I continue and try to live my life independently with the Lord's guidance. I have the key in my hand, may I open the door with guidance and good goals parades my way by our dear Lord's settings.

Dining with a Tough Friend

Learning her attitude makes me oftenly disturbed on how could I act towards her. She has a beautiful face, she is carrying a baby and that makes her vulnerable to fatigue but still her views about life and all her opinions still bursting with confidence and strong appeal. A woman, with courage, facing by herself with her husband away working in the sea and with his son on her in-laws. I’m proud of her, for her distinct and tough character and most of all for a loving mom. She’s fond of her friends, with her talkativenss, being so friendly and fun to be with. Though, sometimes she had a delicate attitude that makes me different fro her. I’ve dine with the Quarantine Doctor, his a sweet, timid, straight and responsible boss. He honors and love his parents, his one of a kind. A person whose responsibility to his worked is much valued. He knows how to sacrifice and be a sincere friend that let him loved by his subordinates. They have both various characteristics that makes them lift their own personality. I’m happy to be dined with this guys, learning their real friendship, enjoying each conversation makes the whole duty of 24 Hours complete.

Cherishing a Loving Lady Doctor

Its a blessing having and knowing her. Once, I dreamed that I'll met a wonderful person near the boulevard, I know deep in my heart and to my intuition that I'll be sharing my life with that particular person, but, I have never expected that she will be so close and she will be touching my heart. Teaching me lessons in life , love , work , family and friends. I've learned that never trust a person too much, never open your heart until you know his/her soul,you can see it into their eyes, if their heart is gold or coal. Think first before you decide, each situations and scenario are different from another, new answers are made, new alternatives are taken. She told me never stop achieving your dreams, your goal in life.Value the things that makes you happy, remember to asked God's help all the time because he is good and he love us unconditionally. I admired her compassion, love and care she given to her 4kids and her husband. She taught me to dwell and learned to accept the weakness of your loved one, you need to encouraged and help the person to know her strength and developed the skills a person has. Never estimate or judged a person according to his/her appearance. Always be humble and be kind to strangers. You can might never knew whom you can bumped on. Listen before you speak, you need to practice the art of listening, that's one of the thing I learned. We are both talkative , so we need to slow down a little. That's what I missed about her. A lot of insight and wisdom she imparted to me. The kindness, love, care and support are outstanding and touching that I cared so much about her. I appreciated and love her so much, she's like a Mother to me, my second mom, with her wonderful position in life, her humble ways despite her supervisory position, she touched a lot people through her love and care. I'll never forget her. I cherished every 24 duty we had, her smile that makes my day brighter, her moments of laughter and tears seems so delighted and worth my journey in life. Some people doesn't like her, they ignored her quite some time, but, some noticed my lady doctor because they needed her. The sad part, people smiles at you,likes you because she can gained a lot from you but after a while, they forgotten all your kindness and efforts. Oftentimes, That's the people living here in this World. However, I'm glad that I met her. I thanked Our providence for knowing her even in a short period of time, we been together. I have learned a lot from her, we might seem rebelious on other eye's but for me she's one of my Angels. Thank you for sharing your life to me, for all the love , the great friendship , care, support and for everything. Happiness is seen into a woman whose heart filled with kindness and joy. May you filled with love, hope and peace of mind. Remember, to smell the flowers each day and thank the Lord for all the blessings she gave. I'll be missing you, you will always be in my heart....mami pi....thank you...

Two years of Silent Friendship

Years had passed by so fast, that I learned to cherished you so much. I never thought I've known you so well and I understand your unique ways and your indifferent attitude that puzzled me each day. You let me in, In your Own world even I can't fully comprehend your simple gestures but I valued you for giving me the gift of true friendship. Your extraordinary actions that amazed me, your addiction in books that influences me and make me crazy upon seeing and touring the big bookstore houses. I can't imagined will be separating our ways for 2 years, we stayed together on our duties, we comfort each other even when were sick and even if we have tension headache, we learn to share and care for each other, as our friendship grows each days.I've accepted the real you , the odd ways you listen to your mp4's the silent mode we had on the air of our duties that even others may say, that we have our own World. Whatever what they say, they can't matched the calmness of my heart, the real care you shown,is much appreciated and I valued you even more. you been my sister more each day. while, others,can't figure out your moods, just remain unchanged,the pure heart you've shown, the loving ways you done for your family and friends, the punctuality at work , your being so responsible beyond compared, the goodness of your heart ,may forever be true and innocent still.Until, our duty meet again, May you express the way you feel, may your opinions spranged to the open doors, without doubt but with confidence and faith.Learn to be yourself, know yourself more, mingle to others and don't be afraid to open your heart. Don't let anyone ,pull you down, if you feel alone, ill be here for you.If the world doesn't understand you, I'm here to listen. May you speak with love and braveness of heart. No one can hurt you,unless you let them. So, be careful in trusting but still believe in the power of love and friendship. I learned a lot from you, I learned to think first and safety myself before I act and do such decisions and think before I speak so I wont hurt anyone or offended anyone. I'm happy and blessed I've known you michelle. Be brave girl and I wished someday you'll find the right man for you..the one deserving for your kindness and sincere heart of gold. May you find your Daniel in stargate and your harry potter of you life, your prince will come, just believe in your heart and have faith.

The Travelling Pen

I wonder how a black clouds formed during a storm. As I traveled Home from a 24Hour Duty. A gloomy, Rainy Tuesday fills the air with sleepy eyesight and I want to cradle and lie on my bed the whole day. A traffic jam flashed my seen towards the intersection as I stare a white sky that tried to blink on my bus window. I imagined people who doesn’t have descent home during this stormy season. The cold, clammy hands who lingers a warmth place to live-in. Do they have enough food supply to last for a week or even a single day. As I walked, to an over passed which flooded by water , that my wet shoes feels like water is overflowing in my socks. But, I continue to Thank God for this wonderful day and praying for those poor people on the sidewalks that they may surpass this water flooding day, my sleepy eyes still focused on my writings as I burst all the words inside my head. I longed to see my loved ones because I wanted to stay , talked and embraced my pillow with this cold time seasons. Can a red hood jacket protects me from a stormy hard rain and wind. I sighed, I think , No it can’t. but I need to park my pen. I’m beyond my stop point. As I watched the fast speed colors of the bus code. I have glee in my heart that I have sign and part my pen again
9:40am Off NAIA Duty
August 7,2007

A Romantic Soul

A sweet amiable romantic soul like me believes in everything when it comes, to love, I believe that each people here on earth has their own partner whom they share one’s life, it’s destiny that one finds his soul connection, it’s one’s choice to make it stronger and last forever , true love comes if your real to yourself , your willing to be faithful , to surrender, to commit and to sacrifice everything you had to see the one you love happy,. Even it takes a lot of tears and risks to feel true love. Once, a love story untold, one wished a happy ending, all lady wants to achieved and feel the esctacy of truly falling in love head over heels to a prince she dreamt of all of her life. Maybe, I’m one of those well-wishers, hoping someday ,my wished of a man will come true, he will be knocking and I’ll give my heart as true , pure as a gold… that all my loneliness will eludes and romantic dream , a sweet dream be reality.

Emptying Our Hearts to feel the Unconditional Love

God often empties our hands to feel our heart's ,to listen and pause for silence , to linger that there is a superior Holy Spirit that binds us to keep life going, to reach the boundaries of being human, that no matter how many ladder we step , how many races we lose, how many deep pits we fall, there is a greater unconditional love which magnets us to bring closer to the one who creates us. Its our Lord, our Dear Providence who works mysteriously in our lives.

Journey of Your Heart

You need to forsee yourself attaining the goal your heart's desire, what's important is you felt glad choosing the path you really want,even if circumstances comes that you failed and never get the things or dream you wished. Atleast, you tried and done your best. It's not what if or I can't. You should follow what's in your heart, of course you used your mind to think what's best for you. But, never listen to what other's dictates you. It's your happiness you don't owe them anything. It's your decision , it's your own life , its your own risks to be sad or to be joyful because life is too short to listen to other's opinions. You may not get the dream you longed for, but, you given a good fight,in the end, its the acceptance of one person that leads your heart to another journey that you deserve , that had already planned from above only for you, that awaits you to seek and just simply say thank you cause all along its been there. Written-April6,07,Inspired by Dra.Pilar Dela Rosa

5 Steps:Remedy of Depression

A simple solution: The first step is to know the Origin or where it coming from,Ask Yourself: why am I depressed? Second: Accept the fact that it happened. sometimes things happen for a reason, you might never knew it but it did. Don't fight with the inevitable situation.Third: Solved the Scenario. You don't need to lie in the couch for the whole week, if you can't solved it. Remember time passes by, All wounds and all pains surpasses and the clock always ticks. There's a brand new day ahead of you.Fourth: Pray and be Positive. Life Continues, every drop of your tears there's an Angel sent by God to calm you down, give you peace and comforts you. No matter what the outcome will be, you have your families and Friends to keep you standing up to fight in turmoil World. Fifth Steps: Give a Smile to everyone. Even if they can't give it back to you ,I'm positive it can change your outlook in Life. A positive energy will flow to your system. Believe me. You can send me message,if you want to talked about anything. I can be your Friend.

Having a Sincere Heart takes a lot of Integrity

Loving a person entitles you to hold a certain commitment, a Life filled with responsibility, filled with compassion and a heart filled with true and undefined love and integrity. All my life. I'm dreamt to live and find someone who could love me the way I deserved, someone who could take care of me and be sincere to his actions and be willing to sacrifice for my sake and for my happiness. But, it eludes me the moment I find it, I just can't believe how devastating and how painful it could be, its like iron sharpens the sword, all character are burst into open, like your opening a scented jar, at first the aroma, entails you to smell and be familiarized it, but, as day steps by, the aroma dissappears in the air, like the wind , like the tornado and a summer day, it pass by and soon it will be gone away. Do i have the integrity to love a person, Am i sincere enough to value and love the person who loves me , am I too proud that someone sacrifices and care for me? or I am just happy to be loved but I can return the same love they are giving? Am I too expectant or too judgemental? Some people say, my spiritual mentors in books told me, that people or mentors come into your life for a reason to teach you or vice versa so they could learn from you or either you will learn from them. But, do I learned something or I'm still repeating the same mistakes. I knew in my heart what I'm searching for but I just couldn't determined what my heart really wants. May our Creator, My savior , My Bestfriend Guide me so I may find the perfect outcome, the true love or great love in my life. May i have the strength to have a Sincere Heart with an unconditional Love and Integrity so I may learn to value and share my sincere love to others and to the right man. May the Angel of Divine Love show me the way and prepares my way. Thank thee...

The Right kind of Web Camera

I sound so excited at 7pm because my dear Ricky is going to see me online, its quite unfair on my side but I have to take the risk for the reason that I want to know his reactions towards me. I may say, we have the power to judge and appreciate one's beauty I don't even knew if his sincere, but,I'm willing to take chances.Each angle that focuses the picture of a unique being signifies the beauty it beholds. I'm so excited then and I wanted the clock to be a 7pm because that will be the first time where Ricky will see me in flesh that the person his chatting with is real. I take the chances and I have taken the risk, even I have not seen the guy I have taken the steps to overtake my fear and see myself in the cam. I don't even knew if his sincere but deep within my heart that he is. Did I find the right camera, is the angle focuses my scintillating ,poppy eyes, does the lights blends with the surroundings. I might even knew his right reactions or if his telling the truth but I still hoped and wished that we can last or our chats will stay. May our friendship and love stays even we meet again in real life and in real world.

A Day with Little Tintin

I wake up with a loud cute voice of a little child, calling my name . Wake up, Ninang. Wake up! With my mom accompanying her and with her mom, my bestfriend, I guess who will not wake up as my little girl kisses me for a morning kiss. I love this kid, she is the daughter of my bestfriend Marian. They are living beside our house, every morning they wake up and straight to our house, just to see us, be with and play with me as we color, draw,watch cartoons and telenovela's, type in the emails and cuddled the whole afternoon. We have lots of fun. maybe, because I love children and they make me feel young and energize. It gives you a certain glow in your heart that makes you happy the whole day. Whenever, I got out from worked. I instantly wanna see this little cute 2 year old child, I have a little gift for her from the Airport which I'm presently employed upon giving that simple gift. She gave me a sweet kiss and tells me "thank you, ninang ganda" it means thank you my beautiful ninang. Her Mommy Ann and Tintin are so important in my life. Whenever I got sad, I have them at my side.. Bless them with a good future...

The Heart of Internet World

A lot of men and women are engaging in online chats. Some go online to find their mate , a partner in life, a friend whom they can confide in to lessen their loneliness or brighten their day at work. Some are too rude too boast how big their gun down, while others are too kind and sad even with high paying positions. They can't easily be overjoyed for such a minute of time, having a cool conversation. A lot of Asians are much fond of online chats. Nowadays, we have the technology to link ourselves to view and intervened the lives of other human being through the advance gadget we have. I have the ability to write , protect and care for the welfare of my fellow chatter friends. Internationally I'm equipped with the understanding that each soul has the ability to expand beyond their lonesome and fruitful days. Some can speak only in their words, but the heart knows, what it speaks. Many of us are living alone, having the time of our lives but sometimes as we cuddled into our bed at the middle of the night. We end up with a sigh, longing for a friend or a loved perhaps to care and listen. The International and Global scene reflects how the turmoil world expresses a kind of emotions of fear of being left alone, fear of getting old without experiencing love, fear of no one is listening , fear of having a conversation with your own self. You create an Worldwide bonding , a blog or chats that sprinkle a blink of happiness , chance to be known , to be loved and to be cared. So, as you post a blog, or chat with a friend or strangers perhaps you are rising the thoughts of love and joy into his/her heart. So, enjoy meeting people and sharing ideas that makes you a better person to lived in this wonderful Internet world.