I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE
12-10-11
It ended with mountable of tears, the revelation that all your emotions that you kept and all the longing of great love quickly disappears because he died and all your hopes faded like a star. That he won’t fulfil all your dreams anymore. Both wishes, of happily ever after will be thrown away. Until, a tragic fate comes without knowing that permanently his gone into your life. It’s like you submerged in a black, dark ocean blinded. That deep inside your soul, your spirits subsides and your body is numb. That you can’t feel anything, slowly your teardrops fall and you can’t breathe. You can feel your heart like a scattered glass thrown in a wall.
I believe that’s what I felt upon watching the movie at cinema one, the grief, hope, envy and unconditional love reflecting on each character they portray. A grief that elicits a profound loss and longing of love that forever be a sweet memory to remember. To hope a fruitful finale that shares joy for a lifetime. A man’s envy that battles between true love and great love. The shadow casting of tremendous love overpowering the soul of each audience capturing one’s emotion and the reality of commitment and sacrifice to show the real meaning of LOVE.
I pour such thundering emotions, as I wept my tears up. I cried not because I wanted to feel the acceptance of letting the one you love go. Not because you want to see him/her happy or you want him/her to fulfil his/her dreams. But, I dwell my heart on that scene to let go of all the pains that love makes me feel during all the years had gone by. To cry and be brave, to be hopeful and to dream again that even you loss the one you love, by accident, fate, your mistake or either your own decisions. You need to be strong that any scar will be healed, that anytime the wound will close naturally. That by saying “goodbye” is not the end, but, a new beginning to explore new horizons. To know the real you, to search for new skills and talents that is within u that u kept for a long time. To forgive all the resentments, frustrations and disappointments other causes you to feel empty and lonely.
I do believe that everything happens for a reason. You can never plan ahead, no matter how much you want the day to be perfect. As you stare, people around you does not look the same way you see life. Maybe, if one terminates you it doesn’t mean he doesn’t agree with your capabilities. However, it’s an eye opener into your soul; that let you choose and decide what path you should cross, either you let the stream flowing with positive currents or be stagnant like a soft, brown soil waiting for a lily to grow.
Letting someone go, losing the one that you love most either it’s a person, work, career or family; the most important thing you should remember is to write down the things you’ve learned. Even, how kind you are, how generous you will be and how genuine your friendship or love it may be. All things our temporarily made, memories will stay, the good and bad times will be lingered. But, as dark clouds occluded your visions, the sun still shines so bright, a new dawn will ordinarily comes….
So, loving and having that kind of devotion and commitment will be intact, within your spirit and soul. The immensity of love you put up will always be there in your heart no matter what. You create a wondrous feeling that no one can replace. When, you feel that you can’t fight the pain anymore and you stopped wishing for true love. You pause for a while, look at the dark clouds above you, stare at them for a few minutes until you see a miniscule of light, scintillating with brilliance, even a tiny diamond light matter; suddenly, appear on your sight because no matter how lonely you might be, there will always be a flickering star waiting for you. As you let him be the guide to continue to believe that true love still exists……. Old goodbyes are gone; new beginnings will say hello….
