On my Behalf I carry a Heart

Learning to feel one's emotions, takes a lot of wisdom in determining one's heart and one's goodness. One carry a soul that comforts and heals the pain, some carry a heart that encourage to love again and some carry it with hope that someday you will meet the right man/woman for you.... On my behalf I carry a Heart, a sincere and truthful heart promising to care, love wholeheartedly and be faithful 'till eternity. You longed for compassion and the will to survive , to continue to hope that your love will grow, that each moment will be filled with happiness ad each steps will be a memory be remembered as a joyful and wonderful experience. I've known you, even for a while. I know, you have a good soul and I believe that you won't hurt me the way other's did. On your behalf , I thank you for finding me and I'll always cherished you for making our both world's near and reconnected. With all the pain, stressful works and tears, I only wished I can be the one who can swept all the sad memories you've been....as we take another step , a new chapter of our life, may our friendship , care and love dwells and grow each day as we let each other know our uniqueness of race and culture.. I offered a Heart for you and for your child , may each day be fruitful and filled with love and faith in God..May our journey together be directed with goodness of our almighty Father in Heaven.

For a Genuine Friendship

Whoever finds a faithful and true Friend is a miracle manifested in life. A wonderful encounter of a genuine person who dwells with truth,goodness, love, compassion and care. From beginning to end, I met people in different walks of life. Oftentimes, I encounter them on the roads, I help them and befriend them. While other's , I met them online that marks and leave traces in my heart, that touches and gives me lessons to linger in my mind to continue to give hope, laughter and courage to every person I met even within the vicinity of the port, the mall, the street or in the web. I turn my consolation , to people I value who gives me a wonderful meaning in my life. Friends who left marks in my heart that forever be valued and remembered. I discovered a love that is treasured beyond the sparkles of gold and even as delicate as a wine taste, I open up a treasure chest of brilliant and wonderful people who understands my emotions, who accepts me for what I am, who listen to my tantrums and to my different attitudes, who comforts and give me joy when my heart is broken into pieces. I glorified the gift of genuine friendship with joy in my heart. I thrilled each moment, I'm with them and I'll forever cherished each step we make as we journey our sisterly and brotherly friendship. I sheltered a Friend , I sheltered there love,care and loyalty. I'll treasured it in my heart. I Thank thee for them...

Moving another Chapter of my Faith

Can I predict what will happen for the future? Can I state a particular moment which I feel glorified or be the saddest moment in my life? the answer is NO, I can't.Because I could only read the signs and dreams I have. But, do I really need to watched and listen to the voices that whispering into my ears, or my doubts and fear will prevail or my faith in our dear Lord will stand most in high. I believe in God, and I know everything will be good as directed to his will, on his time, on his abundance blessings , thy will be done according to his goodness. Moving another chapter in my life,is quite exciting, nervous, scary, mixed emotions of sadness and joy but whatever emotions I felt. My faith still stand strong and in believing that I'll be living and working in another country and that his goodness will prevail and all his plans for me will be good according to his will and love. A new blaze of trail., I'll be heading, another journey to unknown place wherein I hope this time, I will be happy , fulfilled with hope , contentment and love. May the Good and loving Father in Heaven bless and direct my way....May he strengthen my faith and walked towards his path.. Thank you our Father for everything , Thank you for all the love and guidance my God, Almighty.

Oppurtunity knocks Once, they oftenly says!

Chances in this World, is quite filled with consequences and a lot of Trial & Errors, you win some and you lose some, you gambled and taken the risk,you make your decisions and be tough with it. You hold your own key on your hand, you lift your own wings and you continue your flight where your destiny holds you. You chooses to be strong and having the faith in your own wheel of Life. You tried to be independent and stand on your integrity and soon, you'll win the battle. You are cautious and careful not to ruined yourself , that you allow to insist and persist what your mind and heart tells you. You have the power to lighten up your goals and values. You wished to achieved everthing, your heart desires. You carry a soul filled with confidence and Faith in God, as I let the good Lord plan for my life, Oppurtunity knocks only once, as people says. Either you GO or STOP on the intersection,as you can deal with your own cards, either you take another card or stop the game you play. You can give another shot to play around and be the captain of the deck., or pull down your cards and go back Home. I'm puzzled with the chances of working in another country, Can I hold it back or ignore, or can I continue and try to live my life independently with the Lord's guidance. I have the key in my hand, may I open the door with guidance and good goals parades my way by our dear Lord's settings.

Dining with a Tough Friend

Learning her attitude makes me oftenly disturbed on how could I act towards her. She has a beautiful face, she is carrying a baby and that makes her vulnerable to fatigue but still her views about life and all her opinions still bursting with confidence and strong appeal. A woman, with courage, facing by herself with her husband away working in the sea and with his son on her in-laws. I’m proud of her, for her distinct and tough character and most of all for a loving mom. She’s fond of her friends, with her talkativenss, being so friendly and fun to be with. Though, sometimes she had a delicate attitude that makes me different fro her. I’ve dine with the Quarantine Doctor, his a sweet, timid, straight and responsible boss. He honors and love his parents, his one of a kind. A person whose responsibility to his worked is much valued. He knows how to sacrifice and be a sincere friend that let him loved by his subordinates. They have both various characteristics that makes them lift their own personality. I’m happy to be dined with this guys, learning their real friendship, enjoying each conversation makes the whole duty of 24 Hours complete.

Cherishing a Loving Lady Doctor

Its a blessing having and knowing her. Once, I dreamed that I'll met a wonderful person near the boulevard, I know deep in my heart and to my intuition that I'll be sharing my life with that particular person, but, I have never expected that she will be so close and she will be touching my heart. Teaching me lessons in life , love , work , family and friends. I've learned that never trust a person too much, never open your heart until you know his/her soul,you can see it into their eyes, if their heart is gold or coal. Think first before you decide, each situations and scenario are different from another, new answers are made, new alternatives are taken. She told me never stop achieving your dreams, your goal in life.Value the things that makes you happy, remember to asked God's help all the time because he is good and he love us unconditionally. I admired her compassion, love and care she given to her 4kids and her husband. She taught me to dwell and learned to accept the weakness of your loved one, you need to encouraged and help the person to know her strength and developed the skills a person has. Never estimate or judged a person according to his/her appearance. Always be humble and be kind to strangers. You can might never knew whom you can bumped on. Listen before you speak, you need to practice the art of listening, that's one of the thing I learned. We are both talkative , so we need to slow down a little. That's what I missed about her. A lot of insight and wisdom she imparted to me. The kindness, love, care and support are outstanding and touching that I cared so much about her. I appreciated and love her so much, she's like a Mother to me, my second mom, with her wonderful position in life, her humble ways despite her supervisory position, she touched a lot people through her love and care. I'll never forget her. I cherished every 24 duty we had, her smile that makes my day brighter, her moments of laughter and tears seems so delighted and worth my journey in life. Some people doesn't like her, they ignored her quite some time, but, some noticed my lady doctor because they needed her. The sad part, people smiles at you,likes you because she can gained a lot from you but after a while, they forgotten all your kindness and efforts. Oftentimes, That's the people living here in this World. However, I'm glad that I met her. I thanked Our providence for knowing her even in a short period of time, we been together. I have learned a lot from her, we might seem rebelious on other eye's but for me she's one of my Angels. Thank you for sharing your life to me, for all the love , the great friendship , care, support and for everything. Happiness is seen into a woman whose heart filled with kindness and joy. May you filled with love, hope and peace of mind. Remember, to smell the flowers each day and thank the Lord for all the blessings she gave. I'll be missing you, you will always be in my heart....mami pi....thank you...

Two years of Silent Friendship

Years had passed by so fast, that I learned to cherished you so much. I never thought I've known you so well and I understand your unique ways and your indifferent attitude that puzzled me each day. You let me in, In your Own world even I can't fully comprehend your simple gestures but I valued you for giving me the gift of true friendship. Your extraordinary actions that amazed me, your addiction in books that influences me and make me crazy upon seeing and touring the big bookstore houses. I can't imagined will be separating our ways for 2 years, we stayed together on our duties, we comfort each other even when were sick and even if we have tension headache, we learn to share and care for each other, as our friendship grows each days.I've accepted the real you , the odd ways you listen to your mp4's the silent mode we had on the air of our duties that even others may say, that we have our own World. Whatever what they say, they can't matched the calmness of my heart, the real care you shown,is much appreciated and I valued you even more. you been my sister more each day. while, others,can't figure out your moods, just remain unchanged,the pure heart you've shown, the loving ways you done for your family and friends, the punctuality at work , your being so responsible beyond compared, the goodness of your heart ,may forever be true and innocent still.Until, our duty meet again, May you express the way you feel, may your opinions spranged to the open doors, without doubt but with confidence and faith.Learn to be yourself, know yourself more, mingle to others and don't be afraid to open your heart. Don't let anyone ,pull you down, if you feel alone, ill be here for you.If the world doesn't understand you, I'm here to listen. May you speak with love and braveness of heart. No one can hurt you,unless you let them. So, be careful in trusting but still believe in the power of love and friendship. I learned a lot from you, I learned to think first and safety myself before I act and do such decisions and think before I speak so I wont hurt anyone or offended anyone. I'm happy and blessed I've known you michelle. Be brave girl and I wished someday you'll find the right man for you..the one deserving for your kindness and sincere heart of gold. May you find your Daniel in stargate and your harry potter of you life, your prince will come, just believe in your heart and have faith.

The Travelling Pen

I wonder how a black clouds formed during a storm. As I traveled Home from a 24Hour Duty. A gloomy, Rainy Tuesday fills the air with sleepy eyesight and I want to cradle and lie on my bed the whole day. A traffic jam flashed my seen towards the intersection as I stare a white sky that tried to blink on my bus window. I imagined people who doesn’t have descent home during this stormy season. The cold, clammy hands who lingers a warmth place to live-in. Do they have enough food supply to last for a week or even a single day. As I walked, to an over passed which flooded by water , that my wet shoes feels like water is overflowing in my socks. But, I continue to Thank God for this wonderful day and praying for those poor people on the sidewalks that they may surpass this water flooding day, my sleepy eyes still focused on my writings as I burst all the words inside my head. I longed to see my loved ones because I wanted to stay , talked and embraced my pillow with this cold time seasons. Can a red hood jacket protects me from a stormy hard rain and wind. I sighed, I think , No it can’t. but I need to park my pen. I’m beyond my stop point. As I watched the fast speed colors of the bus code. I have glee in my heart that I have sign and part my pen again
9:40am Off NAIA Duty
August 7,2007

A Romantic Soul

A sweet amiable romantic soul like me believes in everything when it comes, to love, I believe that each people here on earth has their own partner whom they share one’s life, it’s destiny that one finds his soul connection, it’s one’s choice to make it stronger and last forever , true love comes if your real to yourself , your willing to be faithful , to surrender, to commit and to sacrifice everything you had to see the one you love happy,. Even it takes a lot of tears and risks to feel true love. Once, a love story untold, one wished a happy ending, all lady wants to achieved and feel the esctacy of truly falling in love head over heels to a prince she dreamt of all of her life. Maybe, I’m one of those well-wishers, hoping someday ,my wished of a man will come true, he will be knocking and I’ll give my heart as true , pure as a gold… that all my loneliness will eludes and romantic dream , a sweet dream be reality.

Emptying Our Hearts to feel the Unconditional Love

God often empties our hands to feel our heart's ,to listen and pause for silence , to linger that there is a superior Holy Spirit that binds us to keep life going, to reach the boundaries of being human, that no matter how many ladder we step , how many races we lose, how many deep pits we fall, there is a greater unconditional love which magnets us to bring closer to the one who creates us. Its our Lord, our Dear Providence who works mysteriously in our lives.

Journey of Your Heart

You need to forsee yourself attaining the goal your heart's desire, what's important is you felt glad choosing the path you really want,even if circumstances comes that you failed and never get the things or dream you wished. Atleast, you tried and done your best. It's not what if or I can't. You should follow what's in your heart, of course you used your mind to think what's best for you. But, never listen to what other's dictates you. It's your happiness you don't owe them anything. It's your decision , it's your own life , its your own risks to be sad or to be joyful because life is too short to listen to other's opinions. You may not get the dream you longed for, but, you given a good fight,in the end, its the acceptance of one person that leads your heart to another journey that you deserve , that had already planned from above only for you, that awaits you to seek and just simply say thank you cause all along its been there. Written-April6,07,Inspired by Dra.Pilar Dela Rosa

5 Steps:Remedy of Depression

A simple solution: The first step is to know the Origin or where it coming from,Ask Yourself: why am I depressed? Second: Accept the fact that it happened. sometimes things happen for a reason, you might never knew it but it did. Don't fight with the inevitable situation.Third: Solved the Scenario. You don't need to lie in the couch for the whole week, if you can't solved it. Remember time passes by, All wounds and all pains surpasses and the clock always ticks. There's a brand new day ahead of you.Fourth: Pray and be Positive. Life Continues, every drop of your tears there's an Angel sent by God to calm you down, give you peace and comforts you. No matter what the outcome will be, you have your families and Friends to keep you standing up to fight in turmoil World. Fifth Steps: Give a Smile to everyone. Even if they can't give it back to you ,I'm positive it can change your outlook in Life. A positive energy will flow to your system. Believe me. You can send me message,if you want to talked about anything. I can be your Friend.

Having a Sincere Heart takes a lot of Integrity

Loving a person entitles you to hold a certain commitment, a Life filled with responsibility, filled with compassion and a heart filled with true and undefined love and integrity. All my life. I'm dreamt to live and find someone who could love me the way I deserved, someone who could take care of me and be sincere to his actions and be willing to sacrifice for my sake and for my happiness. But, it eludes me the moment I find it, I just can't believe how devastating and how painful it could be, its like iron sharpens the sword, all character are burst into open, like your opening a scented jar, at first the aroma, entails you to smell and be familiarized it, but, as day steps by, the aroma dissappears in the air, like the wind , like the tornado and a summer day, it pass by and soon it will be gone away. Do i have the integrity to love a person, Am i sincere enough to value and love the person who loves me , am I too proud that someone sacrifices and care for me? or I am just happy to be loved but I can return the same love they are giving? Am I too expectant or too judgemental? Some people say, my spiritual mentors in books told me, that people or mentors come into your life for a reason to teach you or vice versa so they could learn from you or either you will learn from them. But, do I learned something or I'm still repeating the same mistakes. I knew in my heart what I'm searching for but I just couldn't determined what my heart really wants. May our Creator, My savior , My Bestfriend Guide me so I may find the perfect outcome, the true love or great love in my life. May i have the strength to have a Sincere Heart with an unconditional Love and Integrity so I may learn to value and share my sincere love to others and to the right man. May the Angel of Divine Love show me the way and prepares my way. Thank thee...

The Right kind of Web Camera

I sound so excited at 7pm because my dear Ricky is going to see me online, its quite unfair on my side but I have to take the risk for the reason that I want to know his reactions towards me. I may say, we have the power to judge and appreciate one's beauty I don't even knew if his sincere, but,I'm willing to take chances.Each angle that focuses the picture of a unique being signifies the beauty it beholds. I'm so excited then and I wanted the clock to be a 7pm because that will be the first time where Ricky will see me in flesh that the person his chatting with is real. I take the chances and I have taken the risk, even I have not seen the guy I have taken the steps to overtake my fear and see myself in the cam. I don't even knew if his sincere but deep within my heart that he is. Did I find the right camera, is the angle focuses my scintillating ,poppy eyes, does the lights blends with the surroundings. I might even knew his right reactions or if his telling the truth but I still hoped and wished that we can last or our chats will stay. May our friendship and love stays even we meet again in real life and in real world.

A Day with Little Tintin

I wake up with a loud cute voice of a little child, calling my name . Wake up, Ninang. Wake up! With my mom accompanying her and with her mom, my bestfriend, I guess who will not wake up as my little girl kisses me for a morning kiss. I love this kid, she is the daughter of my bestfriend Marian. They are living beside our house, every morning they wake up and straight to our house, just to see us, be with and play with me as we color, draw,watch cartoons and telenovela's, type in the emails and cuddled the whole afternoon. We have lots of fun. maybe, because I love children and they make me feel young and energize. It gives you a certain glow in your heart that makes you happy the whole day. Whenever, I got out from worked. I instantly wanna see this little cute 2 year old child, I have a little gift for her from the Airport which I'm presently employed upon giving that simple gift. She gave me a sweet kiss and tells me "thank you, ninang ganda" it means thank you my beautiful ninang. Her Mommy Ann and Tintin are so important in my life. Whenever I got sad, I have them at my side.. Bless them with a good future...