At March 25, 2009,(Wednesday), I wake up early to avoid traffic, with only 4 hours sleep because I have reformatted the PC last evening so my sister could use it while I'm gone from work. Indeed, I was successful but depressed and tired from Friday to Tuesday Job application and interviews. I have flanked the final interview at Teletech Bacoor last Tueday, even if I was terribly afraid of the stiff open air space stairs of the mall, I managed to bring my Mother, my best friend's daughter and even my new boyfriend just to accompany me to climb the fearful flight of steps on that 3day Exams.
I'm sad and frustrated on that said day. I'm thankful that I learned my weaknesses but I lose my confidence to find a new job and it lowers my self-esteem to know what I like most in life and things that interest me best. My body is too weaken, my eyes are too sleepy and my heart beat trembling so fast but my mind still works and thinking of the failures that blinded my whole integrity and pride.
Then, PC started to malfunction . I guess, some wants me to take a rest and I did. After, I wake up. I watched the new episode of Zorro while , a blast of thought came. What If I reformatted the computer then I continue working it. At at the strike of 1:30am, the computer is fully conditioned and the Internet start to work. Thank you to my Angels, they clear my minds.
On the above date I mentioned, a two consecutive songs on the radio flashes a words like "An Angel eyes" in the lyrics and the other one song has a lyrics of Angels too. I guess, they are really cheering me up for a toxic day ahead of me. As I rushed in my room, to dress up my scrub suit , a song echoes in the radio, "try if you do not succeed" try try try again...What does it mean? Is there a message conveying in the air, a message of hope , comfort and love.
I believe, on that wonderful day. My Angels just wanted to tell me not to lose hope. There is a gift for me. Yet to be open, if I'll be patiently waits.
