9 mornings: Learning the value of sacrifice, obedience and trusting in him in times of great sadness and trials

DATE: DECEMBER17, 2011

9 mornings: Learning the value of sacrifice, obedience and trusting in him in times of great sadness and trials

DAY 3:

This morning I attend the mass but I was never along. I’m with my sister donna. I’m happy that even I wake up late than her usual time of 2:30 am, my heart was filled with gladness because its like the same old days, attending early mass with my sibling and family as well. Even, I felt so tired that I travelled another dimension again. Well, the mass goes well, with new priest standing in front of the altar.

My heart shouts with glee, as I brilliantly sings praise and joy to our savior. I’m filled with joy because I was able to attend the 3rd day. Even, if my eyes slowly wants to close and sleep; I was able to managed and follow the songs of praise of alleluia and other songs.

The sermon gives a very enormous impact to my well being. Every little words, our priest spokes enlightened my whole being. It’s like a candle burning so bright that it cuts my eyes. I guess, there is no great sacrifice that Papa Jesus had did and also her mother, mama Mary. No man can live up to all the sufferings, they both gave. The acceptance of doing all the chores of responsibility and carrying the child on her womb without any complain, only she gave her whole trust that our dear God will never leave him and forsaken him. She decided to put all her beliefs in him. She patiently says “yes” without doubt and confusion; she obediently carries the baby for the salvation of human kind.

The priest, intricately explain the value of having deep faith in our dear Lord. That any sad eventful days of your life will be no compared of the love he gave to us. That every trial, challenges, problems and frustrations that you felt will turn out to be the best way to be know and be close to him. That no matter what happen, he promises that he would never leave or forsaken you.

The sermon became so interesting; when he elaborately tells about the plan of our dear Lord. That man always makes plan to their future. That no matter how lucid the future it seems to be and whenever a goal or dreams does not comply with the original schedule. There always be his will. Sometime we enormously feel a great fear and coward like actions within ourselves. We end up being stagnant and scared of risking every decision because we are totally not giving up to him. We seldom believe, that the only way to survived in this world is to completely trust in him…..that’s the way it should be and that the only way to truly be close to him.

I felt relieved; but, as I write this I was able to understand slowly; its day 3, after, me and my sister bought a “puto bong bong and lugaw and ate it after the mass at home. Well, I’m glad we did some bonding in simbang gabi.
Miraculously, one miracle happen, a text came by at night; MIAA wants me back. I have my OJT again. I hope and I believe that our dear Lord will bless and guide me. As I worked towards the same premises who broke my heart. May it healed as I go back and worked again. May he guide us all with his love, comfort and understanding…see yah the next morning…

GOD IS GOOD AND LOVING, WE JUST NEED TO BE AWARE OF HIS CALL AND TO OUR CELESTIAL SURROUNDINGS BECAUSE HIS HERE AND EVEN THE LITTLE THING WE SEE, HIS ALL AROUND US!!!!

THANK YOU , PAPA GOD FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME!!!PRAISE AND GLORY TO YOU OH LORD!

9 MORNINGS:EMBRACING IMPERFECTIONS, FORGIVENESS OF SELF AND OTHERS

I almost run into seat. Obviously, I was late and I should be there at the church at 3:30 a.m. but luckily I arrived at 3:50a.m. There’s still goodness, in his heart because no matter how bad my actions can be, he still, have the heart to forgive me. I don’t know what happen; but, I believe the gospel works and it really encapsulated my whole being. Each words dictates being a true human filled with dysfunctional attitudes or imperfections without it you can never say you are truly his creation.

When we learn to accept that there are things we couldn’t change that there are attitudes that needs to replenish in order to forgive one self. When, we embrace our unique behaviours and realized our own mistakes and failures only then we could achieve true happiness. Also, we need to know our weaknesses so we could move forward and to evaluate things which make our life so chaoticly molded with sins.

Eventually, the mass go smoothly even it rain so hard before the mass begins. I happily remembered all the sermons that in order to achieve real joy this Christmas is to accept that we have sinned, we are not perfect. We are created to stand all the storms if we will hold on to our Savior. If, we learn to ask forgiveness to our dear Lord, our own self and our fellow men.

I prayed on that morning that I may be able to forgive myself for all the wrong decisions, strategies and failures that I have this past few years. To accept that all the wasted years I spent working in an establishment wherein; dedication and commitment are not well established. That I may embrace all the good and bad memories it brings, all the heartaches and pain of a dream and love that does not come on my way. To develop a strong faith in him, to get to know; our creator and to love him more with all my heart, mind and soul.

Thy forgives reign in one’s heart to be able to achieve true happiness in this lifetime.

9 MORNINGS: A SINGLE’S WISH FOR A “SIMBANG GABI”

Date: December 16, 2011

9 MORNINGS: A SINGLE’S WISH FOR A “SIMBANG GABI”

BY: seraphimblue

DAY 1:
I was awaken not my own cell phone clock but I was alarmed by my instinct or by my psychological body clock that I need to attend the church tradition of what we called “SIMBANG GABI” at 4 a.m. As I hurriedly prepare myself so I could sit at the front row of the bench so I could see the priest and all the decorations all over the surroundings. I was excited, not because it’s been the tradition and during the times I worked at the airport; I ordinarily missed the opportunity to complete it because of my bizarre 24 hours work at the medical division. But, I wanted to attend the mass even I’m alone, single and cold. I still, feel the warmth of embrace of our dear Lord. You know why, someone woke me up, someone told me that I need to get up in my bed to start my novena and my sacrifice for this coming Christmas day.
Few are chosen to have that special someone to be with them at “Simbang Gabi”. Maybe, some still, at the courting stage that usually happens outside the church or rather some first time meet up’s that resulted in a long and loving relationship. Some could be walking along the streets looking at the colourful lights of “parol” decorations at the post or some staring at the flickering stars above the clouds. Yes, even the blue moon stares at you and smiling. You are not alone. As you, navigate and smell the sweet aroma of “puto bong bong and bibingka”. That you will selectively buy after the mass behind the thought bubbles of your head. Indeed, that’s what I’m thinking and I’ll buy those delicious foods and eat it for my breakfast.
The cold and dark morning doesn’t stop me from getting into the mass. As I walked and get a tricycle so I could sit in front and as I listen to the sermon. Yes, I arrived at exactly 3:30 am. Actually, the church is already flooding with people. I almost lost my seat at the front row. But, luckily, I was seated with electric fan near me.
I may be single and I believe there are alike me, nowadays. Rather, we choose to be and it doesn’t make any hindrance to be with our dear creator. Even, we agree that is much joy having a loving partner beside us during this wonderful morning. I guess, this is the way it is and we could never change it. Yes, for the mean time, temporarily available.
Time surpass so quickly, I managed to cling, understand and kept the wisdom that our parish priest imparted to me. As I carry the lesson, in able to have a deeper relationship with our dear Lord, we need to invest time. If, we wanted get to know him more. We must devote ourselves in praying. He said, we need to pray in all aspect of our lives so we could learn to love him more. But, that’s not all. We need some actions and we need to have that kind of compassion for others. To act generously not because it’s the right thing to do but it’s the way we get closer to him. So, I decided that after the “Simbang Gabi”. I’ll write every little thing that I will encounter during my 9 mornings. All the sermons and simple things, maybe, in the end; miracles do happen. Yet, Singleness could be so lonely and frustrating. You decide what you want and you deal with all circumstances that come your way and now, you walked alone at “Simbang Gabi” while, others have their loved one’s and crush beside them. Well, amazingly, you will surpass it. We will both complete the 9 mornings, even, I’m starting a new life and I pray for a bright, exciting and magical future next year. Bear in mind, sacrifices are made to find true happiness. So, let me explicitly say, smile even you are “SINGLE” because it’s a gift. Life will turn around. See it and believe. However, I need to ask a big question, why are you attending the 9 morning mass? You knew the answer, I know, what you are thinking. I also wish that. So, follow my journey of 9 mornings; let’s see if it truly works.

I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE

I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE
12-10-11

It ended with mountable of tears, the revelation that all your emotions that you kept and all the longing of great love quickly disappears because he died and all your hopes faded like a star. That he won’t fulfil all your dreams anymore. Both wishes, of happily ever after will be thrown away. Until, a tragic fate comes without knowing that permanently his gone into your life. It’s like you submerged in a black, dark ocean blinded. That deep inside your soul, your spirits subsides and your body is numb. That you can’t feel anything, slowly your teardrops fall and you can’t breathe. You can feel your heart like a scattered glass thrown in a wall.

I believe that’s what I felt upon watching the movie at cinema one, the grief, hope, envy and unconditional love reflecting on each character they portray. A grief that elicits a profound loss and longing of love that forever be a sweet memory to remember. To hope a fruitful finale that shares joy for a lifetime. A man’s envy that battles between true love and great love. The shadow casting of tremendous love overpowering the soul of each audience capturing one’s emotion and the reality of commitment and sacrifice to show the real meaning of LOVE.

I pour such thundering emotions, as I wept my tears up. I cried not because I wanted to feel the acceptance of letting the one you love go. Not because you want to see him/her happy or you want him/her to fulfil his/her dreams. But, I dwell my heart on that scene to let go of all the pains that love makes me feel during all the years had gone by. To cry and be brave, to be hopeful and to dream again that even you loss the one you love, by accident, fate, your mistake or either your own decisions. You need to be strong that any scar will be healed, that anytime the wound will close naturally. That by saying “goodbye” is not the end, but, a new beginning to explore new horizons. To know the real you, to search for new skills and talents that is within u that u kept for a long time. To forgive all the resentments, frustrations and disappointments other causes you to feel empty and lonely.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason. You can never plan ahead, no matter how much you want the day to be perfect. As you stare, people around you does not look the same way you see life. Maybe, if one terminates you it doesn’t mean he doesn’t agree with your capabilities. However, it’s an eye opener into your soul; that let you choose and decide what path you should cross, either you let the stream flowing with positive currents or be stagnant like a soft, brown soil waiting for a lily to grow.

Letting someone go, losing the one that you love most either it’s a person, work, career or family; the most important thing you should remember is to write down the things you’ve learned. Even, how kind you are, how generous you will be and how genuine your friendship or love it may be. All things our temporarily made, memories will stay, the good and bad times will be lingered. But, as dark clouds occluded your visions, the sun still shines so bright, a new dawn will ordinarily comes….

So, loving and having that kind of devotion and commitment will be intact, within your spirit and soul. The immensity of love you put up will always be there in your heart no matter what. You create a wondrous feeling that no one can replace. When, you feel that you can’t fight the pain anymore and you stopped wishing for true love. You pause for a while, look at the dark clouds above you, stare at them for a few minutes until you see a miniscule of light, scintillating with brilliance, even a tiny diamond light matter; suddenly, appear on your sight because no matter how lonely you might be, there will always be a flickering star waiting for you. As you let him be the guide to continue to believe that true love still exists……. Old goodbyes are gone; new beginnings will say hello….

Love speaks if meant to be or not?

When all was left with you are tears
When you regret to show
How much you love a person
All you need, is to clinged into something
That true love still comes on your way
But, what if you already lost him
He/she will never come back
Coz she/he belongs to someone else
Coz u never give him a chance
You never let love to blossom
Because of Pride you never fight for him
Life is made up of regrets, wrong turns and decisions
Some may complete his path with joy
But,some losses their way and end up empty inside
Rather, no one knows
You can't quantify the pain it gives
You could only pray that time runs fast
And rainy days will be over
so, when the storm closes its eye
You will still submerged bravely and triumphantly
Sometimes, you choose your own way
You choose the wrong person
Because within your soul
Your still longing for your one true love
That you let him slip,long time ago.....
Then, you will realized
How joyful is to be inloved
To be free and be simply filled with esctasy
When, one day your Love still aches
Just continue to grief and learn to accept that Love fades
And that love comes and goes
You can only have it, iF its meant to be
When destiny speaks
Even, in the aisle of Love
It will reappear in your way
You'll know the sign.....
And happinness will dwell into your spirit.......

A pucca that blinks sees only one pure heart of gold

Whenever, I see our baby angel, AC aka alessandria cassiel. I see a miniature live pucca in action. Maybe, because of her hair, eyes, actions and the way she dress has a high resemblance of that cute little famous red character named "pucca". What characteristic of pucca has,that stands most of all cuddly famous cartoon figure in the World? I believe it is in her heart. The way she touched her friends and the way she shared her emotions and humility to her loved ones...Her simplicity in wearing a red dress that symbolizes courage, uniqueness, valor and love that springs like a fountain filled with life and continuity.
When, I stare my few collections of pucca figurine and stuffs. I can't resist to imagine being her. Her vibrant attitude that delightedly uplifts one lonely soul. Her chinese little two lined eye that makes me dream of life with serenity and peacefulness of heart, mind and soul. Like each one of us, there's a child within, little hidden anime or cartoon charcter that molds who we are. Attitudes and values that lingers within us. Yes, indeed; I compared my cute little niece with pucca because her innocence, timidity, playfullness and child intelligence are much alike of pucca's mind and heart. Simply, ac has a heart of gold that even our father in heaven loves because like a child she doesn't have any boundaries to show her joy and madness. A pucca-like action that is admirable, honorable and simply lovable that I wished will stay the same as the years goes by....