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9 mornings: Learning the value of sacrifice, obedience and trusting in him in times of great sadness and trials

2011-12-18T23:49:00.002+08:00

DATE: DECEMBER17, 2011

9 mornings: Learning the value of sacrifice, obedience and trusting in him in times of great sadness and trials

DAY 3:

This morning I attend the mass but I was never along. I’m with my sister donna. I’m happy that even I wake up late than her usual time of 2:30 am, my heart was filled with gladness because its like the same old days, attending early mass with my sibling and family as well. Even, I felt so tired that I travelled another dimension again. Well, the mass goes well, with new priest standing in front of the altar.

My heart shouts with glee, as I brilliantly sings praise and joy to our savior. I’m filled with joy because I was able to attend the 3rd day. Even, if my eyes slowly wants to close and sleep; I was able to managed and follow the songs of praise of alleluia and other songs.

The sermon gives a very enormous impact to my well being. Every little words, our priest spokes enlightened my whole being. It’s like a candle burning so bright that it cuts my eyes. I guess, there is no great sacrifice that Papa Jesus had did and also her mother, mama Mary. No man can live up to all the sufferings, they both gave. The acceptance of doing all the chores of responsibility and carrying the child on her womb without any complain, only she gave her whole trust that our dear God will never leave him and forsaken him. She decided to put all her beliefs in him. She patiently says “yes” without doubt and confusion; she obediently carries the baby for the salvation of human kind.

The priest, intricately explain the value of having deep faith in our dear Lord. That any sad eventful days of your life will be no compared of the love he gave to us. That every trial, challenges, problems and frustrations that you felt will turn out to be the best way to be know and be close to him. That no matter what happen, he promises that he would never leave or forsaken you.

The sermon became so interesting; when he elaborately tells about the plan of our dear Lord. That man always makes plan to their future. That no matter how lucid the future it seems to be and whenever a goal or dreams does not comply with the original schedule. There always be his will. Sometime we enormously feel a great fear and coward like actions within ourselves. We end up being stagnant and scared of risking every decision because we are totally not giving up to him. We seldom believe, that the only way to survived in this world is to completely trust in him…..that’s the way it should be and that the only way to truly be close to him.

I felt relieved; but, as I write this I was able to understand slowly; its day 3, after, me and my sister bought a “puto bong bong and lugaw and ate it after the mass at home. Well, I’m glad we did some bonding in simbang gabi.
Miraculously, one miracle happen, a text came by at night; MIAA wants me back. I have my OJT again. I hope and I believe that our dear Lord will bless and guide me. As I worked towards the same premises who broke my heart. May it healed as I go back and worked again. May he guide us all with his love, comfort and understanding…see yah the next morning…

GOD IS GOOD AND LOVING, WE JUST NEED TO BE AWARE OF HIS CALL AND TO OUR CELESTIAL SURROUNDINGS BECAUSE HIS HERE AND EVEN THE LITTLE THING WE SEE, HIS ALL AROUND US!!!!

THANK YOU , PAPA GOD FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME!!!PRAISE AND GLORY TO YOU OH LORD!

9 MORNINGS:EMBRACING IMPERFECTIONS, FORGIVENESS OF SELF AND OTHERS

2011-12-17T17:26:00.001+08:00

I almost run into seat. Obviously, I was late and I should be there at the church at 3:30 a.m. but luckily I arrived at 3:50a.m. There’s still goodness, in his heart because no matter how bad my actions can be, he still, have the heart to forgive me. I don’t know what happen; but, I believe the gospel works and it really encapsulated my whole being. Each words dictates being a true human filled with dysfunctional attitudes or imperfections without it you can never say you are truly his creation.

When we learn to accept that there are things we couldn’t change that there are attitudes that needs to replenish in order to forgive one self. When, we embrace our unique behaviours and realized our own mistakes and failures only then we could achieve true happiness. Also, we need to know our weaknesses so we could move forward and to evaluate things which make our life so chaoticly molded with sins.

Eventually, the mass go smoothly even it rain so hard before the mass begins. I happily remembered all the sermons that in order to achieve real joy this Christmas is to accept that we have sinned, we are not perfect. We are created to stand all the storms if we will hold on to our Savior. If, we learn to ask forgiveness to our dear Lord, our own self and our fellow men.

I prayed on that morning that I may be able to forgive myself for all the wrong decisions, strategies and failures that I have this past few years. To accept that all the wasted years I spent working in an establishment wherein; dedication and commitment are not well established. That I may embrace all the good and bad memories it brings, all the heartaches and pain of a dream and love that does not come on my way. To develop a strong faith in him, to get to know; our creator and to love him more with all my heart, mind and soul.

Thy forgives reign in one’s heart to be able to achieve true happiness in this lifetime.

9 MORNINGS: A SINGLE’S WISH FOR A “SIMBANG GABI”

2011-12-16T09:31:00.001+08:00

Date: December 16, 2011

9 MORNINGS: A SINGLE’S WISH FOR A “SIMBANG GABI”

BY: seraphimblue

DAY 1:
I was awaken not my own cell phone clock but I was alarmed by my instinct or by my psychological body clock that I need to attend the church tradition of what we called “SIMBANG GABI” at 4 a.m. As I hurriedly prepare myself so I could sit at the front row of the bench so I could see the priest and all the decorations all over the surroundings. I was excited, not because it’s been the tradition and during the times I worked at the airport; I ordinarily missed the opportunity to complete it because of my bizarre 24 hours work at the medical division. But, I wanted to attend the mass even I’m alone, single and cold. I still, feel the warmth of embrace of our dear Lord. You know why, someone woke me up, someone told me that I need to get up in my bed to start my novena and my sacrifice for this coming Christmas day.
Few are chosen to have that special someone to be with them at “Simbang Gabi”. Maybe, some still, at the courting stage that usually happens outside the church or rather some first time meet up’s that resulted in a long and loving relationship. Some could be walking along the streets looking at the colourful lights of “parol” decorations at the post or some staring at the flickering stars above the clouds. Yes, even the blue moon stares at you and smiling. You are not alone. As you, navigate and smell the sweet aroma of “puto bong bong and bibingka”. That you will selectively buy after the mass behind the thought bubbles of your head. Indeed, that’s what I’m thinking and I’ll buy those delicious foods and eat it for my breakfast.
The cold and dark morning doesn’t stop me from getting into the mass. As I walked and get a tricycle so I could sit in front and as I listen to the sermon. Yes, I arrived at exactly 3:30 am. Actually, the church is already flooding with people. I almost lost my seat at the front row. But, luckily, I was seated with electric fan near me.
I may be single and I believe there are alike me, nowadays. Rather, we choose to be and it doesn’t make any hindrance to be with our dear creator. Even, we agree that is much joy having a loving partner beside us during this wonderful morning. I guess, this is the way it is and we could never change it. Yes, for the mean time, temporarily available.
Time surpass so quickly, I managed to cling, understand and kept the wisdom that our parish priest imparted to me. As I carry the lesson, in able to have a deeper relationship with our dear Lord, we need to invest time. If, we wanted get to know him more. We must devote ourselves in praying. He said, we need to pray in all aspect of our lives so we could learn to love him more. But, that’s not all. We need some actions and we need to have that kind of compassion for others. To act generously not because it’s the right thing to do but it’s the way we get closer to him. So, I decided that after the “Simbang Gabi”. I’ll write every little thing that I will encounter during my 9 mornings. All the sermons and simple things, maybe, in the end; miracles do happen. Yet, Singleness could be so lonely and frustrating. You decide what you want and you deal with all circumstances that come your way and now, you walked alone at “Simbang Gabi” while, others have their loved one’s and crush beside them. Well, amazingly, you will surpass it. We will both complete the 9 mornings, even, I’m starting a new life and I pray for a bright, exciting and magical future next year. Bear in mind, sacrifices are made to find true happiness. So, let me explicitly say, smile even you are “SINGLE” because it’s a gift. Life will turn around. See it and believe. However, I need to ask a big question, why are you attending the 9 morning mass? You knew the answer, I know, what you are thinking. I also wish that. So, follow my journey of 9 mornings; let’s see if it truly works.

I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE

2011-12-10T23:49:00.003+08:00

I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE
12-10-11

It ended with mountable of tears, the revelation that all your emotions that you kept and all the longing of great love quickly disappears because he died and all your hopes faded like a star. That he won’t fulfil all your dreams anymore. Both wishes, of happily ever after will be thrown away. Until, a tragic fate comes without knowing that permanently his gone into your life. It’s like you submerged in a black, dark ocean blinded. That deep inside your soul, your spirits subsides and your body is numb. That you can’t feel anything, slowly your teardrops fall and you can’t breathe. You can feel your heart like a scattered glass thrown in a wall.

I believe that’s what I felt upon watching the movie at cinema one, the grief, hope, envy and unconditional love reflecting on each character they portray. A grief that elicits a profound loss and longing of love that forever be a sweet memory to remember. To hope a fruitful finale that shares joy for a lifetime. A man’s envy that battles between true love and great love. The shadow casting of tremendous love overpowering the soul of each audience capturing one’s emotion and the reality of commitment and sacrifice to show the real meaning of LOVE.

I pour such thundering emotions, as I wept my tears up. I cried not because I wanted to feel the acceptance of letting the one you love go. Not because you want to see him/her happy or you want him/her to fulfil his/her dreams. But, I dwell my heart on that scene to let go of all the pains that love makes me feel during all the years had gone by. To cry and be brave, to be hopeful and to dream again that even you loss the one you love, by accident, fate, your mistake or either your own decisions. You need to be strong that any scar will be healed, that anytime the wound will close naturally. That by saying “goodbye” is not the end, but, a new beginning to explore new horizons. To know the real you, to search for new skills and talents that is within u that u kept for a long time. To forgive all the resentments, frustrations and disappointments other causes you to feel empty and lonely.

I do believe that everything happens for a reason. You can never plan ahead, no matter how much you want the day to be perfect. As you stare, people around you does not look the same way you see life. Maybe, if one terminates you it doesn’t mean he doesn’t agree with your capabilities. However, it’s an eye opener into your soul; that let you choose and decide what path you should cross, either you let the stream flowing with positive currents or be stagnant like a soft, brown soil waiting for a lily to grow.

Letting someone go, losing the one that you love most either it’s a person, work, career or family; the most important thing you should remember is to write down the things you’ve learned. Even, how kind you are, how generous you will be and how genuine your friendship or love it may be. All things our temporarily made, memories will stay, the good and bad times will be lingered. But, as dark clouds occluded your visions, the sun still shines so bright, a new dawn will ordinarily comes….

So, loving and having that kind of devotion and commitment will be intact, within your spirit and soul. The immensity of love you put up will always be there in your heart no matter what. You create a wondrous feeling that no one can replace. When, you feel that you can’t fight the pain anymore and you stopped wishing for true love. You pause for a while, look at the dark clouds above you, stare at them for a few minutes until you see a miniscule of light, scintillating with brilliance, even a tiny diamond light matter; suddenly, appear on your sight because no matter how lonely you might be, there will always be a flickering star waiting for you. As you let him be the guide to continue to believe that true love still exists……. Old goodbyes are gone; new beginnings will say hello….

Love speaks if meant to be or not?

2011-06-01T06:17:00.000+08:00

When all was left with you are tears
When you regret to show
How much you love a person
All you need, is to clinged into something
That true love still comes on your way
But, what if you already lost him
He/she will never come back
Coz she/he belongs to someone else
Coz u never give him a chance
You never let love to blossom
Because of Pride you never fight for him
Life is made up of regrets, wrong turns and decisions
Some may complete his path with joy
But,some losses their way and end up empty inside
Rather, no one knows
You can't quantify the pain it gives
You could only pray that time runs fast
And rainy days will be over
so, when the storm closes its eye
You will still submerged bravely and triumphantly
Sometimes, you choose your own way
You choose the wrong person
Because within your soul
Your still longing for your one true love
That you let him slip,long time ago.....
Then, you will realized
How joyful is to be inloved
To be free and be simply filled with esctasy
When, one day your Love still aches
Just continue to grief and learn to accept that Love fades
And that love comes and goes
You can only have it, iF its meant to be
When destiny speaks
Even, in the aisle of Love
It will reappear in your way
You'll know the sign.....
And happinness will dwell into your spirit.......

A pucca that blinks sees only one pure heart of gold

2011-04-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Whenever, I see our baby angel, AC aka alessandria cassiel. I see a miniature live pucca in action. Maybe, because of her hair, eyes, actions and the way she dress has a high resemblance of that cute little famous red character named "pucca". What characteristic of pucca has,that stands most of all cuddly famous cartoon figure in the World? I believe it is in her heart. The way she touched her friends and the way she shared her emotions and humility to her loved ones...Her simplicity in wearing a red dress that symbolizes courage, uniqueness, valor and love that springs like a fountain filled with life and continuity.
When, I stare my few collections of pucca figurine and stuffs. I can't resist to imagine being her. Her vibrant attitude that delightedly uplifts one lonely soul. Her chinese little two lined eye that makes me dream of life with serenity and peacefulness of heart, mind and soul. Like each one of us, there's a child within, little hidden anime or cartoon charcter that molds who we are. Attitudes and values that lingers within us. Yes, indeed; I compared my cute little niece with pucca because her innocence, timidity, playfullness and child intelligence are much alike of pucca's mind and heart. Simply, ac has a heart of gold that even our father in heaven loves because like a child she doesn't have any boundaries to show her joy and madness. A pucca-like action that is admirable, honorable and simply lovable that I wished will stay the same as the years goes by....

A Love Lost

2010-08-15T20:28:00.004+08:00

When, you finally settled with the idea that you will truly love the person. That your commitment will be sealed with love, respect and trust. Then, you suddenly wake up. Everything you dreamed of; came into dust.

When, you thought that everything is fine and that each moment when your with him feels right. As you turn around, you see your own shadow, standing alone in the dark.When,loneliness and despair strikes me for the fifth time. My body just lay on the floor, too weak to stand, too sad to drink, too hopeless to feel the sunlight.I just wanna cuddle my pillow and hug my blanket so tight. Cried all day and night,weeping with tears, if my decision is right. Did I failed to let him know how much I loved him or too arrogant to express all his mistakes.

Misery overflows my system. It emanates my body that weakens, illness takes place. Coldness of the skin, pain in my chest,watery & boggy eyes and cramping legs occurs at the same time. I wish, I'll stay in my bed. To somber the pain I have.

Bo Sanchez speaks to his books "Finding one True Love" That you cannot give on what you don't have. That you are the one attracts people in your life. You have to choose whether you want them to be part of you or not.I guess, he is right.I have never really choose well, mostly, I just simply Love without really thinking very hard.

I had read a message from my phone, and it states; "I don't believe in the word REGRET.....but, I do believe in the phrase,I screwed up and I learned from it"

I only wish, the pain will go away. I apologized to all the people,I've hurt in the past. If I've didn't give all my love. If I have not been the ideal girl before. If my expectations are so high to reach. Forgive me...

Now, a new chapter begins. New me, New Life,...but, Love will soon come. I'll wait for the right time ,until I've really known to show the real meaning of it.

Yes,I'm asking him to love me back wholeheartedly. but, He can't give. Sadly,I'm just a second priority to him. That's why I've decided to stop, until my heart tells me that I still loved him. It hurts but I have to let him go.

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2010-04-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

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New Baby AC: A Miracle Labor

2009-05-28T00:33:00.004+08:00

Last, May 21, 2009 at 4:43am, My sister gave birth to a healthy cute & sweet little girl. However, my mom first saw the little Angel, with little blood on the nursery room near the Operating Room, while, the Nurse is cleaning up the child.. Her name is Alessandria Cassiel Regino Tugade, she was the baby girl of my youngest sister Ma. Donna. The labor is quite difficult. The event was so intense and so tiring but the result is quite touching and overwhelming. We went to the Hospital on May 20, 2009 at 1:30 pm in the afternoon. I can't believe that my sister is carrying her child for 10 months. Yes, indeed, it's quite overdue for the baby in her womb that is why we decided to go and let the baby be delivered on the exact Ultra Sound date at May 20, 2009.

I can sense into my nerves how nervous my mom is. How she felt the pain that my sister will be encountering such labor pain for a normal delivery.

But, it's not easy. She was admitted at 2pm, then, we came into the a small room with only small electric fan hanging on the wall because there are no available air conditioned room at those time. So,we bear the burden and heat of the summer. But, it's fine with us as long as my sister delivered the baby well.

Donna left us at 8:00 pm for her to be induced. As, the Medical Doctor do some Initial Evaluation to check how many centimeter the pelvis inlet had open. But, sadly, it's just 2cm wide, not enough for a baby to be fit because it should be 9cm.
My Mom and I visited her at the Labor Room, the nurses are all taking good care of her and monitoring all the vital signs of the baby and my sister. Even, she's so thirsty, she patiently prayed and take the moment as it is for the baby to be perfectly healthy.

However, we are left in the small room. Sweating so hard, while, we sleep and rest for a while. My mom continue to worried and even argue if my sister and the child is doing fine the whole evening. As we asked the nursing station, if both of them are safe. With the Lord's guidance, they are both well and sleeping soundly.

On the following morning, we checked my sister's upstairs. Sadly, the pelvis had just open up for 1 cm only. That is why my mom is so worried and afraid for the child and her daughter that they might be weak because of long hours of labor. No response had taken. Until, my mom decided that she needs to talked to her Obstetrician, her Doctor that she need to deliver the baby before 8pm that night or else. We can never tell what will happen. We need to prevent some terrible things to happen because my mom had the same scenario when she was pregnant with my sister Donna.

So, the Lady Doctor, decided to do some x-ray for the pelvic inlet, if they will continue to be in normal delivery or Cesarian. But, my mom became so anxious because our money is not enough to pay the bills because we knew that my sister is on normal delivery. Then, the result came, the pelvic inlet is too small for the baby and if the doctor will force it, her uterus will explode. So, the Doctor told us that it is need to be operated for cesarian. Even, our budget is too short. Our dear Father in Heaven gave us blessings and grace. He use some people to help us. My Aunt who came from Hawaii send some money to help us and I called my Uncle who is Attorney to help us too and he agreed so the following day before we discharged with the Angels guiding us. We paid the bills and the remaining balance will be paid to other people who lend us some for my sister's pregnancy.

I believe that if we prayed within our hearts. Our Father Almighty will guide and comfort us. With all our adversity and troubles, He never abandon us. He loves us so much that he will not forsaken us. We just need to ask and knock because his ears are ready to listen and his heart are wide open to embrace us. His unconditional love and grace surrounds us always.

At present, I have taken the new role of an Aunt to my pretty cute niece named AC. As I embraced, kissed, cradle and feed her. I want her to feel how much I love her and her Mom. She might not have a father but my love and support will never changed because I simply love her unconditionally. Our house had brighten up, a new love and hope surrounds us all, with love and faith in our Savior, dear Lord. As, I thank him for making them safe and healthy. May the Good Lord guide us always. May Mama Mary and all my saints pray for us always. May our Angels watches and comforts us.

I thank thee with all my heart and strong faith in God reign forever....

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2009-05-28T00:21:00.003+08:00

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Angel Number Sequence

2009-05-13T13:17:00.003+08:00

Angels are divine spirits who cares and watches over our adversities and our loneliness. They cheer up in mystrerious ways. Be touched and feel their wings embracing you. Here’s a list of Angel Number for you to read. Reflect and realized that once in your life, You have been touched by an Angel:

Number Sequences From The Angels
by Doreen Virtue, Ph.D.

The angels do their best to get our attention and to communicate with us. In this way, they help us heal our own lives. However, we often discount the signs they give us, writing them off as mere coincidences or our imagination. The angels say: “We can’t write our messages to you in the sky. You’ve got to pay attention and believe when you see any patterns forming in your life — especially in response to any questions or prayers you’ve posed. When you hear the same song repeatedly or see the same number sequence, who do you think is behind this? Your angels, of course!”

Your angels often communicate messages to you by showing you sequences of numbers. They do this in two ways. First, they subtly whisper in your ear so you’ll look up in time to notice the clock’s time or a phone number on a billboard. The angels hope you’ll be aware that you’re seeing this same number sequence repeatedly. For instance, you may frequently see the number sequence 111, and it seems every time you look at a clock the time reads 1:11 or 11:11.

The second way in which angels show you meaningful number sequences is by physically arranging for, say, a car to drive in front of you that has a specific license plate number they want you to see. Those who are aware of this phenomenon become adept at reading the meaning of various license plates. In this way, the angels will actually give you detailed messages. Here are the basic meanings of various number sequences. However, your own angels will tell you if your situation holds a different meaning for you. Ask your angels, “What are you trying to tell me?” and they’ll happily give you additional information to help decode their numeric meanings.

111 — Monitor your thoughts carefully, and be sure to only think about what you want, not what you don’t want. This sequence is a sign that there is a gate of opportunity opening up, and your thoughts are manifesting into form at record speeds. The 111 is like the bright light of a flash bulb. It means the universe has just taken a snapshot of your thoughts and is manifesting them into form. Are you pleased with what thoughts the universe has captured? If not, correct your thoughts (ask your angels to help you with this if you have difficulty controlling or monitoring your thoughts).

222 — Our newly planted ideas are beginning to grow into reality. Keep watering and nurturing them, and soon they will push through the soil so you can see evidence of your manifestation. In other words, don’t quit five minutes before the miracle. Your manifestation is soon going to be evident to you, so keep up the good work! Keep holding positive thoughts, keep affirming, and continue visualizing.

333 — The Ascended Masters are near you, desiring you to know that you have their help, love, and companionship. Call upon the Ascended Masters often, especially when you see the number 3 patterns around you. Some of the more famous Ascended Masters include: Jesus, Moses, Mary, Quan Yin, and Yogananda.

444 — The angels are surrounding you now, reassuring you of their love and help. Don’t worry because the angels’ help is nearby.

555 — Buckle your seatbelts. A major life change is upon you. This change should not be viewed as being "positive" or "negative," since all change is but a natural part of life’s flow. Perhaps this change is an answer to your prayers, so continue seeing and feeling yourself being at peace.

666 — Your thoughts are out of balance right now, focused too much on the material world. This number sequence asks you to balance your thoughts between heaven and earth. Like the famous "Sermon on the Mount," the angels ask you to focus on spirit and service, and know your material and emotional needs will automatically be met as a result.

777 — The angels applaud you…congratulations, you’re on a roll! Keep up the good work and know your wish is coming true. This is an extremely positive sign and means you should also expect more miracles to occur.

888 — A phase of your life is about to end, and this is a sign to give you forewarning to prepare. This number sequence may mean you are winding up an emotional career, or relationship phase. It also means there is light at the end of the tunnel. In addition, it means, “The crops are ripe. Don’t wait to pick and enjoy them.” In other words, don’t procrastinate making your move or enjoying fruits of your labor.

999 — Completion. This is the end of a big phase in your personal or global life. Also, it is a message to lightworkers involved in Earth healing and means, "Get to work because Mother Earth needs you right now."

000 — A reminder you are one with God, and to feel the presence of your Creator’s love within you. Also, it is a sign that a situation has gone full circle.

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A Bear of Hugs

2009-04-03T21:07:00.003+08:00

Love makes the world go round, some people says that. I guess, they are right. I have experienced a couple of times to fall in love. I've been hurt a lot of times but still I have taken the risk to love again. Today, our first Monthsary with Ray, i went to meet him in the mall. I was surprised seeing a Bear Cudler paper bag probably its a gift for our monthsary celebration. How sweet he remembered me! We bought a cake to celebrate it with my family even though they don't know. I was so happy seeing his eyes twinkling. The way he embraced me showing how much he loves me.

I hope this day will never end. I can hear my heart voices out how much I love this Guy. He also had written a love letter that for the first time in his entire life, he lovingly written a letter to the girl she love most and it was so sweet and loving.

I open the paper bag, then, a white bear stuff toy with a pink pillow with words written I love you was appeared in the scenario. I told him, what's the name of the bear so he said, "BEAR BRAND". Then, we laughed. While, I softly open the card and read it. My heart feels so in love. He smiled at me and I embraced him tightly saying the 3 wonderful words, "I LOVE YOU".

We watched Way back into Love and 27th Dresses while eating dinner. I can see the glimpse of his eyes how much he truly love me and appreciated the time we spent together in my own home at our first monthsary. We might not dine at a fabulous restaurant or watch an exciting movie premiere but the time and love we shared this afternoon is quite a lifetime memory of happiness and love that I'll treasure for my whole life.

A Bear of Hugs given to my one and only love....Ray..

Angel Eyes Song- A Depression Stopper

2009-03-26T17:12:00.005+08:00

At March 25, 2009,(Wednesday), I wake up early to avoid traffic, with only 4 hours sleep because I have reformatted the PC last evening so my sister could use it while I'm gone from work. Indeed, I was successful but depressed and tired from Friday to Tuesday Job application and interviews. I have flanked the final interview at Teletech Bacoor last Tueday, even if I was terribly afraid of the stiff open air space stairs of the mall, I managed to bring my Mother, my best friend's daughter and even my new boyfriend just to accompany me to climb the fearful flight of steps on that 3day Exams.

I'm sad and frustrated on that said day. I'm thankful that I learned my weaknesses but I lose my confidence to find a new job and it lowers my self-esteem to know what I like most in life and things that interest me best. My body is too weaken, my eyes are too sleepy and my heart beat trembling so fast but my mind still works and thinking of the failures that blinded my whole integrity and pride.

Then, PC started to malfunction . I guess, some wants me to take a rest and I did. After, I wake up. I watched the new episode of Zorro while , a blast of thought came. What If I reformatted the computer then I continue working it. At at the strike of 1:30am, the computer is fully conditioned and the Internet start to work. Thank you to my Angels, they clear my minds.

On the above date I mentioned, a two consecutive songs on the radio flashes a words like "An Angel eyes" in the lyrics and the other one song has a lyrics of Angels too. I guess, they are really cheering me up for a toxic day ahead of me. As I rushed in my room, to dress up my scrub suit , a song echoes in the radio, "try if you do not succeed" try try try again...What does it mean? Is there a message conveying in the air, a message of hope , comfort and love.

I believe, on that wonderful day. My Angels just wanted to tell me not to lose hope. There is a gift for me. Yet to be open, if I'll be patiently waits.

A True Love to Risk

2009-03-19T19:45:00.008+08:00

I've never known the exact day, when my heart opens again. But, when I first seen his scintillating eyes and I noticed his innocent and sweet face.
Suddenly, I realized, I'm in love again. Once, an Old lady told me that she wanted to give my cell phone number to a friend whom he trusted.A kind person who knows how to love faithfully. Then, I just laughed. As i speak, I'll just gave the number of my closest girl pal. I believe that we could match them up.So, they could be soul mates. I don't like to have a relationship because I just finish to a complicated incident. I've told her that I'm afraid to love again because I'm too confused about my life and failed goals that depressed me so much. Even, loneliness and desperation occurs in my everyday scenario. I've been brave to fight all the obstacles and all the responsibility. But, having someone to really love me, gives me an overwhelming joy that I wished I would have.

Then, one day, one conversation and one smile.I already gave my number to her, the lady who takes care of a VIP Comfort Room at The Manila International Airport, she's like a second mother to me so I trusted her. Then, she smiled and giggled. She will be praying and wishing that we will like each other. A cupid and a match maker in the making, she giggled with sweetness.

It happen so fast, like a lightning strike, it suddenly hits my heart. Like a cold breeze in the morning, it came, it changed my life and it gives a loving happiness in my heart. The love we shared is so extraordinary and her love comforts my soul and lighten up my day. He inspired me and I inspired him everyday. Every joy , we felt counts all the glitters in the sky. Worries and troubles disappears our way.

I thank God for bringing him into my life and for saying yes to Mother VK. Maybe, If I have not taken the risk to fall in love again, I'm still, lonely and alone. Despite of all the pains and bucket of tears, I have experienced before, I do take another step to love again.

Every single day, I spent with him, is like rays of happiness flown by the wings of an Angel parading in the clouds. His smile and the way he looks at me overpowers the sincerity and innocence of his love for me.

I may not knew, if it will last for eternity but for sure, I'll take care and love him. The moment, he hold my hand in the Church. I have felt the beats of my heart again, longing to show my real and genuine love. As I asked my Angel Uriel a sign, a white featherly thing came floating into the wind. Indeed, Uriel answered me, Ray is like a rays of shine that powers my heart, soul and life. Yet, were new with the relationship, with trust and genuine love, our love will bloom with faith in God, respect, honesty and faithfulness.

I answered Ray, March 3, 2009 and I take the risk to feel that one special True Love.

Single Lady in Valentine's Day

2009-02-15T00:05:00.002+08:00

What a day? I wished the clock runs fast. Ordinarily, This is the day for couples in love? Aren't they look good together or some just making a parade just to say they're in a relationship.Am I sound so better or probably expressing my thoughts. Maybe,I don't like this day because I don't have someone special and one more thing I'm not in love. I'm not into this thing for prior reasons. I simply don't wanna be hurt again for 3x in a row.

Life is exciting filled with mysteries.If I could only turn back time.
I'll learn to treasure the love and care a man could give.But, it's one's decision to forgive and forget. Love is given freely, lovingly and devotedly ,most of all faithfully. If one can't be loyal.It's better to be single on this day without any roses,chocolates or dates rather to cry a bucket of tears.

A lovely day to give cheers of people who knows the real meaning of love.For single soul out there.Give yourself a hug. Loneliness will pass, love is just around the corner. Your soul mate is near,just continue to believe.

Happy Heart's day Everyone.

Scuba Diving: A new craze for Philippine Tourist attraction

2009-02-11T19:17:00.001+08:00

Philippines, with over 7,000 islands, privileged to be known as Asia’s Diving Capital in the World. A spectacular reef and breathtaking marine life diversity, any professional diver or beginner dreamt to commune and explore the serenity and haven view of underwater world. The magic of our ocean is filled with wonders and well-crafted by creator, an impressive facet for diving. With great splendor and colorful glimpse of our marine biodiversity, the beauty it’s expressively shows how relaxing and enthusiastically be joyful if each man could explore a new world beneath 20 meters deep from land.
Statistics confirms from Philippine Department of Tourism indicates a higher ratio of foreign divers visiting our world-class dive sites. It is said that Philippines is on the top list scuba diving destination in the World. Even researchers mentioned that we had the most abundant marine ecosystem in the pacific region. With our blue waters, it’s the center of global marine diversity rich with different species of colorful fish, indescribable beauty of coral and reefs, dolphins, whales, Nesting Hawksbills and Green sea turtle. Scuba Diving is a refreshing way of sport or hobby that indulged a great path towards appreciating the explicable wonders of nature. A new exciting world beyond are imagination.
Several dive sites are known by their extinctive beauty. The extensive wealth of marine life is being photograph and viewed in cables and websites. Seeing the most diverse aquatic ecosystem in the world completes a water adventure.

The most spectacular Top 5 Scuba Diving Sites vacation in the Philippines are located in the following area: Tubatahha Reef, Coron, Palawan , Apo Reef, Malapascua, Cebu and in Anilao, Batangas. Those are excellent diving sites destination that even travelers around the archipelago exclusively discovering a rare and incredible scene. Most Dive Masters describes it amazingly beautiful.

Humanitarian Works of PNRC sabotage by Bandits

2009-01-19T16:21:00.001+08:00

Where are the hearts of mankind? Are they totally lost by poverty, greed or cruelty? Is there goodness left in their hearts? Why do people who do good things harm by others? Why do they think of themselves only? I do have a charitable Heart. I felt the joy and love of helping people in need. Seeing a poor and smiling Child, brings me peace and comfort. How grateful is to experience the touch and smile of people you share your life.

But, if your caught in a cage in the arms of men who used their hatred to manipulate and destroy lives. How can you reach other’s who poorly need of your comfort. How can you expand your care? If you’re own life is at risk. Rather you pretend to be naïve or be pitied to those who violate human rights. They are too blind to know the real meaning of love and camaraderie. Unless, they dwell and be grateful for the volunteers who give overwhelming care and support, they misled and destroy one’s trust.

PNRC had been a charitable institution whose mission is to extend their love and support to the needy, a God given answer for all the necessities in disasters and poor families trap in wars and famine, to enlighten the hopeless and teach education for poor children, to convey peace and light in less fortunate nations. However, if their good works is at risk. If they need to sacrifice their own life and their vow is to help and give their whole being in charitable act for mankind. How can they continue to savor and experience the true meaning of giving, if other person’s doesn’t accept their pure heart.

Their mission is to save lives and feed the hunger, shelter the homeless and give support to families. Indeed, charity and good heart will be rewarded by God in Heaven. He heals all pains, he give love and shelter in times of troubles and famine. No one can see how grateful your work had accomplished but it will bounce back in you a hundred fold.

Still, May the PNRC crew freed by their captors, for the sake of humanitarian values and love of mankind. May they remember their roots, the true meaning of compassion and brotherhood. May they learn to value ones lives. I believe they have their own motives and principles, they act according to it. But, may peace and unity linger in their hearts. As I prayed that their mind will shift from hatred into love. That’s what it takes to have a peaceful world to live in.

Facade of fake joy

2009-01-14T19:04:00.005+08:00

If Love should be given unconditionally with no doubts and fear. Why do I end my day with sadness? If the Church teaches us how to love and share that kind of compassion. Why do sometimes I lose Hope? There are many reasons that contributes my indifferent actions and emotions. So I Oftenly, take steps that ruined my ordinary day. I wanted to get out from my shell, to gained back the child I was. The timid, shy, innocent, loving and sweet girl they knew. But, how, If all I see is fear, financial burden, career displacement and impossible dreams to come true. So, I finished my boring day, browsing a book or surfing the net to enlighten and brighten up my senses, just to feel happy or create a facade of Joy.

Indeed, happiness is within us. No one can dictate, things, persons or any incidents that could make you smile or be grateful. But, life is so terrific and wonderful. Our dear Lord created us through his unconditional love. So, we could realize and learn from him to share and convey love to one another. While, it needs to begin on Us. But, how can we express our mission to love and care for each other. If there are a lot of walls beneath our hearts that makes the cobwebs that pulls us down into loneliness, guilt, hatred, jealousy and most especially fear of loving.

Indeed, Love is all around us. If we are willing to accept the love the other person is giving. By looking into simple creations, smile of a child, a glee of romantic melody, a music that invites a pop of dance, a laugh or cute giggles of group of friends, accompanying an old lady in stairs. Does it matter, can it give a joy. I knew ,it can, if I let it, in my heart.

As an Angel whispers to my ear. She said, "O passing Angel, speed me with a song, A melody of heaven to reach my heart and rouse me the race and make me strong" by Christina Rosseti.

I seldom noticed to be grateful and thankful. But, I prayed that whenever I feel tremendous loneliness empowering my soul. They will be there to calm, give me comfort and let me be filled with love and happiness. It had been their promise and they did make it come true every single moment of my life.....and I'm thankful for that each breath I take each minute of my incredible and angelically filled life.

The Law of Ten Fold Return

2009-01-08T14:27:00.002+08:00

Some call it pay forward or karma. As the saying goes, " Thou shall not do, what you want others to do unto you" However, I must say, if your doing good deeds, blessings will surely pour around you. But, be careful on your intentions, because every inch of action you does. Our dear Lord sees it. It is much appreciated if you do good things that comes from within. It means you sacrifice or help others, because you want it to happen and because your heart dictates it to help that needy person.

What does TEN fold means? It meant something like the universe coincide with every move you make. Whatever you give but if you will return 10x more stronger. The universal law dictates that everything you do will affect other person. It's not the same way, but, it will reflect it back to you. Somehow as you ignore it, it turns out to be naturally crafted by your own design that created to suit your actions.

So, next time you planned to do evil things to other person or hurt others. Think this way. Yes it will not harm you. Others, will be tearfully aching on your particular actions. Later, in years. Soon, you will reap what you sow. So, be good and it's much overwhelming to see that blessings showers you because you created a World filled with compassion, kindness and love. happy 10 fold journey...

The Glory of Friendship

2009-01-05T15:20:00.000+08:00

People told me that you can find treasures on Earth. When, you dug on a mine 60 ft below filled with diamonds and Gold. Some says if you reach heaven, you can find jewels of happiness crowning your head as you reach the hands of our creator. While, pirates finds a map, fought and travel around each island to find hidden treasures in the caves or in ancient ships sunk hundred feet below the ocean floor.

However, I dwell in the joy of having a friend. Whenever, I share my deepest feelings, struggling times, personal pain, joy and suffering that we both celebrate the goal of having a successful life, love and career. That is all shared and remembered. The sincerity and real friendship are more valuable than any possessions in this World. So, I inspired others to find the Gold. A real Beauty of Friendship that last forever. A joy that brings a cheerful melody that entails the true meaning of Friendship.

One that never frets
One that never pitied others failures
One that never thinks his/her own interest
One that communicates with a heart
One that has humility and compassion to give love
One that gives trust and loyalty
One that encourages to live life and positively
One that marks real intentions of true friendship

To sum it up: The Glory of Friendship exists beyond time. All pains could be heal at the right hour and place. This is the Story that I wanted to share that determines how great is to have a True Friend.

We grew up together on the same neighborhood. Her Mom died when she was 7 years old. She had never experienced having a mom on her side. Even she had a Dad, she never felt she is loved especially when her Second Mom came. Ordinarily, we play after school that’s why we became so close. She became my Best friend and even like a Sister. Indeed, every Christmas and New Year we both celebrate it joyously. During our child hood days, life is easy and fun. As years goes by. We went to different Colleges, have new set of friends. But, days had been less. I have been busy in my Studies and so concentrated on achieving my dreams that I have forgotten a Friend who loves me dearly. We lost our connections. We misinterpret our own actions and we lost our Friendship. I cried for losing her and I have never valued her so much. I accepted my mistakes for losing her. I apologized but she never accepts so I let destiny takes its course.

Until, a tragic incident happens. Her Grandmother died. Maybe, God directs our way for us to rekindle our Friendship. Time heal all wounds as they say. Still, our love and compassion are in our hearts. All words are inexpressible. We just embrace so tight and cried, were best of friends again. Now, she had a 3 year old girl, though sometimes she visits and lived with us. She has been a part of our Family. Her Child had been our Angel who gives us joy on our turmoil world and loneliness. Marian comforts me during those times that I wanted to give up because of too much obligations in Family, Work, Love and Career. She and her child cheer up my mom to shift her depression stage into a cheerful glow. She tells me to hold on to our dear Lord and be hopeful that we can surpass all this trials we had. Vice versa, I have been a great adviser to her in terms of her Husband’s dilemma and her confused stage if she will pursue teaching or not. I have been there to comfort her and give her a pat on the head when her decisions are drifting its path. I’ve been very vocal on her mistakes on her marriage.

Though, I believe, even our communications snaps out again. I can determine that we can trust and always be there to each other, no matter what happens we will always care and love each other. Our friendship will remain strong. We may lose our way. But, For In our hearts, our genuine friendship, love and trust will always remain. We value each other. We value our True Friendship. I found the Glory of Friendship Like I found Christ in her.

A Filipina in Lebanon: A Hero in our Generation!

2009-01-05T13:57:00.001+08:00

When I was in Duty, I met this strange girl last December 30, 2008 in Rizal’s day, a double Holiday at NAIA. When Emirate Airline Passengers arrived, we all monitored their temperature. As time pass by. I decided to comfort myself and excrete some water left in my bladder. But, before, I managed to do it, I was bothered by the noise of a lady passenger who came from Lebanon, she continued to tell story about her life. Yes, I met a unique, 24 year old girl, she talks intensively and continuously, with a 2 layered coat for winter dress, a fine boots and a well-dressed design clothes, it’s like she drunk an energy drink that makes her to be so hyperactive and so alive. Yet, she had too much anger and hatred within to a fellow Filipina, her co-worker. She talks about her job in Lebanon, how she was loved by her Master, how he love her husband and family she left in the Philippines and how she learn how to speak Arabic and French. I was so surprised how she managed to talk so straight and voice out all her sentiments. Even the janitress thought she’s losing her mind. But, we concluded that she’s having an anxiety attack of too much homesick in a foreign country.

I guess, too kindness and ignorance can make a person fragile and so vulnerable. At young age, with that experience, oftentimes, you end up depressed and lonely. I believe she’s a loving daughter, kind and a friendly person that acts so indifferently. But, I can sense her Heart of Gold. She might experience a lot of hardships, pains and tears but I can feel that she’s a good and loving person. As I prayed she will be well and be happy this coming 2009.

I’ve tried to accompany her to Medical Clinic with Michelle on my side, to check if her BP rises up because she talk’s so much. Yes, I smiled because I’m amazed how she acts and speaks. But, within I pitied her and I wanted to help her to be happy and calm herself down because she is here in the Philippines now. She is Home now with her Family. I hope she will find love, peace of mind and happiness this coming year. She’s a Lebanon Worker who dedicates and sacrificed herself for a great future for her Family. May Good things happen this year for her and for her Family.

Then, weeks later, I read an article in the newspaper stated Filipinos working illegally in the country of Lebanon, then, I remembered Rachelle. She’s one of those Filipina who works independently just to fight the poverty and financial crisis in the Philippines. All Filipinos are going out in the country to find green pastures. They take risk for their family’s sake. OFW are the new living heroes of our generations. I salute them. May our Government recognized and value all the works of All Overseas Filipino Workers because they are the most higher percentage that gives revenues for the Philippine Government.

A New Beginning this 2009

2009-01-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

Now, it's 2009. Time eludes so quickly like the wind that only touches your skin.
A New day to start a delightful event to Cherish, Hope, find Serenity and regain new fond Happiness, Success in Career and even in Love.

Thirty-Five minutes is left on my Digital Clock before January 2, 2009 strikes.
Yes, indeed. We celebrated the New Year with good food, many small round fruits , sweet delights of salad and graham , couple of ham, chicken and roasted sirloin.
The event was filled with joy with my Mom, Dad, siblings like Donna and Jun, together with Marian my Best friend and her baby kid Tintin, she's my kid too anyway and Donna's New Boyfriend Andrew.

The Air is filled with Joy, for next year. A New family Member will be born, to bring Hope, Love, Comfort and Real Happiness and Contentment.

I thanked our dear Lord for the food we had shared in the table , for the guidance and love he gave all throughout the year and that he may continue to bless us all with his Love, Comfort and his Holy Spirit.

After, the colorful fireworks displayed on the clouds on our Second Floor. We ate our Media Noche and prayed. Then, Tintin wants to take a sleep. her Mom along her side. As I waited for her, she never came out in the room. probably, she slept, she's tired of all the preparation.

So, I was left alone, watching DVD of Anaconda 3 and Made Of Honor. I can't believe on January. I was alone , watching, eating the Ham and Salad while drinking some shut of Generoso Brandy in the sofa.

Well, Life still goes on. Time still ticks. Like the movie I watched. I want someone who will love me, whom I trust and whom who will truly care. Those are my lines, the exact dialoque that I always say towards my Sister and Friends. Even, Alone, single or Married, Love still echoes in my heart.....

I wished this 2009 will be a beautiful, exciting, independent , romantic year for me. I know, I'm not getting any younger that I need to say "I do". But, I hope with our dear Lord helping and guiding me each step I make. I'll be able to choose or someone will came by to be my Loving and faithful Husband.

My Hopes are high, as high as my Faith In God. May all the Families be joyous in simple life, be content and be satisfied on what they have, Good Health, Love and Peace may reign the entire Human Race and all through out the World.

Happy New year...Cheers to 2009....Year of the Ox!!!!!!!!

A Shadow Christmas

2008-12-29T18:01:00.000+08:00

Beneath the wall of decors, the blinking lights of Christmas Tree, the cheerful smile that can brighten up the spirit of Christmas. It’s another holiday, to be joyous and be filled with hope, love and peace. While, other families, welcome the birth of Christ with only simplicity and love. While, others share it with abundance food set on a long table. I am happy. I celebrated the season with my mom, brother and sister and also with a dad who only think of himself. But, life continues, you can’t be sad, if one can’t be complete or be committed to the family, rather than to accept things without faking the joy that where doing fine. However, Christmas will be over. Another year comes to start new beginnings, to share a love that is true! Filled with commitment and no shadow will befall and be scared to see things had been change for better or for worst.

Jolly Day for a Jollibee Day

2008-12-19T19:25:00.000+08:00

It was a happy day for me. A once in a lifetime experience, I could help and see a child smile in a Children's Hospital as I gave them or accompany the Jollibee Mascot touring around the vicinity ward. I really won't missed that day, even I'm tired from a 24 Hour duty at terminal 3. I won't let that day slipped into my hands. That December 14, 2008, the most memorable event of my life. I have seen a smile on a child's eye, that certain look and laughter that I'll remember for the rest of my life. I have not contributed anything financially on that Children's Party but the time and effort that I gave maybe sufficient, for me to say I have done a good part and that I love helping them as a NGO Volunteer because no words could explain the happiness I felt.
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Yes,Indeed. My one wish had come true. Mrs. Gonzales had interviewed me already.
I have started to mingle with those poor and sick child. I guess, they have touch my life in different way that I should always remember that I need to be thankful for I am well, with healthy life and with the love and support of my Family.

I've been looking for ways to be happy, but, on that wonderful day. Even, I'm tired and so sleepy. I felt the energy rushing on my system because I love what I'm doing. I can't explain how joyful my heart is, all I know, I'm so thankful that I have time to spend it with them...

To see the smile and the warmth embrace they gave to the JOLLIBEE MASCOT, I can sense how happy they are, even they felt enormous pain on their body as a young child. I believe on that great day, their hearts are filled with Joy.

Thank you Lord for giving me that moment...

Why do girls attracts Men who doesn’t knew how to love?

2008-11-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

Why do girls attracts Men who doesn’t knew how to love?
By: Seraphimblue

It truly does, a magnet attracts two opposite poles. But, what if you attract the same charge you had. It’s amazing but it simply does apply to the real world. The Law of Attraction really does fit for your own set of record.
Yes, there were times. Some, lady wished to have a good and serious conversation. Share some insight, learn new things and try some new sports or hobby to be familiar of how mankind does his own move.

But, as we face the rules of cyber world, even it’s indefinite, unreal and imaginative. One might caught in addiction, chatting, sharing vivid ideas or creating a new world of their own. A conference Room where only two or more people hooked up having and sharing the same set of ideas, naughty thoughts, dreams and inspirations. They end up liking or just be as completely stranger.

Be aware of people who disguise themselves as Friendly and good in nature but it turns out that they are not the people you knew they are. Don’t simply base a person through a conversation, not only in writing or opinions. Watch out their words, don’t be deceived. Watch out their style of lies.

Though it bothers my senses, so I tried to do some researched and test some men. If there are real Man who really doesn’t knew how to Love.

There is one guy, his young, gorgeous, fabulous at work and in family, intelligent, speak so wisely, secretive individual, a loner, manipulative, a programmer of their own thinking, selfish in denial, Self-centered, Ego tripping, wealth gupping, a well achiever, ambitious in nature. A Wise individual who experience to fight their own life. A man who survived death, who doesn’t shared his grief and happiness. A good and caring friend but no ideal loving partner. His been a special friend for almost 2 years now , an ex-military young men.

The second one is, a man who plays around with girls, a bachelor at age of 30 and up, who loves to chat and meet woman online, one who seeks freedom, no commitment, no definition of love, loving is indefinite word for him, intelligent in nature but narrow-minded in thinking, cannot be influence, a man who resides alone, happiness seem by having new gadgets and games. A mind of test and maze, he do things on his own will, doesn’t care of anyone, afraid to the real world of relationship and commitment, stubborn and unreal to his self, Self-preserve, cannot be treasured as a friend even us intimate partner. A casual friend, a stranger on the site.

So, be cautious with those kind of men. Some women can’t help to fall in love with their charm and intelligence could easily won a girl’s heart. Yes, indeed it’s positive. It could happen. The sad part is they fell on the trap and ending up being hurt. There is 60 percent probability, that a women attracts the same set of attitudes and characteristics they have. Why do girls magnetize those kind of men, because they let them be part of their life, they knew the signs but they ignore. Some ladies fall in love because some hope for a fairy tale ending. But, they end up choosing the wrong man and they attract it themselves due to fears and unreal commitment they make.

But, I believe there is still goodness in one’s heart. Love could be learn if one can be able to sacrifice for their own happiness. People should learn give real love, sincere and honest love even the other half would not return it all.

Delayed PT Volunteer

2008-11-25T13:42:00.000+08:00

I never knew, if its coincidence or fate, how come my interview at the NGO personnel delayed each day. My friend keeps texting me to come and get dressed for the interview, either the person had a meeting at DOH, absent or sick and my Interview will be postponed and be dated another week. Does my Angel whispered me that I need to postponed my volunteer work at Children's Hospital or should I wait for the right hour.
Life is filled with mysteries.

Now, my insomnia attacks again. I end up sleeping at 2am. I'm filled with worries that my mind keeps thinking even if my body wants to rest and sleep. I can't explain, but my anxiety blows again. Should I discard my feelings and focused on what I want. But, how can I concentrate? If I'm filled with fears. I guess, I need to pray harder and to have faith. Life is filled with struggles. I've been very busy being responsible to all the problem that arises. Sometimes, I forget myself. I end up being unhappy but I can't do anything to stop being lonely inside. It seems, I'm searching things that I couldn't find. All my life, there are hundreds of delays. I can't even count.

My charity works delays my existence. I'm afraid of new changes, but, need to accept the new challenges that I need to partake. I really need to be patient and let me look for some inspiration. I hope, I'll find it sooner. Delays makes me evaluate myself more. Until, I arrive at a point, where everything aligns all path and I'll be happy in the end. Wishing my PT volunteer works will be granted for my new learning and spiritual growth.

Hold my hand, Never let it Go—Said God

2008-11-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Oftentimes,I asked various questions that battling my mind. But , none of those have been answered. Whenever I grief for a failed wish of a good career or a success of an exam. A past failures , a broken heart, bad relationship which makes me hanging in a catatonic episode of my life. Even it’s in my heart desire to fulfill such goals. It never happens. But, I continue to move on.

Even it seems so inevitable or explicable, it may seem so imaginary that my mind made up, that makes my life so miserable, that others can’t figure out my actions. Yes, Indeed, I’m filled with worries and fear from the past events. But, still, I continue to be anxious. Then, I remember a story of a daughter and his father.
Then, the story goes:

Father and daughter were crossing a narrow bridge.
Father asked the child to hold his hand, as they crossed.
So, the child would never fall and lost any grip.
Daughter said, “No, dad. You hold my hand.”
Father asked, “What’s the difference if you hold my hand
rather than I hold yours?”
Daughter said, “If I hold your hand.
I might let go. But, if you hold my hand,
you’ll never let me go!”

Sometimes, we intend to lose the grip. Certainly, We lost hope to continue life and struggle to some challenges of Life. But, Our Savior, Father in Heaven continues to love us unconditonally.

No matter, how many times, we fell on the ground, his rod stick are there to help us to stand. We might let go, but, he will be ready to reach us and embrace us tight because we are his children and he love us dearly.

As I seek my confidence and discovered myself. I have search and look for ways to enlighten my soul, to lift my hearts and mind to unite and think well compassionately. I learn to remember the story.

A delighted hope, that whenever we lose faith , there is someone up above , smiling and ready to accept our weaknesses and failures. We just need to ask and never let go of his hand.

A Seminar & a Fake Infatuation

2008-11-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

Last November 18 at 2:30 pm , I was in St.Luke's Hospital at Cathedral Heights Auditorium 1 for a Seminar about COPD and Quit cessation of Smoking. I was invited by a Chief PT of the other Hospital. The day was so wonderful, it's the time where I could meet again my old pal Girlie and Marizza in My UP Manila Refresher Course, time to catch things up. Even, it's quite painful to reminince the old PT Board Exam. But, I have given hope to pursue my dreams. I guess, there is a reason why PT is still keeping me back into alignment, where my heart belongs. While, the day was filled with new knowledge ahead, aside the place was so prestigious because of the Hospital Name. Some facts,I have learned and some exercises that can be useful with patients having a Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease patients, that I'll be encountering soon in my practice and it can be beneficial.

As well as, I could teach it to my parents as well. As I have taken some notes for me to remember and browse. With a good meal and a lot of Pharmaceutical Give aways like sanitizer, medicines and tissue, what else could be? Fabulous souvenirs....it ends at 6pm, quite dark and I have a long way to go. still, need to travel for about 3 hours in Cavite.

Then, I decided to visit Nazareno , the famous and loving Quaipo Church, its been a while, since I went there to pray and I missed being on that place, it gives me serenity, joy and it comforts me, just sitting at the bench chairs of the church and looking at his face. I felt his Love for me.

At the same time , I need to meet some special guy, the Broadcaster Commentator whom I met on Tagged website. Well, As I met him, wearing a white polo and Maong pants,I never expected that he could be fast, as fast and loud as his personality. His cute,has long shape nose, cute two dimples, a sweet sleepy eyes and a hunky body type with strong biceps muscles.. that i love to hug. Actually, his fine with me, but, the sad part, He is too proud of himself and too insensitive. Maybe, love collides and he is not the right man for me. but, still, I prefer to go on dating until the right Man came in my life...

Men are scared of commitments!

2008-11-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

Nowadays, its difficult to find someone who can truly accept who you are! Who accept your weaknesses, who understand the real you and the things that you love doing almost every day. It's sad to say, that most men are looking for someone to play around. They mingle to women who are not so serious at all. Men are usually afraid of having a commitment. I believe that they are simply afraid of the responsibility their going to undergo. Women looks for someone who can truly love them, who listens to all their stories, to accompany them whenever they go out, to share some interesting new fad, who can treat them right decently and faithfully. Whom they can be comfortably staying all night listening to a favorite tune. But, men are opposite, they watched and observed our body language. They knew our signs. They knew if we like them, then, their fangs are marked within our skins.They can easily attached their venom so the poison runs into our circulation. Until, they are hooked up and we are too. However,we need to remember that we need to be careful. Sometimes, we need to value and learn to be more appreciative and be more observant of their actions. Sometimes, women should listen to their voices and watched for every move they make. Maybe, someday, if they met the right one for them. They can easily give their hearts. They're full attention and they are willing to sacrifice just to win a woman's love for eternally. It could happen, if you believe, it will happen. True love could exist in a Man's Heart and fears will be blown away. A Conversation goes like this: "you should just walk it on your mind to get to know how you make all these things happen before you can even understand-he says:
Then, I replied:
its your decision to make it happen
it starts in the mind,,then in the heart.....
Commitment comes naturally in one's heart, like sacrifices comes unknowingly. It delivers you to a completely different world filled with joy and everlasting true love. Men could learn to love, if the stone of hearts fall on their head so hard.

A Tagged for Ante

2008-11-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

You keep on browsing for a beautiful lady on net. But, you end up searching for your heart. Your daily routine, grasp different opinions and comment, does your heart really felt the strong emotions. With your love voice, an echo broadcast, plays a tiring and fulfilled day. Happiness remain constant in one's heart because you do best in your craft. A call interprets one soul, intentions are unclear but friendship can grow. Maybe, there is a sweet connections and only God determines, if spirits attracts two poles. Serendipity may occur. Time would set the course. A tag was made, a love can behold or uphold. Only two choices are made. It's within our hearts, to let love flood in. It's our decision to hold or let go. So, just simply tagged in, my dear new friend, Ante.

A Pound for Goodness

2008-11-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

If a person was forced or pulled into a post, would you remain constant, controlled or follow the power it holds you. Will you try to exchange your trysting place into a busy day. If your determine to say yes,will you able to sacrifice for others to be in good shape, where they need your help? Would you comply and bent the rules? Or just simply sent a request to your supervisor because your just doing the right thing, ahead of their knowledge with your sincere respect. Yesterday,It's a great blessing. I have decided to be posted in another terminal due to lack of people on that said day. Its a good decision, aside, my stomach was so full of numerous drinks, kuwaiti food and pancit for dinner. I'm blessed because all of those things are free. Our Doctors and Assistant are so generous, kind and thoughtful. Surely, they knew how to handle their subordinates. I'm very thankful for them. Happiness filled my hearts, I have ample time to catch up things with my fellow colleague and a good friend of mine. We share ideas and opinions towards certain incidents that occur. One factor, that shows her real attitude is towards money. She had a bigger view in terms of earning her hard cash. She wants all to be accounted.I believe she value her earned salary for working dedicatedly.However, I'm proud of her. She only wants the money that we all shared must be used accordingly.
The day was great, there are laughters and giggles. Loud voices and simple cute quarrels are heard. I'm so blessed, I have help someone. I don't know, but, helping other people comes to me so naturally. It feels so light upon rendering service. You can't explain the happiness and fulfillment. I guess, a little pound wouldn't hurt as an exchange of goodness. It's a heart whelming episode upon receiving simple gift from up above and he knows how sincere my intentions are. But, I'm not asking for any reward. A simple thank you and a smile of a child brighten up my day. Everything ends with light joy. I wanted to have a wonderful duty and indeed comes true. To serve others, to extend good things to them without expecting any reward in return. But, angelically, gifts poured from heaven.

Everything happens for a reason

2008-11-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

When a pot of flowers fell on your head in a high rise building? When you lost your wallet on your way to work? When your trapped in a pit hole where construction site is going? When your interview dress is filled with vomit of a crying baby? When your stock in a heavy traffic going to your first interview? When a fire broke at your office at 7 in the morning? When a typhoon came as u log out in your company? When everything you do, doesn't work for a day. How can you cope? Maybe, you can end up saying. Everything happens for a reason. Is there any real purpose, why certain situation happens? What if that scenario,delays you to do things for your own goodness. It delays you to continue your work. You need to listen in your intuition. It might get worst, if you won't listen to a whisper of your own angels.You can never tell.Your life could be at stake. Thou, sometimes, you hold your own opinions. you already figure out, the results. But, your too blind to see it. Too stubborn to prevent the mishap. To lazy to follow such another path. To pride that strucks like lightning in the end. But, to sum it up. I believe, everything has its own reasons. Everything has their own purpose. Some might regret the consequence, some might look for other alternatives. I wondered, it's your own will to follow or not. You hold your own key in your hand. So, face the inevitable. Be Brave and have that confidence in you......

Work or Visit My Grandma, What will it Be?

2008-11-03T19:01:00.000+08:00

A Decision,a commitment to hold. But,where should I stand? I have already think a thousand times. I arrived at a good conclusion last Sunday morning. Yes, I went to go for work. I need to attend my duty.I have already prayed and asked my deceased Lola that I can't visit her at Heritage Park. I need to work. With all the loans and cut salaries. I really need to be there at Terminal 2. I guess, sometimes, we need to decide whether we need to go or just paused, think, what is best for everyone. Family is my main priority but, we can't be together all the time. I need to do some sacrifices for the benefit of our Family. I believe that my Loving Grandma understands. She knew that I need t go for work and I knew that she loves me and still,she is watching over us. I Love my Lola so much and no matter what happens. She will alway be in my heart and her memories will always be lingered. Though sometimes , I really miss her. But, I knew she is Ok, she is with our dear Father in Heaven with my Grandpa, Auntie and other Lola's, she is happy with them. So, I prayed for their spirits that is all I can give, a peace and with comfort and loving hearts.

“You’re my Love, My Destiny”

2008-11-01T21:10:00.000+08:00

I light a candle, I prayed for you
I dreamt a guy
I wished for someone to came by
Is it you, I’ve been waiting
Does my sign really works for you
If you’re the one
Will you stay longer
Will your love be pure
Will you be sincere in your thoughts
I’ve been waiting for so long
For a real guy to pass by
Did my wish granted?
Is he my prince charming?
Whom I loved
For the rest of my Life
To whom I will share
My loneliness and grief
And even the hardships
And difficulties in Life
Are you willing to give yourself
To your one and only love
Whom you will share your life with
Are you the one for me
Whose sent from Heavens above
If I love you faithfully
Will you love me faithfully
Will you love me back
If I will care for you
Would you even care for me
A little
But, I’ll still give you
My Unconditional Love
If you were my Destiny
Can I hold you Forever,
My Love……..
by: Seraphimblue

Everyone believes that there someone meant for them to share their love for eternity, someone who will be there for them until their hair turns grey. A love that is everlasting, one who loves dearly, faithfully with trust and respect. Everyone wished that her destiny is near, As you wish for a falling star. Someday, our wishes will meet and will fall our near and whisper those words. "I do, love you so forever"

Shortage of money boost up Anger & Irritability

2008-10-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

I believe that 90 percent of people have their own swing mood disorders. There are a lot of various factors that adds up to their unpredictable minds. Some can be naive, timid, can laugh for joy, or cuddle the whole evening with a pillow or end up in pail of tears, while, other's can raise their temp. in 38 degree's and end up getting a full blown of stroke. While, some can read a good book and let the moment pass by listening to Mozart or Beethoven classical songs. So in a way, even the lack of money of hundreds of people can also shook up their head and they start arguing with their fellow friend, siblings or even their own parents. One can be so unpleasant if one handles all the budgets and especially if she doesn't have any enough salary. The worst scenario, she is not contented on what she had because she wants more but she can't because she doesn't have any money to even support her likes and wants, materially or even just to make her day happy by a simple food , she wants to eat. I have learned that emotions are originated in our brain primarily at the hypothalamus. It integrates our different attitudes towards certain things. The way we respond, our fight and flight mechanism , our arousal and alertness level are situated in our brain. That is why if something goes wrong , our body reacts to a safety mechanism, it can balance our system and reverse back. But, it depends how much extensive the injury is. Who Among us, doesn't experience of having ten peso coin left in our pocket. We feel angry, pity and we blame ourself. Do we spend so much of things that are not valuable or rather , this is all we left from all the expenses we had for a month. While, others, We passed by in the roads, bridges, corridors and light post. All they have is a 10 peso coin on their tin can. I have written this, for me to feel thankful on things I have. I might not bought a gift or things I really wanted to have but I should be thankful for the Life I had. Yes, I'm only human. I feel emotions that really knocks my head off. I feel arrogant, rude , cruel and greedy. But, as I sit and realized. I shouldn't treat others or myself like that. I knew, that all of us encountered shortage of money that makes our mind go crazy. But, to sum it up. All we need is a little comfort and cheer to our loved one, telling us everything will be fine that we need is to pray and have faith. I read an article, that each generations have their own crisis, Yes, indeed, each generations encountered chaos, battles and poverty. In conclusion, its temporary, humankind move on. We might have a financial global crisis at the present but as we move along the road. We can see ourselves, Life is like a traffic sign, it might signaled red for STOP but it turns Green to GO.

A New Baby: To rock my World

2008-10-26T21:01:00.000+08:00

Is there any way to be happy but rather to have a baby on your own. But, I guess, it will be 3 years before I decided to go for marriage. But, at this moment, I'll be contented to wait for my first niece to come. Yes, indeed, my sister is expecting to have a Baby. It's a long story. I may say, regrets are always in the end. People must learn in a hard way for her/him to know his/her mistakes. That, next time, a person must use his/her mind before he/she do something. A man or woman must think first, not only for her own happiness, but, the welfare of persons surrounding her. To change the subject. My emotions are mixed during this past weeks. I felt betrayed. I felt that I'm the one should be blamed, but, to sum it up. Its not my decision. I have done everything to prevent such catastrophe. But, it's her own life. I had advised her from the moment of that relationship. I'm surprised and yet I'm happy because this time. I'll be taking good care of my real baby, one that is our own blood. One that I can kiss whole day long, one that I can teach to write, sing, dance, blog, chat and even listen to Youtube. A Baby that could rock my silent World. An Intelligent Baby who can sermoned her mommy to do good and to straighten up her thinking. My world will be shaken by a new creature, but, I will love him/her like the way I did to my sister and brother. To sum it up, I should learn to be patient with a cheerful smile....

10 Years of Love Crashed Away

2008-10-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

If Love was supposed to last for a Lifetime. Why does anyone fall out of love? And the misery starts when pain grows each day. As you remember the old times, the laughter and the embrace that you bought gave. Come what may, Love prevails. Even there are persons whose against with the relationship. One truly in love fights for true and endless love. Some say, if your meant to love each other, even how many times you break up or lose your way. There will come a time, that your cross road will meet. That if destiny is in your hand. No mater how many decades, you didn't seen each other. Love will still be the same. Love will still gives another chance. Love will blossom even how many decades passes by. If one truly decides to be together, no one can ever dictates, no one can never stop the love you have for each other. But, it always have to be a decision of two souls, two soul mates must meet in one path, one genuine love must stay on each hearts. A lifetime decision to be together, filled with hope, faith , respect and most of all, a love that is everlasting. I may fall out of Love due to a lot of reasons. Still, I learn to open my Heart. As I noticed, that even 10 years of relationship could not mean forever. Years can't be an evidence for Love to stay. Yes, the pain are so enormous, that you want to die instantly. However, a man or a woman should discard that mindset. Even how hurtful it can be. You will still live, you can still hope and most of all you could learn to love again. Maybe, there is someone meant for you. maybe, she/he is there for you to learn to love yourself more, maybe, you need to replace the old you, maybe, no one can love you , the way she/he did. But, to sum it all. You learn to love, you learn to offer yourself , you learn to sacrifice and let her/him go. It is not because you don't love him/her but, you need to tell yourself. it is enough. I need to move on, without you. To see things, without you. To feel things, without you. To grow, without you, To be thankful, without you.I remember my past heartaches. But, I learn to forgive and hope that there will be someone who will truly love me. As I watched, a sibling crushed his heart to a sad song. I only wished for him, to hold on and to trust in God's plan. Pain is a temporary emotions, you can't dwell on it forever. A 10 Years of a relationship can be gone for just blink of an eye. But, I tell you. It is worth the journey because you learn to love. That is the most precious thing that even our dear creator gave us.

I'm not hired but I gain Friends

2008-10-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

What are they looking for? Are they looking for a star quality appearance. A voice of Drew Barrymore, an accent of Hugh Grant. A face of Mandy Moore. Yesterday, I was so dissapointed but happy as well. I only have 2 minutes and the exam will start at 10am. Luckily, I had taken the exam. I was successful, I passed the first one, then into 15 persons we are left with 6. I'm included with that group. A second exam came. The funny thing is, its 20 minutes with 80 questions. I can't figure out, how fast are their clock, it feels like its not 20 min. I have not answered the second page. Then, the girl gets out and get all our papers. Then, there is a radio for our 3rd exam. Then, we listen to a conversation and a multiple choice exam are taken. After, a few minutes,they called one guy. Then, all person whose left in their chair are the one's who does not qualified. The HR told us that we can apply for 3 months again. I can't believe that I failed. I hate to say but with that fast clock they have I should have passed. Well, better next time and next company, I may say. That's what I did, with a new friend beside me. Dra. Mes, we went in another company. But, sadly. The HR girl, has the ability and charm to make believe that you can be really hired on their company. She has the ability for you to hope, the way her actions does, her twinkling eyes, her smile and the way she communicate. The way she pronounces each words coming out from her mouth tells us that we can be qualified. But, in the end, our hopes failed.She want us to be honest and personal. But, to sum it up. She is choosy , she is finding something, she is looking for someone quite the same with her. Someone whom she believe who has the star quality factor for being a Call Center Agent. Can't u believe, we are 4 Medical Allied and one Engr. She doesn't hired us all. We had spoken courteously and intelligently. But, we failed. Then, we went to another company. We wished that the interviewer will be nice, but sadly she is starving and with bad luck the one who interviewed me on the phone. Is the girl who interviewed us. That's the moment I feel that I'm not belong. Maybe, there's a right job for me , waiting. Something that I could be useful. A job worth with my commitment and passion. I failed all the Interviews but I gain new friends, perhaps, a new girlfriend for my brother. I thank God for the experience. To be good at my craft, to be blessed on what I have, to learn to wait for the right job created on my skills. I still created a positive attitude towards a new understanding of what things I can't have or things that I can achieved.

First Call from so called Mr. Sweetie

2008-10-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

So many clicks. But,only one guy noticed my Angel. A tagged profile was beautifully made. Angel concepts parades my web. Perhaps, a stranger from another country. But, one race connects us together. Yes, he can speak the same language. Then, one call was heard. It started a new beginning, friendship of sweetness, familiarity and compatibility are still running. Soon, it will be tested at the right time and at the right place. Even one laugh, one joke, one song and one expression voices out that certain bond begins. He called me "Sweetie" and I called him "Mr.Sweetie".Maybe, both Mouse clicks because we belong to a place where plane parks in a hangar. Where only engines of care are heard? Where sweet talks and romantic caress are missed-out? At this moment, Both Worlds are faraway. At this hour, timezones are unique. While, you look ways to reach a certain horizon for us to be together, only in words or calls. As you browse a page,you noticed a sweet , cute sensible soul? You reach my hand and until you whisper to my ear, the words I longed to hear. Are you sincere or your fooling me around. Nobody knows what your heart's desire. Until then, I wanna hear you sing me a song again, "Angels brought me here?"...as I comply you might be the one who answered my prayers.

A Normal High

2008-10-10T19:40:00.000+08:00

Big drops of rain pours outside my window. Awaken at Nine O'clock by a loud sound of Alarm. I prayed and thank God for the day ahead. Even it's cold and I want to cradle myself in my bed.I need to fix myself up because I still need to meet my friends after lunch. But, before that I need to ate my breakfast and go upstairs to check the CSC website to confirmed, if I'm truly passed the sub-pro exam.What a surprised, it's really true, Michelle's word of mouth came true. She called last night for that good news. Thank God for a precious gift and I thank mitch for believing in me.. One Self-esteem point boost up my engine again to fight my daily struggles with love and guidance of our dear Lord. What a wonderful day to start with. Yes, frankly it's not a normal day, usually I have to be at the airport today but I really valued my friends and I missed them a lot so I decided to be absent to be with them especially one of my closest pal is leaving for US tomorrow, it's cindy, a friend I'm with for 3 yrs at San Juan De Dios. I'll miss her but we have different lives to take care with and I wish her luck for the journey ahead. May all her dreams be fulfilled with guidance of our dear Lord. I, Lhorna and Lai just arrived in time in MOA, a long walk, to watch the ocean spread behind the brick walls, as a fountain danced with glee, a moment to smell the fresh breath of sea, we enjoyed talking as we walk on by. Until we arrived at a post, as a white van came across the sidewalk of San Miguel by the Bay. We knew, Maricel with her parents are already here, a 3 hours trip from Bataan just to see us and dine with us coming from Singapore.She will treat us, she was so blessed, a nice loving, cheerful lady. I wished her happiness and all the love. I'm excited to see her again. Yes, indeed. What A high,fantastic rainy and fabulous day to meet with my loving and true friends. Even a level of cholesterol with a normal high value can't beat up the love, care and comfort we gave for our friendship. A genuine, authentic union of spiritual warrior soul of friends equip with a true bond of friendship and a strong faith in God.

The Perfect Shoe

2008-09-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

At Nine o'clock am, I can't open my eyes, I'm so tired at work and I haven't have enough sleep yet. But, I have promised to my best friend that I'll be accompanying her to apply at Makati but We end up in Baclaran to buy a shoes for Sunday's Wedding. i'm sweating over my head and back, the humid air and rays of sunlight makes me drink a glass of water. I burst out with laughter, as the shoes of ann continue to breaks slowly on the side and even she can't walk into. I need to buy her one, so she can used it when she will be applying for work in makati. As I look, for the perfect shoe, either I end up over sized or out of stock. Until, I tried very hard to find one, Sometimes, we are too busy looking on our side that all this time that thing that you valued more are so near at you. That you seldom noticed. Until you look closely and listen to your heart. You pretend not to like, for many reasons your looking for much better, much benificial , much attractive and pleasant but all along all you wanted is thing you hope for, the thing you desire most. With the same style, the same wedge, the same color of authenticity that approves your senses. But,summing it up. You'll buy the shoes with your fave color, your own style, the one that fits you and the one that makes you comfortably walks around. No mater how much time you put up finding the right perfect shoe. In conclusion you are the one who makes decisions to have those pair of shoes.

My First BookFair: A Healing Episode

2008-09-26T17:23:00.000+08:00

Countless Books, I encountered during the Book Fair last Sept.15. Alone, I mingle and I've been so fascinated how many publishing Bookstore participated that event. All kinds of ages enjoyed , summing around like bees in tons of books parading and exhibiting their featured contents. For Four Hours touring all the booths, some giving away bookmarks and article notebooks. I managed to stand with long hours of standing without taking my lunch just to swam around with books. Amazingly, I keep coming back on the same booth, I visited first. Its OMF Literature Publishing. Finally, I have waited, there is a live broadcast Interview of the writer who published the Book called "The Heart of Healing". I listened for about 5-15min., I was touched by his message and how dedicated he is in her loving wife who has a dreadful disease of Lupus, a gene disorder, a rare pathologic disease that dominated in females, I pitied the writer, I know how difficult it is to support and care a lupus patient because I experienced having that kind of patient during my internship years.
I can sense how dedicated and passionate he is, it determines that it is based on his true indwelling experiences how he fight and struggled together with his wife.
How he managed to care, support , help and provide for his family and for her loving and dying wife. A Husband whose willing to sacrifice even his own life but all he can give is his faith to go and live for his kids. The wife died and the book is the living legacy .A sign of his undying love for her wife so others can be inspired to learn to love unconditionally. The book serves as a healing tool for him and the kids, as well as, an instrument for others to be brave for the dreadful conditions that they are experiencing at this moment.The book will enhanced their faith in God, to continue to believe and be healed through the Good News that our Savior is always on our side, because he loves us unconditionally. While, I admired his effort and great love for her wife. If I could only wished that I'll find my Great Love, soon. But, furthermore, I've been walking alone in the aisle with books surrounding me and I felt good. Even, my feet swell with miles of walking. I sighed , what a wonderful day filled with thousands of books to see and I thank God for it.

Little Voices (Part3)

2008-09-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

The most dreadful thing, I noticed. After, they used it, all the sacrifices, the hard work, and the undying sleepless night. You won’t be able to ask why, that as quickly as it disappears in front of you, as one dictator commanded it.
Some are too narrow in thinking, the only things that wanted to be heard is the exact answer with the same questions coming from out their mouth, chances ate they only want to hear , what they want to listen. They want people to talked, but, they want to hear their own voice echoing. They act as they say, they held appointments. Meetings and committee’s, but, reactions are not coming from them. Each direction are reprimanded and followed by fear not by will. Some has bigger ideas for future security, but the welfare
Of people involved are not well-defined. They set certain boundaries and schematic diagrams to enrich potentials in giving profit, but, both ends still questionable and unknown, that make a great escape, a great kind of event that makes the little ones lost, confused and cheated. Whenever a person asked me, why do people climb on a top of a mountain? I just answered them two statements. It’s an opportunity to climb and share the wondrous creations I have seen in m eyes, that a man could ever imagined or a chance to be one’s thorn, to throw rocks on people below to self-gain, self-security, self-fame, self-idolatry for other’s to follow and be slave for rudeness, selfishness, pride and ego. I was once in a group of team, where the shells sparkles like a diamond, but, I was wrong, it’s black as a coal. Some don’t have insights, their blinded with camaraderie made b extravagant gatherings and overwhelming praises. Some forget to hear their ears are entangled by fear, pride, self-centered and self security of the status, they intend to have. The pressure of choosing one’s integrity is overlooked by silent actions.
Some are traitors, judge mentalist, publicist, storytellers who had their own set of stories to unfold, one lines of music and lyrics to play without discovering the old strings, the real lines of the song. They do want they want, they change and replace the words and scattered them to the guitar strings. They set some new rules, but, unity and respect are not gained. Leadership is meant but safeguarding oneself and transferring responsibility are not ideal for a society. Good people, the dedicated one who has sincere, concerns are burned. Are kept and sealed in an open basket, Target arrows are tracking their paths; each detailed sequences are marked down and traced b an enemy unknown. Preparing to have a good kill and strike the good one’s upon each tunnel it passed.
Each survivor learn the strategy , a technique of reality that anyone could be instantly be naïve, or a consistent high rank vulture with a keen sense of eyeing for a prey, hunting each possible bait.

Making of Website: A Remedy for Lonelines

2008-09-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

As I browse, makes new lay-outs, customized and meet new friends online. My life keep busy for a while. But, to sum it up. Does it really cure my frustration in life, the failures and struggles I have been through. I can't hide it anymore. I feel so sad, depressed and I pity for myself for being so stupid to believe in such dreams that easily fades away. Making a website entails lots of fun. By filling up wonderful, bright colors, designs and different widgets that makes your website so unique and different. But, the ending still you need to update all the websites. You need to enlighten each mentors you have. All has pure hearts and I'm thankful. I have some who stay on the line, who can gaps all bridges even were far from other places. Happines can appear, it's your choice to leave with it or just be with the flow of so called "life"

Little Voices (Part 2)

2008-09-05T18:27:00.000+08:00

A Pretty wise Interview

2008-09-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

Time to wake up. A day for a Corporate Interview. I've been very exhausted this following days without enough sleep and rest. Amazingly, I managed to ride in a jeep and wait for the Leviriza Bus on my way to Makati. I survived the most exciting and nervous day of my life. It's almost a Two-Hour journey , a new road for me to fit in and to take new challenges, new responsible to feel in, but. it's worthwhile. I have another role to portray. Hopefully, I could find some new carreer advancement, wherein my potential in different clerical or healthcare aspect will be enhanced and develop more. Now, I could face my fears because I'm scared to know what I'm capable of doing. For primary reason, I always encounter a lot of failures. Still, I need to stand, be brave, still hope for good things to come and to have faith in our Divine Savior , our dear Lord to direct and guide me to all his plans. My interview was so terrific and I'm quite so nervous at the beginning. But, it turns out intelligently, amazingly fabulous. My interviewer is so wonderful and so fabulous. The way he ask questions, it's so wisely pick, with great outfit and the elegant manner she shows marks in m mind and heart. That I really want to be like her. Her pretty wise gestures shows the she's in control , she knows how to deal and handle the conversation attentively, with great confidence and knowledge in the corporate field she was in. I'm so thankful that everything goes well. I have gained a lot of wisdom in terms of having composure in interviews. A fun,exciting, scary, knowledgeable, challenging day I have been. Thank you , Lord for guiding me. Thank u my dear Angels......

2008-08-22T20:17:00.001+08:00

I Believe I could touch the Heaven's Above if I:

****Was more grateful for what I already have in my life.
---------so I can appreciate things and people around me
****Talked to our Divine Source, our creator, our providence,"God" like a friend,
a mentor
---------so I can voice out all my sentiments and fears
****Pray more often
--------so I can be at peace in my heart, mind and soul
****Can listen to my intuition, what my heart says.
--------so I can learn to balance my ego, pride and emotions
****Keep my heart and mind positive, loving, open and filled with
Affection and Compassion
-------so fear would disappear and joy will appear
****Was more caring, true and transparent with those who put
God in my life
----------because I met them not to break my heart but to learn more wisdom
******Was willing to give opportunity for other's to grow
-----------so I may enriched my soul
******Stay committed in Knowing our Divine Lord more each day
------------so my purpose in this world will be known
******Encouraged and Esteemed other more rather than myself
------------so I can enriched my friendship and develop more confidence
******Develop more trust and confidence in our Dear God
------------so I can put all my anxiety away from me and let him guide my way

written by: seraphimblue

Little Voices1

2008-08-18T17:53:00.000+08:00

Whenever I see a team in a field that works togetehr. I can't help but to recall my memories of a group that I had joined. When I came out in the real world. I never imagined , how harsh and cruel people are. But, I never thought that on the same group I belong, I felt that I'll be grind. That each person that I met has a camelion colors at the back, that for anything else happens they will push you out on the boat or throw you outside the plane that no matter how much you tried to blend on the note, a soprano will rise in a high pitch and an alto will be left behind in a corner of the room. Some people whispered me to hold on the rope, so you won't be lost on a tug of war, but, the intensity continues to speed up, loud and crackling are screaming. I fought abck and pretend that I'm deaf. I tried to face up and walk forward without turning back even when fire starts burning so hot. I lift my heavy load and carry it, as much as I can. But, each stride I take, it makes me feel so worthless, a fragile glass that any moment will breakdown into tiny bits. Yes, indeed, there are joyous times, when I cherished beautiful, sincere and loyal friendship that I may seem genuine, with authentic seal that lasted for a millineum. Those years are previous that can't be replaced by any gold coin that a Rich man has. But, there are dark hours that I managed to surpass and learned from it.
The wisdom I gained was inconquerable by anyone, that within in a society we live in, there are certain agenda, memo and rules that must be implemented courteously and authoritatively by influential people who loves to manipulate the system with little few people that ironically acts as a simple, non-intellectual machinery to them. Some see humans beings as cowards, a remote control, imbecile and in-despensible life form that one clap from the high chair above will be thrown out in garbage truck.
Date Written: February 11,2006

"The Little Angel came Home"

2008-08-11T19:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a joyful sunday. All our loved-one's, loving relatives & my mom's closest friend joined the celebration of my Mom's 56th Birthday. With a surprised gift that our Little Angel had arrived with her Mom Ann to greet and be with us on that happy day. I can see in my mother's eye that she really missed the child. Upon embracing and kissing her, tears suddenly fell into her cheeks and we gladly noticed it. I have mixed emotions upon having bath on that morning. I felt an extraordinary happiness and a little sprinkle of sadness.I can't explain that emotions but I believe it's natural to feel this way. I don't know, but, I can sense into my nerves that this will be the last celebration I will be seeing and will be attending to my closest and loving family. Then, another happy moments will be filled in another chapter of my life in another world or even another country. Our laughters and giggle will always be remembered. The memorable pictures that seem so everlasting. The cool moods and loving embrace of friends, cousins, grand mother, Uncle and Antie's will just a loving and sweet memory I'll treasure. I can't believe that I have never open any cent into my pocket but thankfully that day surpass with abundant blessing. I was so thankful in our Father in Heaven for guiding and blessing that wonderful day. Thank you Oh Lord. How can I throw any cent if I don't have any and I'm thankful to my Uncle that his there to make my mother's day alive and glorious. Wishing them all good health, love and happiness in the World. Maybe, soon, I can give back all the love and happiness my mom gives us. I love my mother and I'm thankful for having her around. I thanked for the arrival of our little Angel, she gives a big smile in our heart's..

My Untitled Attitude Problem

2008-08-09T17:43:00.000+08:00

Such a bump, that shakes my head, a big trouble, a worry that lifts me up unknowingly. I might be unconscious but too uncaring to take such particular move to discard immediate behavior.
Am I too careful or too safe guarding to myself. Am I too judgemental, bossy that demands acting to be appropriate or I'm too careful to make mistakes that makes my actions to displaced blame to other person. Am I too realist and perfectionist that I want balance that I'm disturbing their will to choose. That I'm controlling their words and actions that makes me a villain, not a friend.Did I really want to hear them speak, Did I really want them to be independent. Did I grab their integrity, their opinions, their decisions in life. Did I expected too much in return? I believe all the answers is "Yes", and it threatens my personality because I know in fact that denial, pity , grief, insecurity and inferiority are qualities that kills me slowly. That I'm turning againts myself and to other's that makes me so weak, while, hiding to a edifice mode that I'm brave that I can handle all.
But, in reality. I'm too weak, full of fear and it worries me a lot. It worsens daily that I don't even recognized. I guess, it really knocks me. i don't know how to move. Now, I'm back to my old shell, powerless, so inferior and lost.
That I don't know where to run, how to walked again, to stand and stroll and to face people in my world. Cycles repeats it's phase until now I have not learned. I shouldn't have, but, It breaks again. But, how can I move. I guess, my heart will dictates the true inner me, as the holy spirit and Jesus Unconditional Love and goodness regains my ownself. Be Back in his arms and there will be peace in my heart, in my mind and my whole personality. As I gain confidence and hope in him, that he will mold me the way it should be. I need to trust him and put all my faith in his arms, so everything on his hands and all his plans will be made accordingly at the right time at the right place.
Date Written:February 28,2007

"Thank you for the gift of Friendship"

2008-08-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

I remember those days, when I almost cried to death, that all my failures seems so inevitable that I lose any hope and will to live, when my heart is crushed with all the betrayal of a lost love, when my body seems so pale and weak to continue the hardship and responsibility of life and family, when all my hopes in a good and ideal career is winding in a zigzag road that cannot be straighten, when all my dreams are gone into the wind, "YOU ARE ALL THERE & YOU ARE ALL I HAVE" ,my true and sincere friends. What defines a genuine Friend? I believe a Friend is like a bulb who lightens up and gives strength to a flickering road. A friend who unites one's broken heart and inspired to continue loving and waiting for the right and perfect man to arrive. A Friend who never gives up to encourage and gives hope when things fall apart. A friend who listens with his heart , mind and soul ready to speak his/her own language. A friend who can rely on with no limitations and boundaries. A friend is timeless filed with love and compassion. That's all defines a kind of Friendship I have and I'm so blessed to have them. They knew who they are and I want them to know, how much I value them and how much they are important to me. Remember, I will always be your trusted and wonderful friend, wherever I may go, whatever road I'll take. I'll be forever honored and thankful that I met you all. As I reminisce the years, when we drink tequila after class and sung on videoke on our out of town gimmicks and as we went to Storyland, Nasugbo, Tagaytay or even Volets to unwind and nurture our true friendship, all those laughters and the trials of college Life , the pail of tears and sacrifices in life, work, family and love-ones, we've been through a lot and we been able to surpass it, as we hold each other's arms, with prayers that stand the most of our friendship. Thank you for the time you spent with me for all the up's and down of my life, thank you for the genuine love and true gift of friendship you share... your all my Angels on Earth .thank you........
Always bear this quotation, as my name recalls your memory: "TRUE FRIEND IS A SURE REFUGE-Aristotle" and "A TRUE FRIEND IS ONE WHO HEARS AND UNDERSTANDS WHEN YOU SHARE YOUR DEEPEST FEELING. HE SUPPORTS YOU WHEN YOU ARE STRUGGLING,HE CORRECTS YOU, GENTLY AND WITH LOVE, WHEN YOU ERR, AND HE FORGIVES YOU WHEN YOU FAIL. A TRUE FRIEND PRODS YOU TO PERSONAL GROWTH, STRETCHES YOU TO YOUR FULL POTENTIAL, AND MOST AMAZING OF ALL, HE CELEBRATES YOUR SUCCESSES AS IF THEY WERE HIS OWN.-Richard Exley" ----seraphim blue

My Worry Rides in a Tri-cycle

2008-08-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

My life has a slow and fast cycles, like a rough path, there are pieces of stones that strucked me and prevent me to continue my journey. Those are my big worries, a bunck of anxieties ,financial bankruptcy, pail of depressions, past burdens, academic failures and heartaches that let my stomach ulcers boost up, even if my migraine shoot up and let my blood gos down and my insomia increasing disabling my health that let my temper in the morning, get mad and wild that begins my harsh words and high pitched loud of demands and commands to my family members.
Then,I learned to read books that improve and shift my senses to negative and positive to read true to life experiences that was printed to guide as a proof that prayers works to get rid of worries. But, one remedy that keeps me holding my faith intact, when my anxiety attacks, when I felt that my world is crumbling down, when I feel I'm alone. That I'm not happy. I just sit inside the the "Baclaran Church", Silence is within me, Peace and Love of the Lord is what I feel. Like hope , it flows in me. As I stare, feel my heartbeat. My worry and problem disseminates in the air. As I ride, the Tri-cycle of my life, as it goes, day by day, it gives me hope that time will do it's part, as our savior strengthens me and banishes all my fear in the future. I may sinked down, delayed all my flights, turned to other routes. But, I managed to look at the big window on the airport, as I see the blue skies where planes passed by. I just sighed, thank you God for a new,wonderful day and all the blessings that comes my way....
Date written: February 26,2007

A Child Like Joy

2008-07-24T17:52:00.001+08:00

Everybody has a Child Like actions within. Oftentimes, we ignore the signs but as we grew older. Our hearts became hard as a stone, as genius like the kings or even as selfish like the crocs living in deep forest in Africa. But, how does our heart's grew as self centered and unkind to less fortunate people. Primarily, people oftentimes forgets their past, they forget their roots. They are too proud on what position they have.Seldom, denial strikes that he is fulfilled and happy with material things, fame, power around him.But, Does he really felt happiness within? Can he/she really laughs sincerely? or is he keeping all the tears in the middle of the night. No one can recognized your sadness especially if you demand rules, if you are in command who gives orders, if you are stress-out implementing regulations in a big organization, if you supervised members in a committee and you take all the responsibility to overcharge and dictate to all your subordinates. You have in your hand to do whatever it takes to manipulate and let people follow your command. But, have you listen to your heart lately. Do you feel that there is something incomplete in your life? That you are longing to have and do something creative and relaxing. Can you recognized that you need to stop working and really start living? Does your memories in childhood years lingers within your soul? If you answered, yes. Probably, you can start filling each day with a smile.Learn to be a child again. Appreciate simple things that comes your way. Be thankful on each abundant blessings, a mentor shares. Have a Child Like-Joy that overwhelms your soul, that gives warmth in your mind, that relaxes your body and soul. Do things without thinking intellectually that makes you happy and complete. Make each day as it was your last. Value the things that gives you pleasure. Be compassionate and be loving to people whom you care a lot. Remember to express how much she/he is important in your life. You can start it now. Be a Child within, it's the only way to open the gate in heaven, be Innocent and feel the love of people around you. Be humble and enjoy the wonderful creations, God made for us. Listen to your heart beats, feel the wave of the sea, look at the blue sky above, smell the flowers everyday, smile whenever you feel like doing it. Fill your heart with joy, even you grew older, you will be wiser because you have a heart of a child. You will always feel beautiful and young all the time and all your life. That's the way it should be and God wants it to be.

Sadness felt Without the Little Angel

2008-07-23T13:40:00.000+08:00

Whenever I went home from a 24Hour Duty, I have freebies, I'll bring a long just to give it to our little angel tintin, she is like my daughter, she's the daughter of my bestfriend. I miss the days, when she embrace me so tight, kiss me and called me "ninang ", the way we watched dora, kungfu panda, urdujah and spongebob in YOUTUBE, how persistent she is to listen to the headset and how wonderful she can danced to "giling giling in wowwee at channel 2. All I can hear is her voices, how I love if I make her cry if I won't give the toy or things she wants..Definitely, I can't tolerate her all the time. Even, my mom is quite stubborn tolerating all our angel wants, of course her grandma always agrees. But, still the decisions, comes to her real mom ,marian. While ago, my mother told me that our little angel called, and I caught her almost crying. I see in my mother's eye. How she missed the child? her children is all Bachelors that's why we can't really give her grand son or grand daughter. That's why, all her attention is really focused on that child and she's the one who take care of that child since she was born and until now she's two year's old, my mom raises her up. Primarily, the child wants everyday to go in our House. But, sadly, arguments comes out with her mother and her Brother that the reason, the little child is living far away from us.I'm missing the little angel, but, life goes on, she will always on our hearts and she will always be my little angel. Her Birth gives my mother strength to be happy again and continue to all her struggles in Life. She's been a source of our joy during our darkness hours when our financial status sunk down into wilderness. She is sent by our dear Lord to cheer us, inspired us and help us to overcome our difficulties and she did erased the fights and she sew the hatred into love, she lighten our days....our little angel is around the corner, she will be here and my mom will laughed again and I'll smile with a warmth embrace. Love you my little angel tintin.

Can I managed a New Role?

2008-07-20T19:05:00.001+08:00

Each man carries a role in one's life. One can play any role he/she wants. No matter how difficult it can be. You are the master of a real drama in your Life. You are the Engineer of your own building. Oftentimes, you are confused , if you can handle or ignore the position you are meant to have. But, as you handle and encounter another experience , you became depressed or either excited to achieved something that is not for you. You easily go blinded , to step on another field but learning to reflect and watch for your actions are the key to strengthen the goal you really want to have. It doesn't matter if you can performed or not, but, what matter's most is you finished it with pure heart, integrity and dignity. Managing a Role entails a lot of responsibility and sacrifices, if you are willing to take all the risk and accept the willingness of heart, you can handle those challenges. With Hope and Faith in God, You can stand , be brave to face all the trials. Even how many failures and pain's you undergo, as long as you have the faith in God and will to move on. Believe in yourself that you are wonderful and you can create your life fabulously. Everything will fall on the right place as God intended to be.

On my Behalf I carry a Heart

2008-07-19T22:17:00.001+08:00

Learning to feel one's emotions, takes a lot of wisdom in determining one's heart and one's goodness. One carry a soul that comforts and heals the pain, some carry a heart that encourage to love again and some carry it with hope that someday you will meet the right man/woman for you.... On my behalf I carry a Heart, a sincere and truthful heart promising to care, love wholeheartedly and be faithful 'till eternity. You longed for compassion and the will to survive , to continue to hope that your love will grow, that each moment will be filled with happiness ad each steps will be a memory be remembered as a joyful and wonderful experience. I've known you, even for a while. I know, you have a good soul and I believe that you won't hurt me the way other's did. On your behalf , I thank you for finding me and I'll always cherished you for making our both world's near and reconnected. With all the pain, stressful works and tears, I only wished I can be the one who can swept all the sad memories you've been....as we take another step , a new chapter of our life, may our friendship , care and love dwells and grow each day as we let each other know our uniqueness of race and culture.. I offered a Heart for you and for your child , may each day be fruitful and filled with love and faith in God..May our journey together be directed with goodness of our almighty Father in Heaven.

For a Genuine Friendship

2008-07-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

Whoever finds a faithful and true Friend is a miracle manifested in life. A wonderful encounter of a genuine person who dwells with truth,goodness, love, compassion and care. From beginning to end, I met people in different walks of life. Oftentimes, I encounter them on the roads, I help them and befriend them. While other's , I met them online that marks and leave traces in my heart, that touches and gives me lessons to linger in my mind to continue to give hope, laughter and courage to every person I met even within the vicinity of the port, the mall, the street or in the web. I turn my consolation , to people I value who gives me a wonderful meaning in my life. Friends who left marks in my heart that forever be valued and remembered. I discovered a love that is treasured beyond the sparkles of gold and even as delicate as a wine taste, I open up a treasure chest of brilliant and wonderful people who understands my emotions, who accepts me for what I am, who listen to my tantrums and to my different attitudes, who comforts and give me joy when my heart is broken into pieces. I glorified the gift of genuine friendship with joy in my heart. I thrilled each moment, I'm with them and I'll forever cherished each step we make as we journey our sisterly and brotherly friendship. I sheltered a Friend , I sheltered there love,care and loyalty. I'll treasured it in my heart. I Thank thee for them...

Moving another Chapter of my Faith

2008-07-13T10:56:00.000+08:00

Can I predict what will happen for the future? Can I state a particular moment which I feel glorified or be the saddest moment in my life? the answer is NO, I can't.Because I could only read the signs and dreams I have. But, do I really need to watched and listen to the voices that whispering into my ears, or my doubts and fear will prevail or my faith in our dear Lord will stand most in high. I believe in God, and I know everything will be good as directed to his will, on his time, on his abundance blessings , thy will be done according to his goodness. Moving another chapter in my life,is quite exciting, nervous, scary, mixed emotions of sadness and joy but whatever emotions I felt. My faith still stand strong and in believing that I'll be living and working in another country and that his goodness will prevail and all his plans for me will be good according to his will and love. A new blaze of trail., I'll be heading, another journey to unknown place wherein I hope this time, I will be happy , fulfilled with hope , contentment and love. May the Good and loving Father in Heaven bless and direct my way....May he strengthen my faith and walked towards his path.. Thank you our Father for everything , Thank you for all the love and guidance my God, Almighty.

Oppurtunity knocks Once, they oftenly says!

2008-07-06T21:45:00.000+08:00

Chances in this World, is quite filled with consequences and a lot of Trial & Errors, you win some and you lose some, you gambled and taken the risk,you make your decisions and be tough with it. You hold your own key on your hand, you lift your own wings and you continue your flight where your destiny holds you. You chooses to be strong and having the faith in your own wheel of Life. You tried to be independent and stand on your integrity and soon, you'll win the battle. You are cautious and careful not to ruined yourself , that you allow to insist and persist what your mind and heart tells you. You have the power to lighten up your goals and values. You wished to achieved everthing, your heart desires. You carry a soul filled with confidence and Faith in God, as I let the good Lord plan for my life, Oppurtunity knocks only once, as people says. Either you GO or STOP on the intersection,as you can deal with your own cards, either you take another card or stop the game you play. You can give another shot to play around and be the captain of the deck., or pull down your cards and go back Home. I'm puzzled with the chances of working in another country, Can I hold it back or ignore, or can I continue and try to live my life independently with the Lord's guidance. I have the key in my hand, may I open the door with guidance and good goals parades my way by our dear Lord's settings.

Dining with a Tough Friend

2008-07-05T20:03:00.003+08:00

Learning her attitude makes me oftenly disturbed on how could I act towards her. She has a beautiful face, she is carrying a baby and that makes her vulnerable to fatigue but still her views about life and all her opinions still bursting with confidence and strong appeal. A woman, with courage, facing by herself with her husband away working in the sea and with his son on her in-laws. I’m proud of her, for her distinct and tough character and most of all for a loving mom. She’s fond of her friends, with her talkativenss, being so friendly and fun to be with. Though, sometimes she had a delicate attitude that makes me different fro her. I’ve dine with the Quarantine Doctor, his a sweet, timid, straight and responsible boss. He honors and love his parents, his one of a kind. A person whose responsibility to his worked is much valued. He knows how to sacrifice and be a sincere friend that let him loved by his subordinates. They have both various characteristics that makes them lift their own personality. I’m happy to be dined with this guys, learning their real friendship, enjoying each conversation makes the whole duty of 24 Hours complete.

Cherishing a Loving Lady Doctor

2008-07-03T18:16:00.000+08:00

Its a blessing having and knowing her. Once, I dreamed that I'll met a wonderful person near the boulevard, I know deep in my heart and to my intuition that I'll be sharing my life with that particular person, but, I have never expected that she will be so close and she will be touching my heart. Teaching me lessons in life , love , work , family and friends. I've learned that never trust a person too much, never open your heart until you know his/her soul,you can see it into their eyes, if their heart is gold or coal. Think first before you decide, each situations and scenario are different from another, new answers are made, new alternatives are taken. She told me never stop achieving your dreams, your goal in life.Value the things that makes you happy, remember to asked God's help all the time because he is good and he love us unconditionally. I admired her compassion, love and care she given to her 4kids and her husband. She taught me to dwell and learned to accept the weakness of your loved one, you need to encouraged and help the person to know her strength and developed the skills a person has. Never estimate or judged a person according to his/her appearance. Always be humble and be kind to strangers. You can might never knew whom you can bumped on. Listen before you speak, you need to practice the art of listening, that's one of the thing I learned. We are both talkative , so we need to slow down a little. That's what I missed about her. A lot of insight and wisdom she imparted to me. The kindness, love, care and support are outstanding and touching that I cared so much about her. I appreciated and love her so much, she's like a Mother to me, my second mom, with her wonderful position in life, her humble ways despite her supervisory position, she touched a lot people through her love and care. I'll never forget her. I cherished every 24 duty we had, her smile that makes my day brighter, her moments of laughter and tears seems so delighted and worth my journey in life. Some people doesn't like her, they ignored her quite some time, but, some noticed my lady doctor because they needed her. The sad part, people smiles at you,likes you because she can gained a lot from you but after a while, they forgotten all your kindness and efforts. Oftentimes, That's the people living here in this World. However, I'm glad that I met her. I thanked Our providence for knowing her even in a short period of time, we been together. I have learned a lot from her, we might seem rebelious on other eye's but for me she's one of my Angels. Thank you for sharing your life to me, for all the love , the great friendship , care, support and for everything. Happiness is seen into a woman whose heart filled with kindness and joy. May you filled with love, hope and peace of mind. Remember, to smell the flowers each day and thank the Lord for all the blessings she gave. I'll be missing you, you will always be in my heart....mami pi....thank you...

Two years of Silent Friendship

2008-06-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

Years had passed by so fast, that I learned to cherished you so much. I never thought I've known you so well and I understand your unique ways and your indifferent attitude that puzzled me each day. You let me in, In your Own world even I can't fully comprehend your simple gestures but I valued you for giving me the gift of true friendship. Your extraordinary actions that amazed me, your addiction in books that influences me and make me crazy upon seeing and touring the big bookstore houses. I can't imagined will be separating our ways for 2 years, we stayed together on our duties, we comfort each other even when were sick and even if we have tension headache, we learn to share and care for each other, as our friendship grows each days.I've accepted the real you , the odd ways you listen to your mp4's the silent mode we had on the air of our duties that even others may say, that we have our own World. Whatever what they say, they can't matched the calmness of my heart, the real care you shown,is much appreciated and I valued you even more. you been my sister more each day. while, others,can't figure out your moods, just remain unchanged,the pure heart you've shown, the loving ways you done for your family and friends, the punctuality at work , your being so responsible beyond compared, the goodness of your heart ,may forever be true and innocent still.Until, our duty meet again, May you express the way you feel, may your opinions spranged to the open doors, without doubt but with confidence and faith.Learn to be yourself, know yourself more, mingle to others and don't be afraid to open your heart. Don't let anyone ,pull you down, if you feel alone, ill be here for you.If the world doesn't understand you, I'm here to listen. May you speak with love and braveness of heart. No one can hurt you,unless you let them. So, be careful in trusting but still believe in the power of love and friendship. I learned a lot from you, I learned to think first and safety myself before I act and do such decisions and think before I speak so I wont hurt anyone or offended anyone. I'm happy and blessed I've known you michelle. Be brave girl and I wished someday you'll find the right man for you..the one deserving for your kindness and sincere heart of gold. May you find your Daniel in stargate and your harry potter of you life, your prince will come, just believe in your heart and have faith.

The Travelling Pen

2008-06-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

I wonder how a black clouds formed during a storm. As I traveled Home from a 24Hour Duty. A gloomy, Rainy Tuesday fills the air with sleepy eyesight and I want to cradle and lie on my bed the whole day. A traffic jam flashed my seen towards the intersection as I stare a white sky that tried to blink on my bus window. I imagined people who doesn’t have descent home during this stormy season. The cold, clammy hands who lingers a warmth place to live-in. Do they have enough food supply to last for a week or even a single day. As I walked, to an over passed which flooded by water , that my wet shoes feels like water is overflowing in my socks. But, I continue to Thank God for this wonderful day and praying for those poor people on the sidewalks that they may surpass this water flooding day, my sleepy eyes still focused on my writings as I burst all the words inside my head. I longed to see my loved ones because I wanted to stay , talked and embraced my pillow with this cold time seasons. Can a red hood jacket protects me from a stormy hard rain and wind. I sighed, I think , No it can’t. but I need to park my pen. I’m beyond my stop point. As I watched the fast speed colors of the bus code. I have glee in my heart that I have sign and part my pen again
9:40am Off NAIA Duty
August 7,2007

A Romantic Soul

2008-06-20T16:30:00.001+08:00

A sweet amiable romantic soul like me believes in everything when it comes, to love, I believe that each people here on earth has their own partner whom they share one’s life, it’s destiny that one finds his soul connection, it’s one’s choice to make it stronger and last forever , true love comes if your real to yourself , your willing to be faithful , to surrender, to commit and to sacrifice everything you had to see the one you love happy,. Even it takes a lot of tears and risks to feel true love. Once, a love story untold, one wished a happy ending, all lady wants to achieved and feel the esctacy of truly falling in love head over heels to a prince she dreamt of all of her life. Maybe, I’m one of those well-wishers, hoping someday ,my wished of a man will come true, he will be knocking and I’ll give my heart as true , pure as a gold… that all my loneliness will eludes and romantic dream , a sweet dream be reality.

Emptying Our Hearts to feel the Unconditional Love

2008-06-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

God often empties our hands to feel our heart's ,to listen and pause for silence , to linger that there is a superior Holy Spirit that binds us to keep life going, to reach the boundaries of being human, that no matter how many ladder we step , how many races we lose, how many deep pits we fall, there is a greater unconditional love which magnets us to bring closer to the one who creates us. Its our Lord, our Dear Providence who works mysteriously in our lives.

Journey of Your Heart

2008-06-18T21:38:00.000+08:00

You need to forsee yourself attaining the goal your heart's desire, what's important is you felt glad choosing the path you really want,even if circumstances comes that you failed and never get the things or dream you wished. Atleast, you tried and done your best. It's not what if or I can't. You should follow what's in your heart, of course you used your mind to think what's best for you. But, never listen to what other's dictates you. It's your happiness you don't owe them anything. It's your decision , it's your own life , its your own risks to be sad or to be joyful because life is too short to listen to other's opinions. You may not get the dream you longed for, but, you given a good fight,in the end, its the acceptance of one person that leads your heart to another journey that you deserve , that had already planned from above only for you, that awaits you to seek and just simply say thank you cause all along its been there. Written-April6,07,Inspired by Dra.Pilar Dela Rosa

5 Steps:Remedy of Depression

2008-06-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

A simple solution: The first step is to know the Origin or where it coming from,Ask Yourself: why am I depressed? Second: Accept the fact that it happened. sometimes things happen for a reason, you might never knew it but it did. Don't fight with the inevitable situation.Third: Solved the Scenario. You don't need to lie in the couch for the whole week, if you can't solved it. Remember time passes by, All wounds and all pains surpasses and the clock always ticks. There's a brand new day ahead of you.Fourth: Pray and be Positive. Life Continues, every drop of your tears there's an Angel sent by God to calm you down, give you peace and comforts you. No matter what the outcome will be, you have your families and Friends to keep you standing up to fight in turmoil World. Fifth Steps: Give a Smile to everyone. Even if they can't give it back to you ,I'm positive it can change your outlook in Life. A positive energy will flow to your system. Believe me. You can send me message,if you want to talked about anything. I can be your Friend.

Having a Sincere Heart takes a lot of Integrity

2008-06-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

Loving a person entitles you to hold a certain commitment, a Life filled with responsibility, filled with compassion and a heart filled with true and undefined love and integrity. All my life. I'm dreamt to live and find someone who could love me the way I deserved, someone who could take care of me and be sincere to his actions and be willing to sacrifice for my sake and for my happiness. But, it eludes me the moment I find it, I just can't believe how devastating and how painful it could be, its like iron sharpens the sword, all character are burst into open, like your opening a scented jar, at first the aroma, entails you to smell and be familiarized it, but, as day steps by, the aroma dissappears in the air, like the wind , like the tornado and a summer day, it pass by and soon it will be gone away. Do i have the integrity to love a person, Am i sincere enough to value and love the person who loves me , am I too proud that someone sacrifices and care for me? or I am just happy to be loved but I can return the same love they are giving? Am I too expectant or too judgemental? Some people say, my spiritual mentors in books told me, that people or mentors come into your life for a reason to teach you or vice versa so they could learn from you or either you will learn from them. But, do I learned something or I'm still repeating the same mistakes. I knew in my heart what I'm searching for but I just couldn't determined what my heart really wants. May our Creator, My savior , My Bestfriend Guide me so I may find the perfect outcome, the true love or great love in my life. May i have the strength to have a Sincere Heart with an unconditional Love and Integrity so I may learn to value and share my sincere love to others and to the right man. May the Angel of Divine Love show me the way and prepares my way. Thank thee...

The Right kind of Web Camera

2008-06-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

I sound so excited at 7pm because my dear Ricky is going to see me online, its quite unfair on my side but I have to take the risk for the reason that I want to know his reactions towards me. I may say, we have the power to judge and appreciate one's beauty I don't even knew if his sincere, but,I'm willing to take chances.Each angle that focuses the picture of a unique being signifies the beauty it beholds. I'm so excited then and I wanted the clock to be a 7pm because that will be the first time where Ricky will see me in flesh that the person his chatting with is real. I take the chances and I have taken the risk, even I have not seen the guy I have taken the steps to overtake my fear and see myself in the cam. I don't even knew if his sincere but deep within my heart that he is. Did I find the right camera, is the angle focuses my scintillating ,poppy eyes, does the lights blends with the surroundings. I might even knew his right reactions or if his telling the truth but I still hoped and wished that we can last or our chats will stay. May our friendship and love stays even we meet again in real life and in real world.

A Day with Little Tintin

2008-06-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

I wake up with a loud cute voice of a little child, calling my name . Wake up, Ninang. Wake up! With my mom accompanying her and with her mom, my bestfriend, I guess who will not wake up as my little girl kisses me for a morning kiss. I love this kid, she is the daughter of my bestfriend Marian. They are living beside our house, every morning they wake up and straight to our house, just to see us, be with and play with me as we color, draw,watch cartoons and telenovela's, type in the emails and cuddled the whole afternoon. We have lots of fun. maybe, because I love children and they make me feel young and energize. It gives you a certain glow in your heart that makes you happy the whole day. Whenever, I got out from worked. I instantly wanna see this little cute 2 year old child, I have a little gift for her from the Airport which I'm presently employed upon giving that simple gift. She gave me a sweet kiss and tells me "thank you, ninang ganda" it means thank you my beautiful ninang. Her Mommy Ann and Tintin are so important in my life. Whenever I got sad, I have them at my side.. Bless them with a good future...

The Heart of Internet World

2008-06-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

A lot of men and women are engaging in online chats. Some go online to find their mate , a partner in life, a friend whom they can confide in to lessen their loneliness or brighten their day at work. Some are too rude too boast how big their gun down, while others are too kind and sad even with high paying positions. They can't easily be overjoyed for such a minute of time, having a cool conversation. A lot of Asians are much fond of online chats. Nowadays, we have the technology to link ourselves to view and intervened the lives of other human being through the advance gadget we have. I have the ability to write , protect and care for the welfare of my fellow chatter friends. Internationally I'm equipped with the understanding that each soul has the ability to expand beyond their lonesome and fruitful days. Some can speak only in their words, but the heart knows, what it speaks. Many of us are living alone, having the time of our lives but sometimes as we cuddled into our bed at the middle of the night. We end up with a sigh, longing for a friend or a loved perhaps to care and listen. The International and Global scene reflects how the turmoil world expresses a kind of emotions of fear of being left alone, fear of getting old without experiencing love, fear of no one is listening , fear of having a conversation with your own self. You create an Worldwide bonding , a blog or chats that sprinkle a blink of happiness , chance to be known , to be loved and to be cared. So, as you post a blog, or chat with a friend or strangers perhaps you are rising the thoughts of love and joy into his/her heart. So, enjoy meeting people and sharing ideas that makes you a better person to lived in this wonderful Internet world.